Hi everyone! This is my first FF so try to go a little easy on me lol I would like to thank DayAnnKnight for her help and support. Enjoy!
Bella POV
My name is Isabella Marie Swan but I prefer Bella. I'm about 5'4, brown hair and eyes. I always thought I was decent looking, not over the top, but just decent. I lived in Forks, Washington my entire life. My parents Charlie, chief at Forks Police Station, and my mom Renee is an English teacher at Forks Elementary. I've had a pretty good life. I did well in school; good grades, nice friends and had even fallen in love.
Jacob and I have known each other since we were in diapers. His parents, Billy and Sarah, are my parents close friends. Whenever there was a bonfire, BBQ or just too simply hang out they will call each other up. That's how Jacob and I became so close.
We were best friends for a long time but as time flew by we started seeing each other differently. We were both to shy to say anything so we kept it to ourselves but that silence didn't last long. One evening Jacob called me to invite me to a bonfire for teenagers only. No parents. I was super excited. Finally a little bit of freedom I thought.
On our way there Renee was giving me a lecture on boys and how boys act around pretty girls. To top it off, my dad was telling my mom to stay quiet and not put any ideas in my head about boys and what not. He even stopped the car to say that if any of the boys made a move on me he will hunt them down. No one touches his little girl and gets away with it. Ladies and gentlemen, the over-protective father award goes to Charlie Swan!
Is not like I'm going to fall for whatever a guy says. They should have a little bit more of faith in me but oh well I guess is part of a parents job to worry so I just stay quiet and nod occasionally like I'm really paying attention. In all my parents blabbering my mind drifts of to Jacob.
Does he like me?
Would he get jealous if another boy talks to me?
Does he even care?
Ughh this is frustrating. I shouldn't care what he thinks. He shouldn't be on my mind all the time. I'm only sixteen. I still cry when I watch The Lion King, besides I'm his best friend and am ok if he doesn't feel the same way. I mean of course it would be nice if he liked me but if he just wants me to be his friend that's fine with me.
I was still on my little world when we arrived at Jacob's house. Not one minute has pass since I arrived and he was already opening the door and hugging me, crushing me is more like it.
"Bella I'm so happy that you came" he said screaming in my ear.
"I'm glad I came too but Jake let me get out of the car first. I need to breathe" I said between gasps.
"Oh sorry" but his smile said otherwise.
I started giggling a little while getting out of the car. Why am I giggling like a little girl with a crush? Oh yeah that's right because I am a little girl with a crush, except this girl is crushing on her best friend.
"Bella are you ok? Why are you blushing?" he asked bringing me back to reality.
"Oh is nothing. Your hug took a lot of air out me" I told him joking. His laughter was music to my ears.
How can he at sixteen be so good looking? Isn't this age supposed to be awkward and getting acne all over the face but not him. His skin is flawless, he gets a little bit taller everyday and his smile makes my heart beat faster.
Wow Bella you got it bad. Keep it cool or else he will know that you like him but what if I want him to know? This can't be happening, I'm arguing with myself. I must be losing it.
"Hellooooooo? Is anybody home?" he asked while waving his hands around my eyes.
"Yes Jacob I'm here" I said a bit harshly.
"Yesh sorry. Didn't mean to offend you" he said sounding hurt and you did that because you're an idiot, way to go Bella.
"Jake I'm sorry. I just have a lot on my mind tonight"
"Well what is it Bella? You know you can count on me for anything" and there he goes again being wonderful.
"I know Jake" I told him smiling."But this is something I have to figure on my own. I hope you understand"
"I do Bells I do" he said nodding and opened his arms to me. I smiled and closed the distance between us.
"Are you guys going to stay up there all night? Get your behinds down here before I carry you both" Paul yelled.
"Uh, let's go Bella. Paul carrying me will hurt my pride, and manly side" he said while breathing deeply getting his chest to rise up.
