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Chapter 1 Happiness knows no bounds

John's POV

New Years Day

Speeding bullet. That was the only term I could think of to describe what had happened in the past year. Jamie gave birth to our beautiful baby boy, we named him Jadyn Michale, he was simply beautiful and adjusting to having a family was a new challenge. Jamie and Jadyn travelled with us so at least our family was together. In February of this year Jamie and I plan to get married, something that is hard to plan in itself but still it was worth it. Jamie really wanted Raven to be her maid of honor but Raven had gone MIA. (Ok we knew where she was but she had stopped all forms of communication with us) We had tried to get through to Raven, we still were trying actually. Texts, emails, phone calls, visits. Everytime we were shut down. We had officially lost her. That was the only bad part in this entire year for everyone, losing Raven. Randy (of course) was taking it the hardest. Not that he would tell you that but it was written in his icy blue eyes that his heart was still broken in a million peices. In usual Randy Orton fashion he pretended it didn't bother him and he just carried on with life, smiling and laughing. He seemed happy without her but I knew different, slowly inside he was dying without her.

Randy's POV

I am so bored...This party thing was so dull I thought about ripping my eyeballs out just for something to do. At the end of this horrible annoying year we decided to throw a New Year's party and I had agreed to come so now I was sitting in this dull room listening to my girlfriend Jezzie go on about something. As she spoke I looked her up and down, studying her again. She giggled at something flicking mousy brown hair over her tiny shoulders. She was pretty enough with her bright green eyes and flawless skin. She was was...boring. She had nothing to her, nothing compared to...No! Stop thinking about her! That was a thought I wouldn't be able to shake, ever. Raven and me had so much history it was hard to shake. We had been through so much and suddenly we were apart. It fucking hurt, it was like she had pick-axed me in the dark, I never saw it coming. I loved her and she just cut me loose like I was nothing, ok maybe that wasn't true but thats what it felt like.

"Randy? Are you listening to me?" Jezzie cut in. I never noticed how annoying her voice was until right now.

"Sure why not"

She rolled her eyes playfully giggling a little "Do you have a resolution?"

Stop being in love with the woman that broke my heart with a fucking pick-axe I knew it was a lie as soon as I thought it.

"No"

Jezzie groaned somewhat "You stay here and be grouchy. I'm going to have some fun"

Good go, I was only a few miles away from Raven and I couldn't even speak to her. I had to stop this, now. "Wait I have one"

"What?"

"I want to be a better person"

Raven's POV

"Happy new year guys!" I cheered as I looked at the newly drawn smiley face on my bandage. I was of course talking to my animals, the only ones I had these days. Oh and Storm who looked after me when I was too overly tired. I let her in because she really understood what I was going through. Since getting out of the hospital I was reduced to crutches, I was now crippled. Well I had been there before so it wasn't that big of a deal. I had stayed in this bubble for an entire year, I was happy here by myself and sometimes Storm. I had my good days and my bad days. Picking up my crutches and grabbing some fish-feed and other various food-stuffs I started to feed the animals, thinking of Randy. I was missing him, I missed him and everyone else everyday but I just couldn't handle them anymore so I shut them out, now I was alone. Just like the big man upstairs had intended it. Apart of me hoped Randy hadn't moved on, afterall storms never last right? But then again I knew I was being selfish I was a long way from the end of the storm and I wanted him to be happy. Where ever he was right now, I hoped he was happy even if that meant with another woman.

"So another year down guys and lets be grateful that there were no more 'accidents'" I laughed slightly at that, since my pill change (I was on more but better medication) I no longer had the desire to kill myself, so I guess that was a plus, although I still had days where I didn't wanna get outta bed.

"Do you have any resolutions Charlie?" Charlie was the smiley face I had drawn on my bandage, everything had to have a name. "Not to hurt so much when I wash you maybe?" I laughed at my own joke.

"Well my resolutions are too get better, get to that light at the end of the tunnel and to make Randy love me again" I smiled sadly at the last one as I left what I called the habitat. (where I kept all my pets) There was no way in hell Randy would ever love me again and not one inch of me blamed him.