Everything started out prefect! At least I thought it did. I can never tell with him anymore if he's happy with the way things are? Sometimes I think he would rather be working then spending time with me and our daughter. What can I expect since I still haven't divorced my husband? He tells me that he'll wait for my divorce to get approve by the church and my estrange husband. However everything changes tonight. Dinner was going so well until he starts pushing me to hurry up with my divorce. I know that I love him and I wouldn't trade him for anything in this world, but tonight everything ends between us. We go home after dinner only to keep fighting. To make matters worse, our daughter Carrie is home while we're fighting. We have never fought in front of her or raised our voices in front of her. Carrie knows that we're having problems, but what makes it so real is what she says to us.
"Why do you stay together if you're just going to fight and say everything is mom's fault? Really dad, it takes two people to make a relationship work? It seems like you're always at work or you're always going on about how Chief Johnson does this and that and mom lonely investigate the good guys." Carrie said.
"Carrie, honey please stay out of this. This is your mother and I conversation and you should be in bed." Andy said. I know I shouldn't have used that tone of voice with Carrie. Sharon had me so mad that I didn't realize until it was too late. I turn around to speak to Sharon, but all I see is her backside walking out of our front door with our daughter. I know I screwed up big time, but I hope to God I can make this right. I shouldn't had try to force her into trying to speed up her divorce proceedings and I shouldn't have told her that she needs to make up her mind on who she wants to be with.
I can't believe I just walked out like that? I didn't even think twice about it? I give Carrie the look and nod my head towards the front door and she knows I wanted her to leave the house. I remember looking back at the house through the rear view mirror and seeing him standing in the doorway waving for me to come back. I can't go back not until I know how to fix the problem between us first. I hope that whatever it is, it can be fix.
I need an AA meeting bad! I check my schedule and I have just enough time to change my clothes and get to a meeting. This is what I need. I feel so much better since I've started this meeting. I know what I need to do now to make things right between Sharon and me. Sadly I don't know if I'll live to make things right. Some idiot decided tonight of all nights to attacked me and almost kill me. Great just great here I was going to swing by the store pick up some flowers and beg her to let me explain what happen and why I was such a jerk. I hope she realizes just how much I love her and Carrie. I can't live without Sharon in my life. Please God just let me live to tell her, I much I love her and how much she means to me.