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Author's note:

Hey everyone,

So I know I'm busy with three stories now and have already put one on hold. I'm not doing that with the boondock saints, I promise, I'm just really busy these weeks because I'm nearing the end of my school year and all. This story I still had saved on my phone and my friend, who read it, told me to post it online because she liked it a lot. I don't know if you guys will like it, but I sure hope.

In short it's about Jasper falling in love with my character, Mia. Alice and Edward are together, and Emmett and Rosalie plus Carlisle and Esme. If you don't like these pairings I am sorry.

It's just the first chapter. I have nothing of the next chapters yet. I first want to know what people think of this chapter and if I get enough favorites and reviews I will continue. The continuing might take a bit longer than normal, like I said, I am very busy.

Anyways, thank you so much for taking the time to read this! Please review and let me know what you think!

Love,

EvilGirlLovesWriting

Chapter one: Why?

I didn't know why I deserved this. Why I even got a chance at meeting her. I've done so many horrible things in my life, killed so many innocent people. Why then was I allowed to look at such an angel, because that's what she was. I had died. That would be the only explanation I could think of. I'd died and went to heaven. There were however two problems with that explanation. First of all, I think I would've noticed being ripped apart and burnt to ashes, being a vampire and all. Second of all, there was no way in hell that if I actually had miraculously died I would've wounded up in heaven. Nope. Not a chance. So what the hell was going on then?

The day had started out fairly normal. Edward, Emmett and me went out hunting around 4 in the morning and got back to get ready for school at 7. Alice had told everyone it would be a rainy day so we would be safe and Carlisle went to work early. Nothing special there. Esme gave all of us a kiss before we left and told us to be safe, nothing special there either.

I remember getting sick of Rosalie and Emmett's sweet talk, which I could hear from the other car. Even though it seemed like they were alone, it didn't mean they were. They never took any notice to that though and so I was always hearing things I didn't want to. I felt sorry for Edward, who would have the same feeling only tripled because he could hear thoughts as well.

I was waiting for a bitter laugh that normally escaped his lips when I thought something like that, but he didn't laugh this time. I soon figured out why and closed my eyes rubbing my temples. They say vampires can't get headaches, that proves that they've never sat in between two couples that were sweet talking each other. My own gift of being able to feel what they were feeling wasn't really helping either. I didn't understand why Alice had to say everything out loud when Edward could hear her thoughts anyway, no need for spoken words. I felt another wave of love and lust coming from both couples and I wished we would arrive soon.

It's not that I hate what they're feeling. I'm glad they are happy together. But sometimes I just wish they weren't this obvious about it. I wish they would keep their feelings to themselves. I've never had those feelings for someone. I thought I'd loved Maria but if I compare that to what these were feeling, it was just a droplet of water in an ocean. I mulled over those thoughts a moment, so I wouldn't focus on the couples around me.

The moment we arrived at school I practically jumped out of the car. 'I am driving to school alone tomorrow!' I warned them, only half joking. I wouldn't mind, but there weren't a lot of cars we had that wouldn't be too conspicuous. 'I wouldn't be too sure about that.' Edward said, answering my thoughts in the way he usually did. I raised my eyebrows and looked in the direction Edward was looking in. Something had caught his attention, and I didn't have to guess what it was. There was a dark red Lamborghini sitting in the parking space next to the cafeteria. It stood out against the rest of the cars, which were mostly old, crappy, handed down cars. We never had seen such a car at school before, actually none of the students had. That's probably why there was a huge crowd hanging around it, admiring it. Emmett let out a low whistle, 'Damn... wonder who that belongs to.' He said. That was what we were all wondering.

The first lesson Edward would be sitting next to me, the second and third Rosalie was there. Rosalie could be a real nag sometimes, but she was quiet and knew how to keep her emotions in check most of the time, which made sitting next to her a lot easier. They never said it out loud, none of the family members did, but the reason I was accompanied in most of my classes, all but one that is, was to make sure I wouldn't kill everyone. Or at least so there would be someone who could try and stop me. It happened a few times in different schools. Like I said before, I killed a lot of innocent people. They never blamed me too much though, except for Rosalie but she only got mad because she knows how guilty I would feel afterwards. Wallowing in self pity, I was good at that. Rosalie wasn't a nice girl. She could be annoying, but so could the rest be. The thing about her is that she doesn't like humans, jealousy I guess, and is annoyed with the gifts Edward and Alice and I have a lot. She wants privacy sometimes and knows she can't get it around us. She does care for us though, we are family.

We walked to the cafeteria together, drawing stares from freshmen and some other kids. We didn't take too much notice to them though, we were quite used to being stared at. Throughout the year really. Humans liked to talk about us too. We have to laugh about the things they come up with sometimes, Edward's gift can be very entertaining if he uses it to fish gossip from their minds.

