Authors note: So yea, this is some story I just thought about.. If you read it, please review, then i'll update (;
I opened my eyes to another day. I had only been sleeping for just an half hour or so. Thoughts had kept me awake all night, just as they had did since.. I couldn't even remember when I had had a good whole night of sleep, and it was showing.
The red eyed beauty beside me slept calmly and, undisturbed by my glance at her pale body, not covered by the sheets. I could not deny that she was indescribably beautiful, and that I desired her even more for every day that passed by.. Yet it still felt so far away. I desired her, but yet I didn't.
It wasn't how it once were between us. Once my affection for her was overwhelming. I thought about her every minute of everyday, and I couldn't stay away from her for too long.
But now, all those feelings was just.. Gone. We hadn't made love, in two months, and I never complained. It was more her, who took the initiative, and every time I came up with all kinds of excuses. You could say that she started to get suspicious, but I always ensured her that my love for her was still undying and all that..
Though I didn't feel as I felt when we first met, I still wasn't ready to let the warrior go. I was confused. I couldn't right understand the thoughts that kept me up at night. And how I got them in the first place, I couldn't remember.
"Baralai?" a rusty voice said.
I had been staring at nothing in particular just thinking. I hadn't noticed that my beauty had awaked.
"Yes, my love?" I replied. I had a need to call her that every morning.
"You were staring." she said, and sat up in the bed, rubbing her ruby eyes.
She found me staring almost every morning. Our mornings was in fact pretty much the same, every morning.
I woke up before her. I started just staring at her, thinking. She awoke, I called her my love, she asked me if anything was wrong, usually I just replied that her beauty was overwhelming. But it was getting old. Soon I would not be able to lie to her any more. Soon I couldn't take these thoughts and feelings no more. Soon I couldn't keep them by myself. I had to tell somebody, get it off my chest.
I didn't really know what it was, but I hoped it was just some kind of phase.
"Yeah.. I guess I was," I just replied. Didn't have the creativity to come up with some clever phrase. Didn't want to anyway.
"Something's wrong Bare?" she asked. Her brows slightly lifted in a concerned but serious look. But it was gone the second later. She almost never used that nickname for me, so I knew I wouldn't get away with "You're beauty is just so overwhelming."
I didn't answer right away. I had to think it through. Was it a good idea to tell her about these feelings I had? Or was it a good idea, to lie to her, yet again?
"Bare.. You've seemed so distant lately. What is bugging you?" she asked. I loved that dark, slightly manly voice of hers. It was hard, but gentle.
When Paine confronted people with this kind of stuff, it was only people she cared a hell lot about.
I sighed. I couldn't tell her. At least not right now.
"Paine, my love.." I stopped. I felt a slight discomfort in my stomach, when I said it.
I shook my head, slowly. Looking at her.
"No nothing's wrong. I'm just fine. Just a bit tired," I then said. Well, the last thing was true.
She didn't say anything else. She let it go, knowing that I was lying, but also knowing that I wouldn't tell her right now.
She looked away from me, stretched her body, and got out of bed. I looked at her slender body, as she walked out of the room, to take the daily morning bath.
I sighed for the second time, got out of bed, and walked over to the window, pulled away the curtains, and watched as the morning sun filled the room.
The streets of Bevelle was already crowded. I stood there, just looking at the people, who had no concerns now.
I was disturbed, when I heard the phone ringing. I turned and looked at it, not going to answer it. Just focused my eyes on the city again.
The phone kept ringing, and soon Paine came out of the bathroom, wearing only a towel. Her hair was wet and dripping. She looked at me once, before answering the phone.
"Hello?" she answered it, and walked out in the bathroom again.
I didn't move from my spot, until she came out again.
"That was Gippal," she said, and put the phone back on the table.
As I heard his name, all my other thoughts disappeared. Gippal. My best friend.
"So what did he want?" I asked, not sounding too curious.
"He and Rikku and, Yunna and Tidus, invited us on a field trip," she answered. A field trip. This wasn't something Paine usually wanted to do, so I quickly said that that was a great idea and that we should go.
She didn't look too excited, but my puppy eyes should convince her to go.
"Alright then. But we're not staying for that long!" she stated.
Maybe I didn't need that long anyway. This was maybe my chance to come out with my feelings and my thoughts. I was starting to think that it was necessary.
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