Title: I will Understand
Chapter: 1/9 I will Understand (Ron's Pov)
Author: Andrea
Rating: PG-13 Summary: Ron knows that Harry is hiding something from him. What happens when he finds out what it is? Doesn't Harry know that when times turn for the worst that your friends will always understand? Email: Please Email comments or suggestions to Behrbrat224@aol.com Feedback: Yes please! I would love feedback!
Notes: This is in Ron's POV There is SLASH so if you don't like that kind of thing please don't read and yes you have been warned! D/H and some R/Hr
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Harry Potter Characters they all belong to J.K. Rowling and her brilliant mind. I do not own the lyrics to the song either.
I will understand Chapter 1: I will understand "Morning, Harry!" I glance up from my plate and muster a smile when I hear Hermione greet him in her usual way, with a hug and a kiss. I see a weak smile spread across his pale and tired face.
I have started to notice that he's changed. Changed from the all smiles Harry we knew in first year to the pathetic, exhausted looking person before us. I lift my cream cheese covered bagel to my mouth and I raise my eyes up to meet his as he sits down and mutters a tired hello to Herm. I cannot help but watch him with concern on my worried face. His green eyes no longer shine, no longer have the same hope in them as I once saw, they no longer sparkle. He no longer wears glasses, but contacts. His hair is not messy but combed and hiding his scar well. Why has he changed? And how could I have not noticed? For the first time I realize I no longer know my best friend. I no longer know Harry Potter.
"You look tired mate." I say hoping to start any form of communication between us. I bring the now half-eaten bagel down and look across the table at him.
"Yeah." I frown at his lack of enthusiasm on the subject.
"Have I been working you guys too hard during practice?" I ask in a worried tone.
I had joined the team during our fifth year and right away, I was second best of course behind Harry. He was the best, I was his second, and so it went for the whole year so when Fred and George graduated leaving the position for team captain open he was the obvious choice. But, much to every bodies surprise he turned the offer down something about not having enough time. So of course I was nominated after that I accepted, naturally, and as a congratulations present he bought me a Nimbus 2001, still second- rate to his Firebolt but it was more than I had ever wanted. As I look back on that memory now it saddens me to see how far we have drifted; how I can no longer look at him and know what he feels.
Ever since then I became involved with Quidditch and my girlfriend, Hermione. Now that I think about it, after that we drifted; he started concentrating on school a lot more and I became more involved in my social status.
I look down at my plate and swallow back a few tears. I now know that he must be keeping something from me. Harry Potter has secrets that Ron Weasley does not know about.
"No just homework. Don't worry" I see him smile weakly and glace over at another table and then I see it, the light I thought had left him forever, the shine in his eyes. Dare I say happiness? I used to see the light in his eyes all the time but now seeing it after a long absence it seems so fresh, so new so him. I turn around to see what has brought this new light over his face. I glance around and see Malfoy looking over at our table. He smiles and looks away blushing I frown and glance back at Harry who is now shifting uncomfortably in his seat.
"Well you two are the best company a girl could have but sadly I must depart." I shift my gaze from Harry to Hermione she looks so cute when she is annoyed I laugh and kiss her gently on the cheek.
"Where are you going?" I ask her softly.
"The library." She whispers into my ear.
"Like you would go anywhere else." I say in a teasing way. She hits me lightly on the shoulder and giggles she then leans her head on my shoulder and I kiss her on her head which smells of pineapples. I smile and glance over at Harry his eyes now have a cloud over them he seems sad as though he may break down. He sees me looking at him and he looks away. I brush some of Hermione's soft brown hair out of my face and stand up.
"So since my lovely girlfriend is going to spend an exciting evening in the library I guess it is just us guys. What do you want to do?" I look down at him and see him look away quickly as though he does not want me looking at him while he answers.
"Um I was going to go for a walk." I nod and see him smile privately to himself. He shifts around in his seat and looks up at me for a brief second. I take this as a good sign and smile.
"That's great I'll go with you." I see him stand up quickly as though he wants to stop me.
"Um actually Ron.I kind of wanted to be alone." I open my mouth to protest but I hear Hermione clear her throat loudly. Confused and hurt I nod and turn around towards the doors.
"No problem mate." I begin to walk away and I hear Hermione mutter a quick goodbye to Harry. I feel her pull on my arm.
"Ron dear don't be upset." I glance at her quickly then look away not wanting her to know how much I am hurt by his decision.
