Title: "What Hurts The Most."
Author: NALEY HILL
Pairing: NALEY central, with some BL and JP.
Summary: He quickly turned his head down and left his house repulsively. "Yea……. I don't deserve 'Love'. I lost that possession long time ago." He softly mumbled to himself melancholy. Five years ago he made an unjustifiable decision. He decided to choose his career over his true love. As a result, he screwed up his life instead of success. This is NALEY story with some BL & JP.
Disclaimer:Nope, I don't own One Tree Hill. It belongs to Mark Schwahn and the CW NETWORK. I don't even own the story title I got it from Rascal Flatts' song.
Author's note: Hey guys!... Here is my new story. I hope you enjoy it as much as me. Let me know your honest opinion about this story. I'll update the next chapter soon. And just for the record, this is completely NALEY story.Please enjoy this chapter and leave me some comments at the end! Yea…. All your feedbacks and opinions are well come!... Love you guys!... Thanks!
P.S-And this notice is for those who are read my 'Sweet And Low' story. I'll update the next new chapter later today. And I started another story call 'Better Than Me'. So if you not read it yet... Please give it a shot and read it. See you soon guys….. I love you all.
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"What Hurts The Most."
can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me
What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do
It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do
Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do
-By Rascal Flatts
Chapter 01:
At the Nathan's Apartment in LA…………
Nathan Scott woke up at 6:00 Am for his morning run. He put on some L.A. Lakers' basketball shorts and shirt, before brushing his teeth. When he walked into his bed room he saw the naked girl in his bed moving.
"Hey, you want some Pancakes?... I'm gonna make some for us." The girl asked.
"No thanks Rachel, look I'm going out for a run and when I get back I don't wanna see you here, ok." He said not looking at her. He grabbed his IPod and headed for the door.
"You mother fucker!" Rachel yelled at him furiously.
"What ever you say whore," he said laughingly.
"I thought you actually care about me. You called me last night and said you wanna see me and you need me here." Rachel furiously asked.
"Oh cut the bullshit Bitch! I called you and said I need to 'fuck' you. Other than the satisfaction you are useless, you know. Now get dressed and fuck off." Nathan said with his evil smirk.
"You are such a DICK!!" Rachel came directly towards Nathan and raised her hand angrily to slap him.
Nathan quickly grabbed her wrist death tightly and chuckled at her. "Funny, that's why I gave my dick into your mouth until you said enough last night." He loved to piss girls off, making them feel like nothing, because to him that's what they were. Especially girls like Rachel.
"Get off from me you Sick bastard!" Rachel pushed away from Nathan.
"I'm going for my run. When I get back, I don't wanna see you satisfying your self with my baseball bat. So get dressed quickly and get the hell out of my house." Nathan bawled furiously.
"Yea….. Whatever Jackass. No wonder you don't know anything about 'love'. You don't deserve that from anyone!" Rachel shouted with evilly grin.
Nathan dumfounded about Rachel's reveal. She really hit his nerve this time. Nathan quickly turned his head down and left his house repulsively. "Yea……. I don't deserve 'Love'. I lost that possession long time ago." Nathan softly mumbled to himself melancholy.
Five Years Earlier – December 28th2003………………
At the Scotts' Mansion……….
After long basketball practice Nathan pulled his black SUV up his curving driveway, he saw a familiar car parked next to his Mom's 2007 Cadillac Escalade. He groaned softly as he pulled passed it and saw the car's owner standing by his front door.
What the fuck!... Just what he exactly needed.
"Your cell phone not working?" Nathan got off from his SUV as Dan asked. Nathan looked at him briefly, ignoring him as he walked towards the door.
He shrugged as asked. "I turned it off. What are you doing here Dad?... Stalking me?"
"Oh very funny son. I'm not stalking you…….. And by the way, what the hell you guys did to my house doors?... I can't open even one single door from my damn key." Dan snapped at Nathan angrily.
"Don't trying dad. Mom changed every door locks along with security alarms. And last time I checked you guys divorced right?... So logically this is mom's house." Nathan smirked at his dad evilly.
"Cut the bullshit Son. This is my house. I built it so hardly. So if I wanted, I pull every thing I built in to that fucking house and arson, ok." Dan tried to reprehend Nathan. Nathan couldn't help but smiled at Dan's direction.