We sat down in our usual spot, in the middle of the cafeteria, with the rest of our family. We talked a bit but eventually the conversation came to an end. Not like we minded, quiet was good. There were certain things you just couldn't talk about in a room full of humans. Especially with an unstable vampire like me anywhere near. Edward was about to protest against my thoughts when suddenly I felt a peak of utter shock and disbelief coming from my left.

I looked up at the door where the person with the feelings probably had just come through. I had been expecting to take a glance and see nothing wrong after which I could turn back again. My intention was disrupted however the moment I saw the girl the feelings had originated from. That's when my 'angel' thoughts had sprung up.

The girl was beautiful, nothing short to beautiful, even in vampire standards. She had wavy brown hair that reached to just below her shoulders. There were natural blonde highlights in them which seemed to accentuate her angelic features even more. Her eyes were the brightest color of green I had ever seen, with a sparkle in it that would've made my dead heart start beating again if that were possible.

She was staring straight at our table and our eyes met for the briefest of seconds, then she spun around and stalked away from the cafeteria, waves of shock and disbelief still rolling from her. When she was out of sight I looked up at Edward, who was frowning in the direction of the corridor.

'I can't read her.' He answered to my unspoken question of what she had been thinking. 'What?' Rosalie asked in shock, a hint of amusement in her voice. She didn't always like his gift so she liked to hear he had limits. Edward shrugged the tone off and looked every one of us in the eye, lingering on mine.

'I can't read her mind.' he paused a second. 'Jasper noticed shock and disbelief coming from her, but I can't read her mind to see where it's coming from.' Alice sighed, something vampires didn't do often. 'I don't see anything happen yet, but when she spotted us she immediately turned around and left. Do you think she knows?'

'I don't know.' Edward said with a frown. I could feel the frustration of not knowing what she was thinking emitting from him. He always said that humans didn't really have such interesting thoughts but knowing if they were on to us or not was useful. The fact that the girl who'd just turned around when seeing us could keep secrets was making all of us wonder about if she knew or not. I looked back to the corridor where she just left through. I hadn't noticed any fear coming from her so the chance that she actually knew what they were was slim.

'We can't be too careful Jasper.' Edward said in a serious tone. I nodded. I knew that they wouldn't want to leave. Emmett, Alice and Edward had all made human friends, though they weren't great friends because it was hard to be friends with creatures you want to kill every minute of every day. Rosalie wouldn't care really, and I wouldn't have either, until today. There was something with this girl that made me want to get close to her. Made me want to get to know her better and to understand what thoughts lay behind her emotions.

I felt caution coming from Edward and I knew he was sending his emotions towards me. I wasn't too controlled around humans yet, not like they were. I knew I had to be careful, and this time not just because our cover might be blown. This time because I knew that if I ever hurt this girl in any way, I wouldn't survive. The feeling was so strong that I knew it to be true, Edward's surprise did not go by unnoticed, but I did my best to ignore it. The bell rang, it was time for class.

I sat alone, like I have been since the start of the year during history class. My family was fascinating to the students, but their instincts still tell them to stay away from us. I didn't mind really, sitting alone was better than any human taking place beside me. I'd rip out their throats before we even would've gotten to the introduction part. Now however the main advantage I had of sitting alone was being able to let my mind wander. The first thing that popped into my head, or rather had never left it, was the girl from before. What was her name? And why did she move here? Did she make friends already? What was she thinking when she saw us, and what does she think of me? I was so caught up in my questions that I didn't notice someone had taken the seat beside me until class started.

The teacher started out with an introduction of a new classmate. I wasn't really paying attention, until he asked the new student to come up and introduce herself if she wanted. 'Nah that's alright.'

The voice had come from my close right. I turned my head slowly, knowing that if I tried to do it any faster I would do it at vampire speed. She was turning the pages of her textbook casually, glancing at every page for less than a second. When she felt my eyes on her she looked up, curiosity dominating her sparkling green eyes.

The same sparkling green eyes that had looked at me and my family in the cafeteria not so long ago. I could feel she was being cautious with a mix of open curiosity, the same her eyes had shown. The teacher had started his lecture but the words flew right by me. I had lived history so if he ever asked me anything I could probably answer in more detail than the book could. He never did though. No one ever asked me or my family questions during class. We received straight A's so it was obvious we knew the answer, no need to ask. Right now however the words didn't even reach my ears. The only thing I heard was the slow breathing of the girl next to me. She smiled and I swear that for a moment I felt my heart actually beat.

'Hi,' she said with the same clear voice she had used to answer the teacher. It sounded like the soft bells around the necks of Santa's reindeers, so beautiful. I kept staring at her a few seconds, which was long in vampire time, and felt a smile tug at the corner of my own lips.

'How do you do?' I asked her tipping my head forward. I could only just stop myself from touching my hat, which I wasn't wearing. I must've looked like a complete idiot. I could've slapped myself, only vampires don't do that. No one talked like that anymore, at least not in high school. I felt around to see if I noticed any signs of uneasiness coming from her, but I didn't. Instead she giggled and smiled.