"He just does not want to spend time with you right now." I continue to walk towards the great hall doors
"I know Herm. It is just-"
"You feel like you hardly know him." She finishes for me.
I nod.
"How did you-"
"You're not his only best friend Ron. I feel it to."
I know I offended her.
"I'm sorry Herm it's just-"
"You are both closer cause you are guys"
I nod and look down hoping she will not be angry. She lifts her arm to my face and pulls it down so I am looking into her eyes she leans in and kisses me on the lips softly then she hugs me. She knows me to well.
"Walk me to the library." Not a question. I smile and nod. She links her arm through mine and we both walk towards the library,
"So you'll be alright?" she asks once we have reached the library doors. I nod and smile
"Of course I will." She laughs and turns around to walk into the library.
"Hey Herm-" I step forward and she turns around and smiles
"Don't mention it." She replies before disappearing behind the doors. I turn around and head towards the common room.
"I will be there in a few minutes. I need to give you something." I hear a voice that sounds like Harry's say. I run forward to see who he is talking to but by the time I get there the other person is gone and Harry is walking towards the portrait of the fat lady. I hear him say the password.
"Hey Harry wait up!" I say as I jog over to him he steps in and hold the wall open for me.
"Hey Ron." I step in after him and the door closes behind us.
"Hey thanks Harry." I say catching my breath. He nods and heads towards our dorm room. I frown and follow him. Once in our dorm I flop on my bed and close my eyes looking forward to the nap I am planning in my head. As I lay there I hear him rummaging around for something he sounds frantic and in a hurry.
"Where is it?" I hear him whisper.
"Where is what?" I ask him in a sleepy tone.
"Noth-hear it is." I sit up quickly to get a look at it but he has already turned around and started to head out of the room. I frown and step off the bed. Want to be that way Harry Potter? Fine. As soon as I hear the door close behind him, I rush over to his trunk, which is tucked under his bed, I open it and glance in, sure enough, his invisibility cloak is nestled safely on top. I grab it and run out of the dorm and out of the common room just in time to see Harry disappear behind a corner. I have a strong urge to just turn around and forget the whole damn thing but as I throw the cloak over my head, I realize I must find out what has been going on with him. As I turn the corner I see him not to far away, I begin to slow down staying far enough from him so he will not hear me. Where are we? I wonder I have never seen this corridor before. I am so lost in my thoughts that I do not see Harry stop in front of a statue of a lion with a snake draped around his neck. I almost run into him but I stop just in time.
"Complicated." I turn my head when hearing Harry speak, as soon as I do the statue bursts into flames and Harry takes a step towards them I watch as he vanishes into the burning flames.
"Harry" I whisper my knees shaking. I silently muster up all my Gryffindor courage and walk towards the flames just as Harry did. As I step into them, I feel a tickling sensation flow through my body. I step out of the flames and find myself in a small room with a bed and a couch. I turn to my right and see a fireplace with a blanket laid out in front of it. Why did he come here?
"Harry?" I close my eyes and shake my head quickly. No not him anybody but.
"Draco." I hear Harry say. I feel my knees start to shake and I grip onto the brick wall and slide down putting my head on my knees.
"Oh Draco I missed you so much" I frown and look up slowly
"I missed you too Harry two weeks is just too long." I watch Harry nod and step towards that arse Malfoy. I close my eyes when I see him reach out and kiss him on the lips. I slowly open them back up preparing myself for what I may see. O.k. my friend is fucking gay. That I can handle, but, not Malfoy. I watch as Harry wraps his arms around Malfoy to pull him closer but right after he does I hear Malfoy yelp in pain and jump back.
"Love, what is it?" I hear Harry ask, concern so raw and real on his face that it hurts to watch it. I watch as Malfoy says nothing but turns around and walks away. Harry runs forward and grabs Malfoy's arm pulling him back I gasp quietly when I see Harry start to pull Malfoy's shirt off. Oh god no. I cover my eyes when I hear Harry groan.
"Draco." he says softly I open my eyes to see what happened, I see Harry with his back towards me, Malfoy's shirt in his hand.
"Love, what happened?" I close my eyes and look away. Malfoy's back, I can now see, is filled with bruises and cuts so deep it hurts to look at them then I see it a huge cut in the shape of a H covering his whole back. I hear Malfoy start to cry and I look away wanting to leave. I glance around the room searching for the door out but I see nothing but the wall.