"What manly side you're talking about Jacob? When you played dress up with me when we were five or when you were caught playing Barbie with me when we were seven?" I said while laughing.
"Bella! That is top secret." He said while looking around checking that no one heard me.
"Your secret is safe with me" I said giggling.
"Yeah right" he said rolling his eyes.
"Let's go Jacky" I said laughing.
"Uh, Bella you're going to get it"
I started running hoping I won't trip. He was growling, running very fast. Just a little bit more Bella I thought.
"Kim! I need help. Big bad wolf wants to be eat me" I yelled at her.
"Don't worry Bella we got your back!"
In that moment Emily, Leah, Kim and Claire charge at Jacob like pack animals.
" Noooooooooooo! Guys help me! I won't survive this" he said pleading
I look at the guys and saw nothing but fear in their eyes. HA! Good for them. They should be scare of us.
"Please girls, I promise I won't do anything to Bella, just please let me be free!" he was now on his knees begging.
Poor guy. I should stop this, but is way too funny.
"Ok Jacob Black, we won't do anything to you, but if you screw up once, be afraid be very afraid!" Wow who knew Claire could be scary. Jacob looks like his going to be sick.
"I won't I promise."
"Good. Now party time!"
The girls sat together while Paul, Sam, Jacob and Seth went to play football. We cheered for them for a while but we got tired of them yelling over who's really winning so us girls talked, gossip a little, I mean common we are girls. While I was talking to Kim I notice this guy sitting next to Embry. He looked like he was around eighteen. He had deep brown eyes and a very sweet smile. He looked up to me, I quickly looked back at Kim.
"Kim, who is that?" She looked at where I was looking and smiled.
"His name is Shane, his Embry's cousin. Came here to spend summer vacation."
"Oh" Good answer Bella.
"Yeah oh" she said giggling a little.
We continued talking until the guys came back saying that they wanted food. No surprise there. Kim and I got up to help Emily serve while Leah and Claire got everyone drinks. Once the guys were eating, we served ourselves. I was going to sit next to Jacob, but Claire beat me to it so I took the only vacant place next to Shane.
"Hi I'm Shane" he said extending his hand.
"Bella, nice to meet you Shane" I said shaking it.
"The pleasure is all mine Miss Bella"
I smiled at him and started to eat. We sat in silence for a while. Hearing everyone else around us. I kept noticing Jacob looking at me kind of weird, but I was not sure what was his problem so I let it go, for now.
"So Bella, tell me about yourself" I looked at Shane and saw curiosity.
"Well I'm sixteen. I've been taking ballet since I was three and in my spear time I read. What about you?"
"I'm eighteen. Came here for summer vacation, I'm from California and in my spear time I like to surf."
"Sounds interesting. Do you think you can teach me how to surf?" I asked smiling a little.
"Well Bella is not something I can teach you overnight. If you want to learn how to surf, you're going to be with me all day for a couple of weeks and I'm not an easy person. You think you can handle that?" He asked smirking.
Hmmmm…..could I? Guess we are going to find out.
"Yes I can handle it" I said filling confident.
"Alright is a date" he said smiling ear to ear.
I laugh at his reaction and we continued talking. I could feel someone looking at me but I didn't want to break the conversation with Shane so I let it go. The night continued with laughter, music and food. When it was time to go, I gave Shane my number and told me to wake up early tomorrow to begin my surf lesson. I was super excited. I don't know how I'm going to tell my parents though. I hope they let me go.
I was walking towards my dad's car and I saw Jacob talking to my dad, he looked mad and my mom worried. When I reached them, my dad looked at me angry, Jacob proud and my mom looked like she didn't know what to do.
"What's going on dad?"
"Well what's going on is that Jacob told us that you have a date with an eighteen year old and that he is going to teach you how to surf, over my dead body young lady. You're not going to date an eighteen year old let alone go surfing with one." His face looked like it was about to explode.