"Oh yea…… you are the freaking mayor in this town right. I know you can do any shit you want. But if you think me and mom buy your alarming warns for second………. You are completely delusion."
Dan stared at his son silently and he tried to ignore it. After intense second Nathan stepped past his father and opened his door. He considered what would happen if he were to simply shut the door in his father's face, but that childish thought passed and he held the door open, wordlessly inviting his father in.
Nathan went directly for the refrigerator and pulled out an energy dink. Turning, he found Dan standing just inside the entryway of the kitchen, still staring at him with that evilly expression. He held the drink up in offer to his father who shook his head. He shrugged again as he unscrewed the top and took a swig from the bottle.
Nathan sighed quietly as he took a seat on one of the stools. "What can I do for you Dad?"
Dan just continued stare at him in silence. Several long moments passed before Dan finally spoke. "I just wanted to ask you about something I heard."
"About what?" Nathan curiously asked.
"Did you engage to that Hades girl?... Huh?" Dan softly asked curiously.
"Who told you that?" he asked.
"Doesn't matter," Dan replied. "So it's true?"
"If you know about it, why are you determined to ask me?... Anyway……. Ammm….. Yea….. We did. And by the way her name is H-A-L-E-Y." Nathan nodded his head uncomfortably.
"WHAT THE FUCK IS WRONG WITH YOU NATHAN!!..." Dan growled loudly. "Are you out of you freaking mind?"
"Don't shout at me like that dad. And what's wrong with that?... I love Haley so much. So what?... It's not like a crack of doom or something. I'm engaged now dad. And I'm gonna marry her soon." Nathan determinedly said.
Dan's eyebrows furrowed. "You are still 21 years old Nathan. You are going to graduate from DUKE within five months. And you know that New York Knicks' scouts are eying you. This decision is like your career suicide Nate. Trust me Son, it is."
"I don't give any fuck about others think dad. And yea, we are gonna graduate within five months. That's why we agreed to postpone our marriage until that……….. I really don't see any career suicide decision there dad." Nathan took a sip from his energy drink furiously.
"Why her Son?... She's not good enough for you. You can do so much better than…………." Dan evilly began but quickly cut off by Nathan's furious voice.
"You leave her out of this!... She's perfect for me. I'm the one who don't deserve a girl like her Dan!" he anger inside him quickly came to a boil and he took a few steps at his father.
Dan's eyes narrowed. "You think this is a game? You might not believe this but I'm actually trying to help you here. Let me remind you something about your perfect girl. She doesn't have any natural parents, ancestry or any inheritance. She simply hooked with your money Nate. Thanks for her academic scholarship otherwise she doesn't have any education too."
"Dad just stop it ok. You don't know what the fuck you talking about. Just leave her out of this." Nathan angrily warned him.
"See, you know what I talking about. How can you introduce her to media after you entered to NBA huh?... So I'll never let that happen to you or me. I may have been hard on you about basketball but it gave you a purpose…… It gave you goals. So, you have to do what I'm saying Nathan. This is not a request…… this is just simply my behest." Dan evilly chuckled loudly.
"What you are saying Dan…….. I'm not your bitch anymore Dad! And I meant it. I don't need your fucking orders." Nathan bawled.
Dan laughed incredulously. "You just listen to me Son. I brought you to this world so you have to obey me. I have a great friend in Texas. He is a senator. He has a beautiful daughter and well we thought it would be a good to our camaraderie. Nathan… you're getting married."
"WHAT?... Oh suck my dick Dad! I'm not gonna marry your gay friend's harlot. You get out now!!" Nathan grabbed Dan's color tightly and shoved him angrily.
Dan quickly caught a chair tightly. "Oh-oh son……. Good shove by the way. But you have to do this…… No, I know you'll do this. You are not like your half brother. So you'll do it for sure." Dan emphasized his words dramatically.
"GET OUT DAN!! DON'T LET ME HIT YOU THIS TIME. GET OUT!!" Nathan clenched his fist and shouted at him furiously.
Dan's eyes flashed with anger. "I'm serious Nate. You are gonna do this for me and for you. If you not……….. I'll block every way for you NBA route. I'll pulverize your entire dream."
"Oh you can't do that dad. You are just insignificant mayor of this little town." Nathan laughed at his dad hard.
