hi all this is breakingflower, yay, anyway this is my first ever fan-fiction so please please please read and rate review and scrutinize. I could never find a Fenris fan-fiction i liked so that inspired me to write one that i did. I do not own dragon age 2, i just play.

Fenris knocked on the door hesitantly. He had no idea what to say or do, to be honest he wasn't entirely sure why he was here.

Hawke looked up to the elvin man and blinked. She hadn't expected him. "Hey...is everything alright?"

"Yes...I wanted to...welcome you to the neighborhood." Fenris shifted his weight, his bare feet feeling the cold of the cobble stone, he wasn't lying he was glad she was closer at least, but he wasn't sure why he was here so spur of the moment.

Hawke smiled "I think it's customary to bring snacks as well." She smirked letting him in.

Fenris smiled and walked in, Hawke closing the door behind him "I doubt you would like any snacks I would make."

She chuckled "here let me show you around" Hawke led the way around the house, babbling away about each room as they passed, while wondering what was going on with the elf. This was unusual for him.

He stayed silent durring the tour until hawkes mother came down stairs dressed up much more so then normal. He gave a polite nod to the woman.

"Mother are you going somewhere?" Hawke asked walking up to her mother with a confused look.

"Yes, I've been invited to an old family friends for dinner, I figured It wouldn't hurt to get some social aspect to my life."

"No not at all, you look lovely mother. Be safe." She hugged her mother.

"I will, now good bye and don't burn the house down while I'm away." She gave a polite good bye and then was gone.

Fenris stayed quite threw the ordeal not feeling it was his place to talk.

She turned to him and smirked "your rather quite."

"I did not feel it was my place... if your tired I can go..."

"Nonsense stay, I made dinner for two and don't want it to go to waist." Hawke walked toward the kitchen, feeling Fenris watch her as he followed.

Dinner was filled with chit chat and good drinks to hid the fact that Hawke obviously didn't know how to cook. They took a bottle of whine to hawks room to get a fire going. They sat in some old chairs Hawke had moved into her room and watched the fire in silence for a moment. It took a while for Fenris to notice Hawke was shivering. He unconsciously stood up and sat next to her, it was cramped but Hawke moved into him.

"Do you still think about the dark roads..." She finally spoke, more a whisper than anything.

Fenris wrapped his arm around her shoulder " yes..."

"I have nightmares...wake up screaming..." She stared at the fire, gripping her glass to tightly.

Fenris took the glass from her and set both of their cups on the ground. He returned to his previous position of his arm on her shoulder, he ignored the pain of the contact and rubbed her arm best he could with the angle he had.

Hawke rested her head against his chest. "Hawke..." He didn't know what to say, he hadn't expected things to get to serious.

"I can't sleep in the dark anymore, I leave the fire going at night...but when it goes out and I wake up I think I'm down there again...thinking I need to protect...then I remember I'm safe at home...then I'm alone..."

Fenris shifted, suddenly he knew why he was there. He had noticed the bags under her eyes for weeks now, noticed her sarcastic remarks with Isabel and Varric ran a bit dry. She had lost her spark.

"I will stay then, protect you from the shadows...how does that sound?" Fenris wondered if she would reject him, the thought hurt but if it was what she wanted he would leave.

"Would you?" She looked up at him, noticing finally how close they where, he had never made physical contact with any of the group before, yet here he was holding her.

"Of course." He smiled slightly and looked back at the fire. "I can stay up and keep the fire going. Go to sleep, you need it." He resisted the urge to kiss her, he didn't understand it so he desided to put it away.

She stood up and looked down at the elf "thank you Fenris..."

"You would do the same." Was all he said.

She walked over to her bed and layed down, Fenris never looked her way so she quickly changed into the over sized blouse she wore to bed, putting on the pj trousers that went with it, she didn't normally but it felt like the right thing to do with Fenris there. She crawled into bed and it wasn't long before she fell asleep.

Fenris stared intently at the fire as he heard her change, was she so tired she didn't realize how...sexual it was knowing she was naked in the same room as him...now thoughts plauged his mind of what she wore to sleep. He kept his eyes on the fire though, he knew there wasn't a way in hell she thought of him in the same way. Who could be attracted to a monster like him.

He got up after about an hour when the fire started to die. He got it going again then returned to his chair and looked at Hawkes staff. How did he ever get to this point...falling for a mage... He had spent so long hating them he didn't think it was even possible to be friends with one. He still believed mages where evil but Hawke...Hawke was different.

He sat there for a few more moments before realizing he needed more wood for the fire, having not noticed any distress from Hawke he went to get more wood. He moved as quickly as he could but ran into Hawkes mother.

She was surprised to see him "Fenris...what are you still doing here?" She wasn't angry her daughter was old enough to do as she liked.