I've only yelled at my father once when I was three. I wanted cookies before dinner, he said no and I made my first tantrum. I learned my lesson after my punishment of no eating any type of candy for a week. But this is different. This is about Jacob telling this to my father when he had no right, this is about my father yelling at me, embarrassing me in front of everybody when he could've waited until we got home and this is about my mom not doing anything to stop it.
I'm not three years old anymore. I'm sixteen and ill handle this like the young mature woman that am becoming.
"Goodnight Jacob" I said without a care in the world and walked to the car.
My parents followed behind me. The ride home was quiet, very quiet. The tension was shocking me. Once we arrived home dad said that he wanted to talk to me about what happened.
"Ok let's talk about how you yelled at me in front of everybody instead of talking to me about it once we got home, and how you embarrassed me in front of my friends, and you mom watching all of this and instead of telling dad to calm down, you just stood there doing absolutely nothing" I was on the verge of tears so I walked to my room not bothering saying goodnight and going to bed.
The next day when I woke up I could hear whispers down stairs. I went to the bathroom and once I was done, I went down stairs. When I arrived to the kitchen I saw my mom and dad talking to Jacob and Billy. Probably plotting on how to sink me lower.
"Good morning sweetie" said dad.
"Good morning father" I said without even looking back at him. "So what brings you guys here?" I asked directly to Billy.
"Bella can I talk to you?" Jacob asked
"About?"
"Can we go outside for a walk?" he asked pleading with his eyes.
I took a deep breath and walked outside taking the lead. Once I reached our log, I sat down and he did the same. Nothing was said the first couple of minutes. He looked like he was thinking of what to say so I let him take his time.
"Bella I'm really sorry"
" Sorry for what Jacob? Telling my dad about Shane, butting in on my business. You had no right in doing that Jacob." I told him getting upset
"I know I know. I just couldn't help it"
"What do you mean you couldn't help it?" I asked confused.
He looked at me in that moment with such intensity that I couldn't look away. It was like he was seeing me for the first time. He started to move closer to me, looking down to my lips then to my eyes searching for permission. He found what he was looking for and moved closer towards me. We were inches apart, our bodies moving on their own. I couldn't handle what was about to happen and quite frankly I didn't want to. His lips touched mine and it was like nothing I felt before.
I've only been kissed once. It was at Leah's thirteen birthday party. We were playing spin the bottle and I got Mike Newton. That kiss was horrible. Not only did he have bad breath but when he kissed me, he couldn't control his tongue and slobber all over my mouth. I brushed my teeth like ten times after that. This wasn't anything like that. This kiss made my lips feel warm; my heart felt like it was going to jump out of my body and start flying across the forest.
My body had a mine of its own. I couldn't help my hands going to his hair, his neck and his face but soon enough he stopped and looked at me. His smile was so big I thought it was going to break his face. I shouldn't be talking; mine probably looked the same way.
"Bella"
"Jacob"
"I love you"
If possible my smile grew bigger. He loves me. He loves me. He loves me! Oh my god, I haven't answered him yet. His waiting Bella. Tick tock tick tock.
"I love you too" It is possible someone's smile can get bigger. His reached his ears.
"Is it cheesy to ask you to be my girlfriend?"
"A bit" I laughed
"Well I'm a cheesy guy" He said chuckling.
He took both my hands and looked at me. "Bella Swan will you like to be my girlfriend?"
"YES!"
And there you have it. We dated all through high school. We went to Seattle University together. I majored in Business Administration and Jacob in Mechanical Engineering. On my twentieth birthday, we went to Forks for a family dinner at my house. Everyone was there. Billy, Sarah, my parents and all our friends. Once everyone was seated Jacob stood up, made a toast, then he went on one knee and proposed. I was crying when I gave him my answer. He just kissed me and whispered how much he loved me. We heard congratulations from everyone. Sarah and my mom were crying. Billy and my dad were smirking at us. They knew all along this would happen.