Dan quickly burst into a huge laugh. "Is that what you think Nate?... Then try me Son. But let me tell you some thing. Maybe I'm an insignificant little mayor to this shitty town but you know I have multitudinous connections with politician. Oh Son-Son……. You really don't know about your father much huh?"
Nathan couldn't take it anymore he rushed towards his father punching him in the face.
"It's nice to see that there still is a man in there…… but I meant it every words I said son," Dan said laughing. Nathan couldn't take it anymore he started throwing punches at Dan from everyway that he could.
"I'm done with you…… You're dead to me, say the hell away from me and stay the hell away from my family." Nathan finally let his father go from his grasp and growled.
"You don't have any family Nate. You never had. And you are gonna have that with my friend's daughter………. You gonna marry her with decently and haughtily. That's my final decree. You decide it son. If you wanted to get marry your Hades girl and having like 2.5 kids and pulverize your basketball dream……….. I don't know son. But I'll give you 24 hours to think Nate. Think about it deeply and get your final decision. I hope you'll get right decision Son…….." Dan patted Nathan shoulders as sighed. "………….If you agree with me, you don't have to go college next last couple of months to see your girl's face. You did finals right? So I'll manage to get your degree before the graduation day. Therefore you can practice more and concentrating about up coming draft. So now decision is up to you Son. This is your future Nathan. You dreamed of this life. Are you willing to give up basketball for her?... You choose if you wanted to win this world or screw your life over some girl…… oops sorry 'your girl' right?... Don't give up your dreams son, don't give up our future. Give me a call soon, I'm waiting for it." With that Dan turned around to leave the room but quickly held his pace when he heard Nathan's soft defeated voice.
"I can't lose my dream dad. I've worked so hard to come to this place……….. I've worked eight years to that dad……. I can't loose it…… I won't……. I'll marry your friend's daughter dad. I don't need 24 hours to think about it. I'll do whatever you need dad……….. But I can't go back to DUKE dad. I can't see Haley's broken face. She doesn't have anyone in this world….. I'm the only one she had…….. I…… I can't see her innocent face dad. I can't." Nathan whispered in despair as tears trickled down his cheeks.
"I know this is the hardest decision you ever made but I promise you son you'll never regret about this. And like I said you don't have to worry about DUKE. You can stay in Tree Hill until your marriage…… Well thank you son. I'll give my friend call. See ya Nate." Dan softly mumbled as he left the room without any hesitant.
As soon as Dan left Nathan fell to his knees, he couldn't breath. Nathan felt like he was suffocating. After stressful couple of hours later he finally decided to let her go. Let his only true love go. In its train Nathan closed his eyes shut tightly and said goodbye to her silently. "I'm sorry baby……. I love you. And I always will. Always and forever." He finally mumbled through his tears.
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Present time – September 10th 2008……………….
At the Blue Lagoon coffee shop – Los Angelis……………
"Well come to Blue Lagoon café ma'am," the waitress greeted her, the bell above the door jingling as she entered to the Café.
"Oh shut up tutor Bitch!... I'm hungry." Brooke slapped Haley's ass and winked at her.
"Brooke I'm working ya know. And this is not Karen's café. And don't flirting with me… I'm not gay." Haley reprimanded with her best mock angry voice.
"Oh don't worry baby, you are flirting with this café owner's daughter duh!... And about that 'gay' part, mmmm….. If I was into girls I would totally do you." Brooke laughed as she showed her infamous dimples.
"Eww… Brookie, you totally ruin my luncheon appetite. You suck!" Haley pouted.
"Oh Brooke honey……. Good mor……. I meant good afternoon sweetheart." Brooke's mom joined them and teased her.
"Oh Mom!... you are so not my 'Momma' anymore…… you love Haley more than me." Brooke mockingly pouted as laid her head on Haley's shoulder.
"Sweetheart you know I love you so much……… And maybe I love my Haley baby little bit more, because she help me sometimes for runs this café…… unlike someone." Lindsey began seriously but ended it with a slight joke.
Brooke couldn't help but glared at her mother with open mouth.
"Oh she's teasing Brookie….. You are so gullible. And God, sometimes you are just like a five year older." Haley quickly wrapped her arms around Brooke as she led her towards the counter.
