Okay everyone I am super new to writing fanfiction. This is my really real first fanfiction ever in my life. I hope everyone enjoys it and it isn't to bad.

Disclaimers: I don't own Fairy Tail and I am kinda glad about that because I doubt I am creative enough for that. I do however own any OCs I decide to put in here. There may be some OOCness. I really don't know yet though.

I feel the sting of the needle entering my arm.

How did my life get to this point? Where did I go wrong?

I feel like my life is always going towards something bad. I can't ever get a break from hardships and bad times. I had those few years with my mother before she died and my father turned to work for comfort and left me alone or when he did talk to me it was just for his gain. I had those precious years with Fairy Tail. When Natsu, Happy, and I would go do every and all missions. Then, later Ezra and Gray came along with us too. I was happy. I felt like I belong and had a family. I guess it started to go down hill when Lisanna came back, but even then I was still somewhat happy. I like Lisanna. She is a sweet and beautiful girl and just as nice as came be. The only thing I dislike is the fact that she held the heart of my love in her small hands. And now this. I am surprised I am still hopeful that someone will come find me soon.

The voice of a man pulls me back out of my thoughts. "Okay Lucy, this is probably going to hurt a lot."

I think he is on my left but I can't really know for sure.

It is always dark. So dark. You can never see where you are even if your hands were right in front of you. But I have gotten used to it by now. Just like I gotten used to the being ignored or put off to the side. Or the cold always lingering in me.

I wonder how everyone is? Have I been gone long enough for them to worry or has it already been so long that they gave up by now? Do they even care? I wonder if they are happy? They all deserve to be happy.

A machine somewhere in the room starts up. The loud noise disrupting the quiet that I wished was filled with the sounds of my friends fighting, laughing and talking in the guild. I know that soon the pain will start. I try to prepare for it but still the pain's intensity still gets me every time.

The first waves of pain crash into me. My body tenses. The pain increases by the second and I can no longer hold in my screams.

I hear the laughing of the man as my screams grow louder. He always find enjoyment in my torture. Each any every time he comes my form of pain is different. But the pain is always the same and always comes and always makes the man laugh. This has become the my life.

I am still screaming, but they are losing their loudness. My vision is turning black. My world once again is fading to the black nothingness of sweet unconsciousness. This is also something I have become accustomed to in my new life. It is my only escape from the pain that haunts my waking life. In my unconscious dreams I see Natsu and he loves me as I love him. I get to eat cake with Ezra and share my stories with Levy. I get to party and laugh along with all my friends. This is something that my waking no longer includes and most likely never will again. It is also something that I long from so hard that my heart hurts. I wish I could stay in my dreams forever but at some point I have to wake up and then my hell begins again.

Okay so that is it for the first chapter. I realize it is short and I hate people that do that but I just don't want to give to much on the first chapter. R&R. Give me any feedback at all. Good or bad. I hope to get another chapter up soon, maybe even tomorrow.