Alone
My love burns with the eternal flame
Through my turmoil and my pain
I want to go back and be with you
Find a love so pure and true
It kills me more to be alone and know your with him then my physical wounds ever will
Sitting here thinking about that night
Teetering between dark and light
Scotch after Scotch, that's what keeps me alive
Keeping me here no need to survive
Except to see that your safe and unharmed
You so tiny and seemingly unarmed
But I know better, I know how you think
Or at least you rhythms that push you to the brink
Then pull you back again, just like the swelling tide
But now I sit alone here, forced to hide
Away from your genius, your caring, your bravery
Away from your beauty, your finesse, now I see
You've made your choice, which may be the cause
The cause for my pain, what started it all
The motivating force, or, what drove me away
Oh well, it doesn't matter I'm here and anyway
I believe I was right or I was trying to get there
Instead this happened all this 'wear and tear'
I miss everyone, everything
Every time there's a knock, every time the phone rings
I think maybe it's one of you calling to talk
Maybe to ask if we could just take a walk
Ask my side of the story, what really happened
Or maybe I'll awaken from a light nap and
Realize that this was all a bad dream
One where I can't seem to stop the screaming
Inside my head, it just won't go away
I've tried, Lord I've tried, but everyday
It gets worse and worse, louder and stronger
The days just seem to get a little longer
Thinking of you, of him, her, and them
I just start to drink and cry again
I cry alone, I drink alone'
The tingling feeling's almost gone
I'm becoming numb now; it's starting to get dark
No more sunrises, waterfalls, singing larks
Maybe I'll wake up again
Maybe this time I won't
But it doesn't really matter because I'm alone and
It kills me more to be alone and know your with him than my physical wounds ever will.