Disclaimer: I don't own any of the hellsing characters I wish though lol ugh but I doubt they'll sell it to me and I don't think I have enough creativity to make it better

Authors note: ok I'm new at this so please no flames this is my first fic so if you don't like please just don't review ohh and if I got anything wrong about hellsing sorry but please no flames

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Under the Pale moon

The night was young in London England the night life in London was active people always partying, drinking, and more but in a park near a mansion called Hellsing Manor there a girl that looked no older than 19 sat on the swings quietly thinking of the life she currently led.

This girls name is Seras Victoria and she led the life of a vampire never seeing daylight always within the darkness she had chosen to live within.

Again I have to endure the pain of having to spend each night to myself. With master Alucard always in Sir Integeras company there's never anyone with me

With a sigh she continued to swing herself softly

Am I truly destined to live such a life for eternity with master always with integral I'm sure that when she passes he'll just forget about my existence. There is also Walter the only person in Hellsing manor that acts civil with me I mean everyone else looks at me like I'm a monster but he's only human and when he is gone I'm still left alone

As the girl sat there her thought soon returned to her beloved master

Argg all I ever end up doing is thinking about master why am I in love with him? No I'm just feeling weird I mean who in the right mind falls in love with a trigger happy psychotic maniac? Really who does I mean just because he has those beautiful red eyes and soft black hair and that cute nose he... seras stop don't think such stupid things what if master alucard is listening what would he think

Still lost in her thoughts seras didn't notice a shadowy figure stare at her with their blood red eyes.

Alright I got to make a plan to do something hmmm I can't waste my days just coming to this park everyday I mean that would be stupid if I did. Also I have to figure out how to deal with this whole having feelings for master it's just not healthy to have them. Ohh I got it I could pick up a hobby like tennis or golf

She smiled happily at this idea but soon her smile faded away

I doubt Sir Integra will allow me to just leave the manor every time I'm off duty ok I guess I just have to think up another thing to do in my past time I could take up origami I mean I could borrow a book and get some paper and learn things I guess or I could just exercise during my spare time

Her smile soon returned to her face as these new ideas started to get her excited but again her smile faltered as the second part of her unfinished problem still remained so again she dove back into her mind

Ok so I got the whole boredom problem figured out now I just have to think up of a creative way to get rid of my feelings for master. I could get a dog and put all my feelings towards master into caring for the dog. Maybe a cat would be better I mean I'm more of a cat person but then again cats are elegant, swift, and cute that's nothing like master dogs are protective, rough, and alert. The traits of a dog remind me more of master so I think I'll go with the dog also other than getting a dog I can focus in sharpening my skills as a vampire and maybe just maybe I can prove to master I 'm not a mistake

With the sun soon beginning to rise seras stood up and soon made her way back to the manor before she left though a few simple words escaped from her lips

" I am strong enough to face the future "

With a smile she left the park unknown to her that the shadowy figure watched her depart. When she was soon out of view the shadowy figure emerged from where he stood in the darkness now recognized as none other than Alucard himself

" This will be interesting"

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Author's note: I guess I could end it like that and leave it to people's imagination to try and figure out what happened depends if I get any reviews and I doubt I will lol