"I offered to keep the fire going while Hawke sleeped...She told me of the dreams."

The older woman nodded, she had heard her daughter's screams at night..."good, I hope your company helps. She cares for you, I'm sure you being there helps calm her. She calls your name mostly...maybe when she wakes up to see you alive it will...help." the old woman smiled then went to bed "good night Fenris."

"Good night ma'am." Fenris hurried to grab fire wood and return making two piles, he hoped would suffice. He heard her whimpering. It turned into a scream quickly and Fenris ran over to the bed "shhh Hawke it's fine."

"Fenris!please no!" Hawke was still dreaming. Fenris had been shot in the chest with a darkspawn arrow, he was bleeding everywhere. It pooled around them, filling the room they where in "don't leave me Fenris, I can't lose you too."

"Hawke wake up!"

Hawke jolted up breathing hard a light perspiration covered her. She raised her hand fire between her fingers.

"Hawke it's fine..." Fenris forced her to look at him and as soon as she saw him the fire disappeared and her hands quickly went to his face, causing him to flinch but not move away.

"Fenris..." She knew this was real, could feel his skin, the warmth from the fire still warmed his cheeks. She touched his hair and neck needing to know this was really him, needing to know he was alive, she felt his chest where she had seen the arrow pierce his armor...when she felt his armor intact she looked him in the eyes "your alive..."

"You couldn't get rid of me so easily." He smiled looking at her stroking her hair. "I'm not going anywhere-" he was cut off by her kissing him, he stiffened and pulled away "Hawke..."

"Fenris I've liked you since we met..." Hawke blurted before she lost the courage to do so.

Fenris stared at her intently refusing to accept he heard her right.

"Actually at this point I know I probably love you but you have never seemed to share the feeling so I tried to let it go but I couldn't...I'm sorry..."

Fenris at this point couldn't tell if he was the one dreaming. He slowly moved closer to her watching for her to pull away, but she didn't and suddenly they where kissing. She wasn't pulling away. She was kissing back, he couldn't help it, he pushed closer causing Hawke to lay down, he layed his legs next to hers, leaning over her. Kissing her, playing with her hair. He couldn't believe this was real.

Hawke wrapped her arms around his neck and pressed against him deepening the kiss. She opened her mouth to lick his lips, which opened immediately. She slid her tongue into his mouth rubbing it against his. She back up letting go of him "I'm sorry I shouldn't...I'm hurting you."

Fenris growled slightly when she pulled away "Hawke if you where hurting me I'd stop." He looked her in the eyes before kissing her again.

She felt his hand move from her head down to her hip, pulling her closer. She chuckled realizing she was at a disadvantage, Fenris thought she was laughing at him so he pulled back from the kiss "did I do something to amuse you?" Fenris looked at her, her cheeks where red from blushing.

"I'm sorry but to continue you have to take your armer off, I'm much more naked then you." She bit her lip realizing how forward she had been.

He simply smirked and stood up, causing her to frown. He removed his armor leaving just the cloth before returning to the bed kissing her, his hands quickly finding bare skin as he slid his fingers up her shirt to grab her naked sides pulling her closer.

She moaned softly as his hands touched her soft skin, feeling his lips move from her lips to her neck where he nipped softly, causing another moan. "Ah." One of her hands found his head, her fingers moving threw his hair. He opened his mouth wider and bit a larger amount of her skin but still gently, causing Hawke to jerk. Fenris quickly layed on top of her so she couldn't move as he began sucking her neck softly biting it. Though she did not stop moving, feeling her body wiggle against him was...intoxicating.

She moaned and wiggled every time his teeth pinched her skin. He smiled and kissed the spot, confident that he left his mark he smiled and kissed the spot and kissed his way up her neck to her lips. She kissed back and he smiled.

He propped himself on his elbows and looked down at her. Maker she was beautiful. She looked up to him her eyes Brown and green, he had seen many emotions in those eyes. This was not one he had seen in her, one he had not seen in anyone. Fenris stroked her cheek, she was blushing he could feel it more in his fingers, the warmth of her blood in her cheeks.

She nuzzled her face into his hand and smiled looking up at him. This did something to his chest he did not understand.

He smiled and kissed her forehead, he moved to return to the chair but her eyes widened and she gripped his arms tightly. He recognized this emotion as fear. "I was not leaving Hawke...the fires dying." She didn't let go at first and he could tell it took great effort for her to do so. He had originally planed on getting the fire going then returning to the chair to let her sleep but her reaction meant that was not going to happen.

He threw on enough logs to last the night then returned to her bed. She had moved over so he could lay next to her, she was already falling asleep on him. So he layed next to her, stiffly and unsure what to do with himself.