A/N: Hey I'm glad you guys are liking my stories. It's always good to get reviews and comments. It's really appreciated as I've been a reader of fan fiction for a long time. But I'm new to be a writer of it. This story's drabble of Barbara's thoughts and feelings of her past. Her past with the villains of Gotham and everything. Enjoy
Babs P.O.V.
I feel like I'm being ripped apart from the inside. I can't help but wallow in my past. Everything that has made me who I am today. I don't know whether to listen to my heart or my head. One tells me to stop thinking about the past. While the other tells me it's hard not to and it makes me feel like crying. My emotions are going al over the place. It feels like I need to hurt myself because my body can't physically take all these emotions. And that's killing me inside because I don't want to hurt myself. But it feels like I need to. And it's not to do with hormones. It has to do with me not moving forward in my life. I'm not going backwards either, though. I'm stationary. Thinking about everything. What am I doing with my life? Is this who I really am? Am I going to stay this way my whole life? Breaking down over everything. Trying to force my mind not to go through all those memories. On a daily basis. But it still does. No matter how much I try. My mind has become some deep black-hole. I can't find my way out of. And I don't know what to do anymore. Everything's changing around me. And I'm just letting it. Not being a part of it. The world is passing me by. I can't seem to stop it. I can't seem to become a part of it. It takes too much effort. No one knows what I go through every single day. Or what I have been through. What makes up my past. And they never will. Because that' just who I am. Now. A closed book.
A/N: Hoped you liked it. It's super short just like another one of my stories. Sorry. Some concepts I can't stretch out and keeping on going with them. I always like to end my stories in a certain way. Check out my friends' stories. Owlcat92. They're awesome. Make sure you check out my other stories if you like Dick & Babs too. Some of them are drabble though.