After that day everything else was just a blur. We set the date, the girls planned everything, Kim was my maid of honor and Emily, Leah and Claire my bridesmaids. Everything was set. The wedding was small just our family and closes friends, exactly how I always imagine it.
Now two years later and we are happier than ever. We decided after graduation to stay in Seattle. I was going to open my own ballet study and Jacob got a job at the Seattle Airport repairing airplanes.
Jacob has been hinting about starting a family. I'm not going to lie; I'm a little scared about it. I've always wanted kids but I'm worried that I won't be a good mom. We have to sit down and talked this out. When he comes home tonight I'll bring it up.
The only problem with that was he never came home.
Here I was sitting at church looking at a coffin, my Jacob was in it sleeping peacefully. The minister is talking about him, saying all of what Jacob accomplished in his twenty two years of life. I can hear him but I'm not really listening, I can see other people crying but I can't make out their faces. I feel like the walls are spinning when they are not moving. Is this how you feel when someone you have loved all your life is suddenly gone?
The minister finishes. Everyone around me is talking saying sorry for your lost. Jacob's mom is sitting next to me crying her eyes out for her only son she has lost. Billy is next to her trying to stay strong for her but he looks like his going to break down any minute. My mom is on my other side, trying to comfort me. I feel like a rock. I don't feel anything. I can't cry, I can't scream, I can't do anything but just sit here and have flashbacks of our life together.
Everyone heads to Billy and Sarah's house. I sit in the sofa and just look at the picture they have of Jacob when he was five, covered in mud. He was always so happy.
Why did this happen to me? Why did I have to lose my best friend, my husband?
Everyone leaves. My mom wants me to stay with her for a couple of days, I agree. When I lay on my old bed, I just look at the roof. My mind keeps giving me flashbacks. When he told me he loved me, when we made love for the first time, when we got married. Even though I'm having them I can't cry, I can't do anything but just look at roof. I look at the clock 5:15 a.m. I've been up all night.
The days passed and I just answered when spoken to. I don't make conversation because I don't want to. I decide to head back to Seattle. My parents insisted on coming with me. When we arrived at our apartment my mind drifts to when we bought it. I open the door and suddenly I'm hit with his smell like he was just here. I stay frozen in the doorway looking everywhere. His shoes were close to the door were he would leave them sometimes; the dining room had his laptop and all his work just like he left it. It finally hits me, his gone and I breakdown. I let it all out. Everything that was building inside me burst like a balloon. My mom holds me for hours until I stop crying. I fall asleep in her arms.
I had the strange feeling that I was being watch. I keep walking down the path of the forest and I found our log but someone is sitting there. I walk closer to get a better look. He knows I'm here and smiles, the smile that I've fallen in love with. I ran to him. He held me tight, kissed me.
"I miss you so much Jacob" I sob
"I know Bella, I miss you too but it was time for me to go" he said
He sat down on the log and I sat on his lap.
"Bella I love you so much it hurts but you have to promise me that you will live your life. You will open your dance studio; make all your dreams come true."
"I can't, I can't do it if you're not part of those dreams" I told him crying
He smiled and gently brushed the tears away. "Bella I will be part of those dreams. I will always be there, every step of the way. I will be your guardian angel."
I kissed him, pouring every ounce of my love to him.
"I love you Bella. Never forget that" He started fading away.
"Jacob! Please don't go" I sob.
"Is time to wake up Bella. Promise me you will live your life the fullest. Promise me Bella."
"I will I promise"
The last thing I saw was his smile before he disappeared.
Once I woke up, I started crying quietly. After I calmed down I decided to do what I promise Jacob. I will live my life. I will continue on for him. My first step is moving to a place where I can have a new life, start over and finally have my dance studio in New York.
The next chapter will be up this weekend. Also I will post on my profile pics of the characters hopefully next week. Press that review button lol I would like to know what you all think.