"I.told him." I hear Malfoy say.
"You.told your father?" I frown and glance up.
"yes."
"Oh Draco.I am so sorry." I watch Harry gently pull Draco's arms and tug him towards the bed. Harry gently lays Malfoy down on his stomach. I try to look away but I find myself crying. Why hasn't Harry told me about this? I though I meant more to him then this. I watch as Harry slowly brings a finger to the H shaped gash and traces his finger around it softly it seems. I gasp quietly thinking that it would hurt but even if it did Malfoy showed now sign of pain at all.
"Harry." "Yes, love."
"I." I sigh and turn away not wanting to see them. I feel like I am invading their privacy but I cannot leave.
"You what?"
"Nothing."
I look up, see Harry stand and get something out of his pocket. He pulls Malfoy up and kneels down in front of him kissing Malfoy's hands.
"Draco I have something for you." I watch him stand up and open the box showing it to Malfoy. I see Harry pull out a ring and slide it onto Malfoy's finger.
"Harry."
"Sh."
"But."
"Draco this ring is for you because I want everyone to know that I love you and you are mine nobody can hurt you.nobody can love you like I can.this ring symbolizes that. You don't have to take it if you don't want to.but I just wanted to say."
"I love you Harry."
I close my eyes when I hear Malfoy say that. It sounds so sincere unlike his usual self his cocky self, his arrogant self. I close my eyes as I feel a tear slide down my cheek. I stand up and walk towards the direction I came in I see a knot on the wall and realize that that must be the way out. I pull out my wand and whisper "Silencto Vibrato" I turn back to the bed and see Harry and Malfoy kissing they seem as though they need this, like they need each other. I smile and press the knot on the wall it springs open with a loud thud but nobody but I can hear it. I run out quickly and close it behind me. I wander back to my room and wonder why Harry thought he could not tell me about him about this. I shake my head and walk towards the common room. Doesn't he know of all people I would understand?
I wish you would step off from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I will understand
-Third Eye Blind
Well there it is! ^_^ I Hope you enjoyed it. Now I am not one to leave loose ends so I will write more chapters so if you were worrying don't. hehe I would really appreciate feedback! Thanks so much!
Chapter: 1/9 I will Understand (Ron's Pov)
Author: Andrea
Rating: PG-13 Summary: Ron knows that Harry is hiding something from him. What happens when he finds out what it is? Doesn't Harry know that when times turn for the worst that your friends will always understand? Email: Please Email comments or suggestions to Behrbrat224@aol.com Feedback: Yes please! I would love feedback!
Notes: This is in Ron's POV There is SLASH so if you don't like that kind of thing please don't read and yes you have been warned! D/H and some R/Hr
Disclaimer: I do not own any of the Harry Potter Characters they all belong to J.K. Rowling and her brilliant mind. I do not own the lyrics to the song either.
I will understand Chapter 1: I will understand "Morning, Harry!" I glance up from my plate and muster a smile when I hear Hermione greet him in her usual way, with a hug and a kiss. I see a weak smile spread across his pale and tired face.
I have started to notice that he's changed. Changed from the all smiles Harry we knew in first year to the pathetic, exhausted looking person before us. I lift my cream cheese covered bagel to my mouth and I raise my eyes up to meet his as he sits down and mutters a tired hello to Herm. I cannot help but watch him with concern on my worried face. His green eyes no longer shine, no longer have the same hope in them as I once saw, they no longer sparkle. He no longer wears glasses, but contacts. His hair is not messy but combed and hiding his scar well. Why has he changed? And how could I have not noticed? For the first time I realize I no longer know my best friend. I no longer know Harry Potter.
"You look tired mate." I say hoping to start any form of communication between us. I bring the now half-eaten bagel down and look across the table at him.
"Yeah." I frown at his lack of enthusiasm on the subject.
"Have I been working you guys too hard during practice?" I ask in a worried tone.
I had joined the team during our fifth year and right away, I was second best of course behind Harry. He was the best, I was his second, and so it went for the whole year so when Fred and George graduated leaving the position for team captain open he was the obvious choice. But, much to every bodies surprise he turned the offer down something about not having enough time. So of course I was nominated after that I accepted, naturally, and as a congratulations present he bought me a Nimbus 2001, still second- rate to his Firebolt but it was more than I had ever wanted. As I look back on that memory now it saddens me to see how far we have drifted; how I can no longer look at him and know what he feels.
