Levi POV
I was cursed the day I was born. I was cursed with the omega gene. I was cursed to be looked down upon my whole life. An omega. A little bitch. Good for nothing but breeding. That's what they thought about me. They hated that humanity's strongest was an omega. They thought I was out of my place. I saw the hunger in their eyes when they flashed their alpha scents at me. They would oh so happy to put me back in my place.
Erwin had always done what he could to protect me from the higher up alphas when we had to interact. Hanje was always a good buffer, too. They were a beta, and they had a talent for changing the subject whenever the alphas far up the chain of command tried to talk down to me while mingling at fundraising balls. I had stopped going once one of them actually addressed me as 'bitch'. Well, it was more accurate to say that I wasn't allowed to come back. I had swung at the drunk alpha, which got all the alphas snarling and fighting. Erwin had quickly used his charismatic touch to calm everyone down.
There was only one real advantage to being an omega and I had even been fucked where that was concerned. Omegas knew their mates upon meeting them, but the alphas didn't recognize their mates until they smelled the omega in heat. I had found my mate, and I was grateful he didn't have a clue. This is because he was Eren fucking Yeager and I would never let him know. Ever.
I will admit it was a tricky situation, but I was had managed just fine thus far. I had doubled my suppressant dosage, and avoided being around his pheromones too much. I will admit that when it was just the two of us, me staring at my mate through the bars of his cell, I did consider going in there and having my way with him. I wondered what those big green eyes would look like when he came.
"Geez, you were rough with him." Petra, a beta, commented to me. I had just beaten my mate in front of a court room of alphas.
"Levi did what he had to do." Erwin defended me.
I didn't say anything. I was still shaky inside from hurting my mate. I knew I was saving his life, but I still felt like puking because of it. We were biologically programmed to protect our mates. Alphas were naturally more protective over the weaker betas and omegas, but omegas and betas still felt the pull to protect. Omegas were extremely protective over their young. Like a mother bear, an omega will claw your eyes out to protect their babies.
I looked over at my mate. He was hurting and it was my fault. I wanted to crawl in his lap and suck on his scent gland and fuck him until he cums inside of me and make him feel better. But I couldn't. It would make things way too complicated. He was a titan and all eyes were on his every move. If it was discovered that we were mates, people would start to consider the emotional bond between us and when that happened, it wouldn't be long before the question of whether or not the survey corps was sympathetic toward titans would arise. I couldn't let people start reevaluating why Eren was allowed to live.
Eren looked up at me with his big, beautiful eyes and I felt my resolve weaken.
Maybe we could… in secret… I shook my head and walked out of the room. I couldn't let anything happen. I would take care of everything involving our being mates by myself. I had no choice.
Hanje followed me out of the room.
"Levi, you okay?" They asked. Hanje was my best friend and they knew it when something was up with me.
I grunted in response. I walked into my room, and didn't close the door behind me, signaling to Hanje that I wanted them to come in my room.
"What's going on between you and Eren?" They didn't waste any time, shutting the door behind them.
"He's my mate." I said, sitting on my bed and crossing my legs.
"Fuck! Levi!" They said. Their eyes were wide and they jumped up and down. "Levi! Levi! Levi!"
"What? Stop jumping." I growled.
"You can have his titan babies!"
"Shut up!" I snapped. Hanje knew how important babies were to omegas. Yet another way I was fucked, I didn't want children. They were always sticky and smelled like warm apple juice. Dirty, dirty little things.
"Imagine the cute little faces." They rubbed their own face, ponytail swinging behind them. "So sweet. Little grumpy Levi frowns and big green Eren eyes."
"There will be no babies. Ever." I sighed. "Mostly because he can't. Fucking. Know."
"You mean you're not telling him? Oh, I see! You're waiting for your heat so you can pound him as soon as he knows. Niiiiccccceee." They nodded up and down. "I approve."
"No, Hanje, for fuck's sakes. I'm not telling him ever. I'm taking double my suppressants and avoiding him as best I can. I will control my omega desires. I can't mate with him. It's too risky right now. Not to mention that that little brat would probably lose his shit every time someone got close to me if we were mated."
"Ah! Now I see. If you two mated, it would drive Eren's alpha instincts through the roof-"
"And make him even more dangerous. Yeah. Imagine him exploding into a titan because Erwin happened to brush hands with me while giving me something. That can't happen. Not to even drag up the other shit that could go down."
"I see why you have to hide it right now, Levi, just be careful about taking so much suppressants, okay? They can cause random mini-heats if taken in too large a dose."
"Yeah. Yeah. Anyway, what's the game plan for my brat?" I leaned in.
"Well, we'll need to find a place for him to stay. I would say that we could take him from the cell and move him in with a scout, but who are we going to room him with?"
"Has to be a beta."
"Agreed." They nodded. "A beta we can trust."
"Please tell me this isn't some pitifully veiled attempt to wiggle your way into rooming with him." I raised an eyebrow at Hanje.
"Well…I am a beta, and I am trusted." They smiled at me.