'I'm doing fine, thanks for asking.' I tipped my head again as a 'you're welcome' gesture. I gritted my teeth at the motion I'd made all over again.

'What's your name?' She asked, the same curiosity still hanging around her, like a cloud of mist. She was talking softly, not wanting to interrupt the teacher I guessed, though he would probably not even have noticed a meteorite crashing through the roof followed by superman. When he was giving his lecture, he was preoccupied, to put it lightly. Students all around us were having conversations, which was good, it meant they weren't paying all too much attention to my odd ways.

'Jasper.' I said with a polite smile still on my lips. Her green eyes looking straight into my golden eyes, I almost forgot about everyone else in the room. No not almost. I forgot about everyone in the room. Normally I had a hard time dealing with history class. The other students sitting around me, their scents filling the classroom. Their heart beats ringing in my ears, as well as the soft flow of warm red liquid streaming through everyone's veins. It was torture. The fact the lesson was boring didn't help at all, it only gave me more room to let my thoughts wander, mostly to the students. Today however, they had wandered to this girl. It was strange. Not only that this girl was able to keep me from thinking about it, or able to make me forget about it with just one small movement, one batting of an eyelash, one hair falling in front of her face and her hand moving to get it back into place. How much I wanted to do that for her. It was weird that I was feeling as if this girl was my world. Everything I had ever lived for.

'Would you do me the honor of telling me your name please?' I asked her after all my thoughts had passed in less than a second. She smiled again, still not weirded out by my formal way of speaking, or my stares. Because that was what I believed I was doing, staring.

'Mia,' she said still smiling. I said it out loud, too fast and too low for her to hear. The name sounded so natural and at the same time so extraordinary.

'That is a beautiful name.' I said which made her smile widen, and my dead heart rate quicken.

'It's short for Mianella.' She made a face, a hint of disgust in her voice.

'It still is a beautiful name.' I said with all sincerity. Surprise rippled through her but she kept her smile in place.

'That is very nice of you.' She said. 'I think Jasper is a beautiful name too.'

If it had been any other girl it would probably be meant mockingly. A boy wouldn't want his name to be called beautiful. But Mia's sincerity, and the fact she had said my name out loud, made my own body shiver pleasantly.

'Thank you.' I said. The bell rang suddenly and it surprised me. The lesson couldn't yet be over right? We hadn't talked that long at all. We must've been though because everyone was getting up and leaving. She did as well. I didn't, wanting to take her in for as long as I had left. I followed her movements with my eyes as she put her books in her bad. When she was ready she turned to me and waved slightly.

'It was nice meeting you Jasper. I hope I'll see you around more!' She turned around and started walking away.

'Mianella.' I said softly. I froze in shock at what I then saw. It was a small movement, miniscule even, but it had been there. For a moment she had been inclined to turn around at the sound of her name. That was impossible however, I had said it too soft to hear from the doorway. I laughed at that thought, it was almost as impossible as me being able to ignore my bloodlust around her. The blood pumping in her veins, how easy it had been to ignore it. Easier than anything I had ever encountered. That's probably because...

Instead of freezing, this time I got up in a hurry and ran out of the classroom with my bag slung over my right shoulder, trying to go at a human speed, which is harder than it sounds. I called out for Edward in my mind, as loud as I could, knowing he would hear me.

COME MEET ME AT THE PARKING LOT NOW. BRING THE REST.

Edward would have his next lesson with Emmett and Rosalie so he could bring them. Alice had her lesson with me, but she had probably already seen I wasn't coming. I shook my head and laughed at myself. How stupid of me not to notice it before. The feelings of disbelief and shock in the cafeteria, the way she didn't chicken out at my formalities and the feelings of total horror when I had called her name and had thought she'd almost stopped. The reason I was never tempted by her beating heart was as clear as daylight and I could not believe I hadn't noticed it before. Her eyes had had me fooled. In the back of my mind a voice was still saying it was impossible that she was wearing contacts, such beauty couldn't be recreated by those filthy things, but I ignored it. She just had to be wearing contacts, how else were her eyes green? If her heart wasn't beating, than her eyes could only be two colors. Red, or gold. She was hiding one of the two behind those contacts, and I wanted to know which one.

'What did you do?' Rosalie snarled at me when I was with them again, beside our car. They'd all come, as I had asked them to. 'Rose calm down.' Emmett said, placing a hand on her shoulder. 'If he had done anything wrong we would've noticed by now. Probably by hearing screams and stuff.' I felt Emmett was mocking me but ignored it. 'That's not why I asked you guys here.' He took a pause and both Alice and Edward gasped at what I was going to say. 'I hate it when they do that.' Rosalie muttered. 'She's not human.' I said then, ignoring Rosalie's words completely. A group of four vampires looked at me in surprise, which is not something that happens often.

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