Ever since then I became involved with Quidditch and my girlfriend, Hermione. Now that I think about it, after that we drifted; he started concentrating on school a lot more and I became more involved in my social status.
I look down at my plate and swallow back a few tears. I now know that he must be keeping something from me. Harry Potter has secrets that Ron Weasley does not know about.
"No just homework. Don't worry" I see him smile weakly and glace over at another table and then I see it, the light I thought had left him forever, the shine in his eyes. Dare I say happiness? I used to see the light in his eyes all the time but now seeing it after a long absence it seems so fresh, so new so him. I turn around to see what has brought this new light over his face. I glance around and see Malfoy looking over at our table. He smiles and looks away blushing I frown and glance back at Harry who is now shifting uncomfortably in his seat.
"Well you two are the best company a girl could have but sadly I must depart." I shift my gaze from Harry to Hermione she looks so cute when she is annoyed I laugh and kiss her gently on the cheek.
"Where are you going?" I ask her softly.
"The library." She whispers into my ear.
"Like you would go anywhere else." I say in a teasing way. She hits me lightly on the shoulder and giggles she then leans her head on my shoulder and I kiss her on her head which smells of pineapples. I smile and glance over at Harry his eyes now have a cloud over them he seems sad as though he may break down. He sees me looking at him and he looks away. I brush some of Hermione's soft brown hair out of my face and stand up.
"So since my lovely girlfriend is going to spend an exciting evening in the library I guess it is just us guys. What do you want to do?" I look down at him and see him look away quickly as though he does not want me looking at him while he answers.
"Um I was going to go for a walk." I nod and see him smile privately to himself. He shifts around in his seat and looks up at me for a brief second. I take this as a good sign and smile.
"That's great I'll go with you." I see him stand up quickly as though he wants to stop me.
"Um actually Ron.I kind of wanted to be alone." I open my mouth to protest but I hear Hermione clear her throat loudly. Confused and hurt I nod and turn around towards the doors.
"No problem mate." I begin to walk away and I hear Hermione mutter a quick goodbye to Harry. I feel her pull on my arm.
"Ron dear don't be upset." I glance at her quickly then look away not wanting her to know how much I am hurt by his decision.
"He just does not want to spend time with you right now." I continue to walk towards the great hall doors
"I know Herm. It is just-"
"You feel like you hardly know him." She finishes for me.
I nod.
"How did you-"
"You're not his only best friend Ron. I feel it to."
I know I offended her.
"I'm sorry Herm it's just-"
"You are both closer cause you are guys"
I nod and look down hoping she will not be angry. She lifts her arm to my face and pulls it down so I am looking into her eyes she leans in and kisses me on the lips softly then she hugs me. She knows me to well.
"Walk me to the library." Not a question. I smile and nod. She links her arm through mine and we both walk towards the library,
"So you'll be alright?" she asks once we have reached the library doors. I nod and smile
"Of course I will." She laughs and turns around to walk into the library.
"Hey Herm-" I step forward and she turns around and smiles
"Don't mention it." She replies before disappearing behind the doors. I turn around and head towards the common room.
"I will be there in a few minutes. I need to give you something." I hear a voice that sounds like Harry's say. I run forward to see who he is talking to but by the time I get there the other person is gone and Harry is walking towards the portrait of the fat lady. I hear him say the password.
"Hey Harry wait up!" I say as I jog over to him he steps in and hold the wall open for me.
"Hey Ron." I step in after him and the door closes behind us.
"Hey thanks Harry." I say catching my breath. He nods and heads towards our dorm room. I frown and follow him. Once in our dorm I flop on my bed and close my eyes looking forward to the nap I am planning in my head. As I lay there I hear him rummaging around for something he sounds frantic and in a hurry.
"Where is it?" I hear him whisper.
"Where is what?" I ask him in a sleepy tone.
"Noth-hear it is." I sit up quickly to get a look at it but he has already turned around and started to head out of the room. I frown and step off the bed. Want to be that way Harry Potter? Fine. As soon as I hear the door close behind him, I rush over to his trunk, which is tucked under his bed, I open it and glance in, sure enough, his invisibility cloak is nestled safely on top. I grab it and run out of the dorm and out of the common room just in time to see Harry disappear behind a corner. I have a strong urge to just turn around and forget the whole damn thing but as I throw the cloak over my head, I realize I must find out what has been going on with him. As I turn the corner I see him not to far away, I begin to slow down staying far enough from him so he will not hear me. Where are we? I wonder I have never seen this corridor before. I am so lost in my thoughts that I do not see Harry stop in front of a statue of a lion with a snake draped around his neck. I almost run into him but I stop just in time.