"You'll have him on so many experiments that he can't walk straight!"
"I won't!" They crossed their arms, giving me an outraged look. I pursed my lips.
"Hanje."
"I won't have him on so many he can't walk straight!"
"Hanje."
"I mean, he might have trouble walking after I switch around his toes, but that will surely be temporary-"They started.
A snarl ripped its way through me before I could register what was happening. Hanje gasped, uncrossing their arms and leaning back in a submissive gesture. I clamped my mouth shut, my jaw tensing.
"I-I'm sorry, Levi. I forgot you were his omega. I won't hurt him." Hanje's scent, like other betas, was unremarkable, so instead of checking that, my eyes ran over their gestures. Head tilted down, eyes down, palms facing up…They weren't a threat. My tense muscles relaxed one by one.
"I'm not going to apologize." I said harshly. "You ought to know better than to mention hurting someone's mate in front of them. Especially if that mate isn't claimed yet!"
"Levi!" They picked their eyes up and looked at me. "I didn't mean it like that. Your logical side must know that. I have no reason to hurt my friends' mates." They paused. "And you don't have to apologize. You're right. You just told me that he's your mate and I mention an experiment that involves…certain things a mate would disapprove of."
"If he moves in with you, you must promise to not tell him we are mates, and you must promise to-" I started to tell them to not do those experiments on him, but it was necessary for humanity that they learn about him, "-to spare me all the details. Keep me need to know on his… gorier experiments."
"I can and will do that." Hanje relaxed. "So… not tell him, huh? We'll see how that works out."
"I'm not even discussing this with you. You go talk to Erwin about him moving in. I'm-"
"Going to check on him?" Hanje smiled. "Does it ease your omega worry that he has the healing powers of a titan?"
"I still need to check him." I felt itchy. I needed to make sure.
I stood, looking at Hanje to do the same. They jumped up with a little clap of their hands, smiling at me again. Hanje was so fucking happy all the time. Sometimes I just wanted to push them up against a wall and scream at them. Ask them why they are happy when hell lurks behind our every choice and the stench of death clings to our skin, our comrades' blood not every completely washing away.
"Let's not waste any time then!" They lead the way.
The walk back to the room was filled with Hanje's useless chatter. I inserted a grunt whenever they paused for a response, thinking instead about Eren's scent. His alpha scent smelled unlike any of the other alphas. The other alphas smelled good to me, yeah, but they weren't Eren. He smelled feral sex in the middle of forest. I shuddered, thinking about how manly and musky his pheromones where. God, help me.
"Whoa there. You might want to turn down the pheromones there, short stuff. You smell like you're calling for a mate." Hanje commented, waving their hands around the air as if to wave off my smell.
"Fuck. I was thinking about-"
"Eren's thick, long cock? I betcha it's thick and long. Alphas usually are hung. I don't think you mind that, though. You like it deep if I remember the screams coming from your room correctly." Hanje snickered, then got serious. "Oh. I guess I won't be hearing any screams coming from your room for a while now."
"No. You won't. Now that I've found my mate, I'm loyal to him." I thought about bringing up how Hanje's room was oh so conveniently a couple of doors down from mine, only separated by the other squad leader's – Mike's – room.
"Well…you could always come visit him in my room." They whispered, stopping outside the door to continue talking to me for a moment.
"Hanje, if we did that, he would come to my room. Why the hell would I come to your room? Where would you go while we-? Oh. You intend to watch?"
"For science. I promise. Only for science, Levi. I need to study his titan junk and what better way than watching him actually use it, you know?"
"Bye." I opened the door, stepping inside and closing it on their face. Their loud cackle came through the thick wood and I rolled my eyes. They really were some kind of mad. That's why they were my best friend.
"Welcome back, Levi." Erwin greeted me, but I just grunted at him. I was looking over my mate. He looked so wide eyed and sweet, sitting there on the couch staring at me. I sniffed the room, picking out his scent amongst the ones in the room. Erwin's alpha scent was sharp and demanding, like icy air and wintergreen. Mike's alpha scent was more mellow, but still ever present, like lingering cigarette smoke mixed with black tea. Eren's alpha scent made my scent gland tingle, (how I knew he was my mate), my stomach do flip-flops and my heart beat speed up, though. Musk and forest and lightening and sex. I thought about it all the time. I had never met an alpha whose scent did this to me. I wondered if he smelled so fucking delectable to other omegas. I hoped not.
"Hey, Erwin," Hanje called, opening the door. "Can I talk to you?"
"Absolutely." He brushed past me and I didn't miss how he sniffed at me. Weird. I hoped he wasn't planning on making a move on me. I was only interested in this sweet brat in front of me.
"Eren, come with me to my room. I need to- to speak to you." I had to look him over. I ignored Petra's curious look and Mike's twitching mustache. This was something I needed to do.
"Yes, sir!" He jumped up, looking eager. I wondered if he would as eager to please me in bed. I swallowed hard, turning on my heel and walking out of the door. Eren's scent caught up to me before his hurried footsteps. I picked up my pace, wanting to get him in my room.