Enough to be In Love
I wish it were me. I wish you had sat at home and waited for Kiba to come back and tell you. But I'd never want you to hurt like this. I wish I was Uchiha Mikoto and I'd at least go with you. You told me before you left, before you never came back, you begged me not to make you promise. Promise to come back to me. You knew. You knew you couldn't and so you didn't lie. You went away forever, just a mission and it's over for you. It's not over for me. I'm all alone with the sympathetic eyes that never really saw you until now. I have the stone too. And I can trace your cold engraved symbols with my fingers and cry the tears you used to wipe away until my hands move by memory and I can't see anymore. I'm sorry for you because you had life left to live. I'm sorry for me because I have life left to live. And I try not to but I do. I cry so much. And it doesn't help at all. We knew it would hurt and we knew it would be worth it and it was. I smile while I cry because through all the pain, I'm so happy I had you for a while. Enough to be in love. And I love you more every day I wait to rejoin you. But this isn't how I wanted it to end. This is never how I wanted to say "we just don't talk anymore".