"Complicated." I turn my head when hearing Harry speak, as soon as I do the statue bursts into flames and Harry takes a step towards them I watch as he vanishes into the burning flames.
"Harry" I whisper my knees shaking. I silently muster up all my Gryffindor courage and walk towards the flames just as Harry did. As I step into them, I feel a tickling sensation flow through my body. I step out of the flames and find myself in a small room with a bed and a couch. I turn to my right and see a fireplace with a blanket laid out in front of it. Why did he come here?
"Harry?" I close my eyes and shake my head quickly. No not him anybody but.
"Draco." I hear Harry say. I feel my knees start to shake and I grip onto the brick wall and slide down putting my head on my knees.
"Oh Draco I missed you so much" I frown and look up slowly
"I missed you too Harry two weeks is just too long." I watch Harry nod and step towards that arse Malfoy. I close my eyes when I see him reach out and kiss him on the lips. I slowly open them back up preparing myself for what I may see. O.k. my friend is fucking gay. That I can handle, but, not Malfoy. I watch as Harry wraps his arms around Malfoy to pull him closer but right after he does I hear Malfoy yelp in pain and jump back.
"Love, what is it?" I hear Harry ask, concern so raw and real on his face that it hurts to watch it. I watch as Malfoy says nothing but turns around and walks away. Harry runs forward and grabs Malfoy's arm pulling him back I gasp quietly when I see Harry start to pull Malfoy's shirt off. Oh god no. I cover my eyes when I hear Harry groan.
"Draco." he says softly I open my eyes to see what happened, I see Harry with his back towards me, Malfoy's shirt in his hand.
"Love, what happened?" I close my eyes and look away. Malfoy's back, I can now see, is filled with bruises and cuts so deep it hurts to look at them then I see it a huge cut in the shape of a H covering his whole back. I hear Malfoy start to cry and I look away wanting to leave. I glance around the room searching for the door out but I see nothing but the wall.
"I.told him." I hear Malfoy say.
"You.told your father?" I frown and glance up.
"yes."
"Oh Draco.I am so sorry." I watch Harry gently pull Draco's arms and tug him towards the bed. Harry gently lays Malfoy down on his stomach. I try to look away but I find myself crying. Why hasn't Harry told me about this? I though I meant more to him then this. I watch as Harry slowly brings a finger to the H shaped gash and traces his finger around it softly it seems. I gasp quietly thinking that it would hurt but even if it did Malfoy showed now sign of pain at all.
"Harry." "Yes, love."
"I." I sigh and turn away not wanting to see them. I feel like I am invading their privacy but I cannot leave.
"You what?"
"Nothing."
I look up, see Harry stand and get something out of his pocket. He pulls Malfoy up and kneels down in front of him kissing Malfoy's hands.
"Draco I have something for you." I watch him stand up and open the box showing it to Malfoy. I see Harry pull out a ring and slide it onto Malfoy's finger.
"Harry."
"Sh."
"But."
"Draco this ring is for you because I want everyone to know that I love you and you are mine nobody can hurt you.nobody can love you like I can.this ring symbolizes that. You don't have to take it if you don't want to.but I just wanted to say."
"I love you Harry."
I close my eyes when I hear Malfoy say that. It sounds so sincere unlike his usual self his cocky self, his arrogant self. I close my eyes as I feel a tear slide down my cheek. I stand up and walk towards the direction I came in I see a knot on the wall and realize that that must be the way out. I pull out my wand and whisper "Silencto Vibrato" I turn back to the bed and see Harry and Malfoy kissing they seem as though they need this, like they need each other. I smile and press the knot on the wall it springs open with a loud thud but nobody but I can hear it. I run out quickly and close it behind me. I wander back to my room and wonder why Harry thought he could not tell me about him about this. I shake my head and walk towards the common room. Doesn't he know of all people I would understand?
I wish you would step off from that ledge my friend
You could cut ties with all the lies you've been living in
And if you do not want to see me again
I will understand
-Third Eye Blind
Well there it is! ^_^ I Hope you enjoyed it. Now I am not one to leave loose ends so I will write more chapters so if you were worrying don't. hehe I would really appreciate feedback! Thanks so much!