Characters are property of Dick Wolf and the song is performed by Ilse Delang.
You like to think you're unreadable. That no one can get to what's inside you. But you aren't that unreadable Alex Cabot. It's almost as if I can read your thoughts. Every time the squad tries to bring you in, every time I try to bring you in, the thoughts go across your eyes. Each one looks as though it is far more ridiculous than the rest. It took me a while, but I realized that you're scared. You're scared of getting to close to someone. Of course I had help from Serena, who approached me as your best friend, to fill me in a few things, knowing she could trust me.
She told me that you didn't think anyone on the squad would understand why you were the way you are. Apparently you're worried about me the most. I know I may give off a closed off personality, but there really aren't any walls blocking you from opening up to me. The fact that you think my detective persona wouldn't let someone in really isn't fair to me.
I can almost read your mind, its runnin fast,
Out of control
Youre afraid of what youll find,
If you get too close
You imagine I dont care,
You see walls that just arent there
You think Im too strong to let you in
Well thats just not fair
I'm really not as tough as I appear. So you see, I'm going to call you on this. The fact is, Alex, that the small glimpse of the real you that has peaked through since you've been with the unit are enough for me to know I am attracted to you, not just your beauty, but also the real you. I think if I were to act more like myself around you, the one that wants you around and lets you see me cry. If I show you the person that needs someone to be there for me then maybe you will see that I'm not as strong as I look.
Im not so tough,
Ill call your bluff
And let you see a side of me
That wants you here and cries real tears
And needs someone to love
Im not so tough
Serena filled me in on why you're so stand offish. I know that you have been hurt. But you know what, everyone has, including me. I know there is nothing I can do to make you see that it will be ok, but it doesn't keep me from asking myself if there is anything I can do. Just because you've had your heart broken doesn't mean you shut everyone else out. I know there are times when you are stressed out during a case you take it out on me. I realized you think I am trying to get something from you, or maybe you blame for why you are having a hard time at the moment, but you can't do that. I have never really blamed you when something hasn't gone my. I will try
everything I can to make you see that I'm not someone that hurt you in the past. I don't think I've ever had any kind of power over your heart to break it. The woman who did that is long gone. It really isn't my fault you are still holding on to that. What I do know is that I am going to try everything in my power to make you see me, the real me.
I know that youve been hurt before
Well so have I,
What can you do?
That doesnt mean you close the door
So stop blamin me,
I dont blame you
Im not some ghost from your past
The one who tore your heart in half
Im not her, its not my fault youre holding on to that
Maybe once you let go of your past, we might have a future. Until then, I will continue to show you that we are a lot alike. Acting tougher than we really are so the others around us can't see our weaknesses. Hopefully you'll be able to realize that someday.