A/N: Okay, so an idea popped in my head a few days ago that just wouldn't go away, which sucks because I kind of think it's a lame idea but I will go with it and see where it takes me. I really like songfics because I always thought they were cute. So, I thought, why not do a song fic for Palex. But that's been done. So what could make mine different. Well, I've decided to challenge myself and instead of doing just 1 song, do 100. I know that's a lot but I think I can make it work. Basically, I'm thinking there are going to be series of one shots and like a few small chapter stories within this. Since I'm kind of lazy ( which is why I don't do many chapter stories) I don't know how often I will be able to update. I'm giving myself 6 months to be completely finish this. I will try to be a diverse as possible in the songs I choose too. I like a lot of different types of music so you're almost guarantee to find at least one song you like. Hope you enjoy this.
A/N no.2: The song is "If you're not the One" by Daniel Beddingsfield. It takes place right after Alex breaks up with Paige in High Fidelity Part 1.
If you're not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you're not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
She's walking away from me. Just like that we're over. It was one argument, one fight. But no, we can't. She's the one, my one…I know it. I run after her, grabbing her hand. Her fingers interlock with mine, like they were meant to be there. She turns and looks me in the eye, tears falling down her cheeks. I lift my hand to wipe them but she pushes it away.
"No Paige," she looks down at the ground now but still holds my head.
"Alex…don't you know what you mean to me?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all
"We got through so much together. I told you things that I never told anyone. You're my everything."
"Paige, stop," she lets go of my hand and turns her back towards me. " It won't work."
I'll never know what the future brings
But I know you're here with me now
"Alex," I say as I walk up behind her and wrap my arms around her waist. She leans into me slightly but I don't think she realized it. "Can't we have the summer…can't have now. I promise I won't say anything more, that I will let you decide. I know we can do this.Just give it a chance."
We'll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
She turns around in my arms and smiles slightly. The look in her eyes tells me the truth. Its really over. She won't give me a chance. I let the tears come now. I'd been holding them back the whole time. Hoping, praying. She kisses cheek, and then walks away. And this time I don't stop her.
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
I walk to my car and just sit thinking about the last few months. Of our life together. She was so fun, so strong, so everything. It was so different than it was with Spinner or Matt. And not just because she's a girl but because she's her. Alex. My Alex.
If don't need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don't need you then why does your name resound in my head?
Marco nicknamed us Palex. We thought it was cute. We were always going to be Palex. I miss her so much already. I planned my life
around her. She was going to come with me to Banting and maybe even go to a community school there if she didn't get into Banting. Our first pet would be a kitten I wanted to name Popcorn. Lame I know, but it reminds me of the movie theatre, thus the beginning of us.
If you're not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you're not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?
And now, is this really the end… with a goodbye in a mall? The best 3 months of my life gone. I know she loves me. There has to be something more to it. It can't be just because of our futures that holding her back. We'll figure it out, one of these days, and then we'll be together.
I don't know why you're so far away
But I know that this much is true
We'll make it through
Maybe she won't follow me to Banting and it may be years before we can be together again but I know, inside, it will always be her. It will be her have a children with, build a home with, take care of. It'll be her. I don't care if its 1, 5, or 10 years from now. We're not over, not by a long shot.
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you're the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life
Two and a half months have passed since Alex and I broke up. And there isn't a day that passes by I don't think of her. We don't talk anymore. I want to but I think it's too hard for her. She pushes me away every time I try to get close. That doesn't change how I feel though. She's still my one. I leave for Banting today. It's a bittersweet goodbye. I'm going to miss everyone, mainly her though. Apart of me doesn't want to leave but I guess its time to move on. Turn over a new leaf or however that goes.
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?
I wrote her a note. A goodbye I guess. To tell her how I feel. I'm not giving up, ever. But it will be a nice sense of closer. We both need this. It says:
Imiss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
Cause I love you, whether it's wrong or right
And though I can't be with you tonight
You know my heart is by your side
I am now standing at her door trying to get up the courage to knock. I've been here 10 minutes now. All of sudden the door opens and startles me. It's Alex. And she doesn't look happy. "Paige, I know you've been standing out here this whole time. Please go home." she says to me and she begins to shut the door. I stop it. "Paige…"
"Alex, I just…" I take a deep breathe before lightly kissing her on the lips. She looks at me shocked. "I just want to say goodbye and give you this." I hand her the note. She looks at the folded paper, but doesn't say anything. I lift up her chin to kiss her one last time and walk away. I don't want to see her reaction to the note. I'm too scared.
I don't want to run away but I can't take it, I don't understand
If I'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms
I could feel her eyes following me so I turn around. Thank goodness she still hasn't read the note yet. I give her a small smile and finally leave. Goodbye my love.
A/N:I will have a companion peice to go along with this one I think. I havent decided yet. Please review!! Oh, and I would like to dedicate this story to littlecrazywriter. I helped her with her story and it kind of inspired me to finally start one of my own.