Lindsey laughed at them, walking around to the other side of the counter.
"So what are you like to eat Brooke?" Lindsey decided to ask from her daughter.
"I'd like to have some coffee and cheese sandwiches…… oh, and I don't mind to have a Piece of your infamous chocolate cake, mom." Brooke leaned forward and kissed her mother's cheeks lovingly.
"Anything for you kiddo…… and Haley baby, what do you want for your lunch?" Lindsey turned towards Haley and asked.
"Same as my Brookie, Momma Davis." Haley said enthusiastically.
"Ok, you girls do some gossips while I'm making your meal….. And Haley dear, can you go around and see if anyone needs a refill, ok?" Lindsey asked as she looked between her two girls lovingly. After second, she quickly turned around and snuck back into the kitchen to fix their lunch.
"Ok where the hell did you sleep last night Brooke?... You know, I saved your sorry ass like million times last night. God knows how many lies I said to Momma Davis last night." Haley grumbled at Brooke half angrily.
"I'm so sorry tutor girl. You know I met this gorgeous hunk last night and he fucked me all the night. I'm sorry; I should have called you and informed you that I'm not coming home last night. But Haley…… oh my god Haley, that guy gave me full satisfy night." Brooke mumbled day dreamingly.
"Oh-my-god-Brooke!... You are such a whore." Haley couldn't help but whispered loudly.
"Oh honey, tell me something I don't know." Brooke mischievously smiled at her best friend.
Haley shook her head back and forth unbelievingly. "Never-mind Tiger…….. Why I'm bothering right?"
"Oh Sweetie, no need to jealous ok. I can introduce you to him, ya know. I'm sure we can have some hot kinky threesome, ya know?" Brooke wiggled her eyebrows suggestively.
"BROOK!!... Shut your discourteous mouth. I'm not gonna scarify my chastity rule for a stranger. Especially with someone who slept with you……….. Brookie, why don't you start a stable relationship huh?... sleeping with dilapidated beds is so not you, Tiger. You are so good for that." Haley kissed Brooke's cheeks lovingly and asked.
"I know what you are saying, but I'm so not gonna get hurt like you Tutor girl. I saw what that dick did to you in college Hales. Actually I'm scared Haley………. I'm not strong like you. I won't survive if that happens to me." Brooke mumbled softly as she pulled Haley into a tight hug.
"No-No…… every guy not like him Brooke. There are lots of good guys in this country Brooke. You should take a risk, ya know. And……. You are so wrong. You are so strong Brooke. Admit it. Just like your mother. You already prove it to the whole world honey." Haley whispered soothingly.
"Ok I'll think about it, ok. I promise.……. Anyway let's change this topic girlie. Oh-my-god, I forget to tell you something Haley, we got an invitation to this fancy charity diner tomorrow night, ok. So we'll going to that event tomorrow." Brooke enthusiastically stated and clapped cheerily.
"What?……. Oh come on Brooke. Tomorrow?... It's Saturday Brooke. I promised to help Momma Davis tomorrow night. I can't come ok. You know how I hate to break promises." Haley shook her head dramatically.
"Haley-Haley……. You have to come with me. This is big event Haley. Besides all the huge LA businessmen are gonna come for this event. You are my Business partner Sweetie. You have to come with me and that's final." Brooke pinched Haley's ear mock threateningly. There's no way she going to that event alone.
"What about……………" Haley began to protest but quickly cut off by Lindsey's soft voice.
"Oh don't worry about me honey. You should go there!... And no need to arguing, Haley. You and Brooke are business partners now. So you definitely should go there with her. Besides you girls work all the week so hardly, therefore you definitely need some quality relax time. And please kids, go relax and enjoy your self. But don't end up in some strange hot businessman's bed, ok. Now…….….. Here your fabulous lunch. Eat up kiddos." Lindsey dramatically advised her girls as she handover Brooke's and Haley's lunch plates with their drinks.
"Thanks Ma…… you are the best………. But I'm sorry. I can't promise about your 'don't end up in some strange hot businessman's bed' request Mom, Ok. See ya!" Brooke winked at her mom and dragged Haley into the nearest booth forcedly.
"Oh-God!... Why I'm not surprise!" Lindsey quickly mumbled to herself as she shook her head amusingly.
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