.

I'll have you know

that I've become

INDESTRUCTIBLE

Determination that is

INCORRUPTIBLE

From the other side, a

TERROR

to behold

ANNIHILATION

will be

UNAVOIDABLE

.

Lan Fan sucked in deep breaths as she felt the blaring pain where her left arm should have been. The bandages wrapped around her shoulder and chest were slowly shifting from white to red as blood seeped through their purity of the blanched color. Doctor Knox had just recently left after bandaging her successfully. Squeezing her eyes shut, Lan Fan could see an imprint of the prince against the black of her eyelids.

"Young Lord," she whispered quietly, even through she knew her prince was far from her and wouldn't hear her calling out to him. He had carried her after she had been injured. Lan Fan scolded herself for making the young lord carry her own burden. He could have been injured because of her. Thank God he wasn't... but still. Lan Fan shouldn't have been so weak and helpless to put him into that position.

"If you love him so much you should just tell him," someone grunted from the other side of the room. Lan Fan opened her eyes and glanced up, seeing Knox.

"What are you talking about?" she asked wearily.

"You were talking in your sleep," he laughed. A small smile tugged on Lan Fan's lips, "Anyway," Doctor Knox continued, "it wouldn't be a crime to just tell him,"

"Oh you don't understand," Lan Fan countered, "It would be a horrible crime for a prince of Xing to marry a common body guard like me,"

"I wasn't telling you to marry him, "Knox chuckled, taking a sip from a mug of coffee and leaning against the door frame. He glanced at her with sympathetic eyes, "You just need to tell him,"

Lan Fan bit her lip and tucked a flying strand of hair away from her face and behind her ear, closing her eyes to imagine what Doctor Knox had suggested. Her single hand clenched in her lap, her nails digging fiercely into her palm, "I know he doesn't feel the same way as I do," she said sternly, not allowing herself to indulge in such unbelievable fantasies, "It would be pointless to tell the Young Lord how I feel when I know he doesn't return the feeling. It would just put awkwardness in our relationship," she said finally, but her voice sounded as if she was telling herself this. Making herself believe it. The rejection he would give her would only wedge them away and she wouldn't be able to defend him as well with such thoughts in her mind.

"Alright," Knox murmured, gulping down his lukewarm drink and sparing another glance at the injured girl before turning to leave the room, "Get some sleep," The Xingese woman nodded at him, her eyes unfocused, locked on other things in the depths of her mind. She laid back against the pillows and turned her back to him as he left the room. At the sound of the door closing against the door frame, Lan Fan shifted to stare up at the blurring ceiling, feeling another wave of pain in her shoulder. Calmly, she inhaled, her thoughts on her prince. She noticed her breaths becoming ragged in gasps. A cold streak passed down her cheek, grazing her earlobe, before plopping down and splatting onto the mattress. Lan Fan's mouth opened slightly in surprise as she felt more tears slip down her face. She was...

Crying.

But the girl didn't bother to wipe the tears away with her unharmed arm. They stained her face and continued to pool in her eyes, obscuring her vision.

Her prince.
The Young Lord.
Who she...

Loved.

Would never love her.

How could she be so stupid? How could she fall in love with him? Why did she let herself?

Lan Fan squeezed her eyes shut and let the last of her tears slip from her eyes. Her eyebrows scrunched in the effort of keeping any more from escaping. She wouldn't let herself cry.

What would the Young Lord think of such weakness. She couldn't protect him properly if she was crying in self pity for something she could never have. How foolish.

How foolish her wish was.

Trapped behind her unyielding eyelids, no more tears escaped.

Lan Fan couldn't cry for something so hopeless.

Something so foolish.

Something that would never happen.

So if you want to suggest any Lingfan fic's for me to write I would be welcome to it!

review please! :3