"No one would miss me." I said coldly.
"That's not true!" Axel yelled loudly, I ignored him and kept walking. "Roxas!" He yelled loudly to me, I stopped but didn't turn.
"Where are you going? Do you want them to kill you! I can only cover up for you so long! I-I'd never be able to live with myself if they caught you because of me. You can't go…" Axel chocked on the last words.
"It won't be your fault. I know all the consequences that come with doing this." I said with a monotone voice, I surprised myself with this voice I used.
"So you're gonna kill yourself?" He yelled back.
"No I'll just make sure I don't get caught."
"What the hell's wrong with you! You can't just assume leaving the organization is that easy! They're gonna kill you If they find you Roxas, and they will!" Axel yelled.
"Shut up and stop pretending that you care, you have no heart, it shouldn't matter to you, and you're not throwing you life away." I growled a little too harshly.
I walked away and I didn't look back. He didn't matter. Nothing mattered. Snow slowly began to fall as I continued walking.
I was prepared to leave, prepared to never come back, but for some reason when I heard Axel's foot steps leave I turned around and looked at where the red head once stood.
"Come back..." I silently pleaded to no one.
I sat down on the cold ground and faced towards the sky, beginning to cry; the snow landed on my face and melted quickly mixing with my tears.
"Axel…" I said quietly but still audible for anyone nearby.
I waited a few minutes and decided that leaving wasn't worth this so I stood and began walking to the castle.
'Hopefully Axel's not angry...' I thought to myself as I continued walking.
I saw the castle come into view but something didn't feel right…
That's when I saw it, Axel was standing on the edge of the castle's roof.
'What's he doing up there…?' I thought in panic.
Than it hit me. He was going to jump…
"Axel!" I yelled as loud as I could.
I ran toward the bottom of the castle but he didn't see me, he hadn't heard me…
Than faster than I could have imagined it happened, axel jumped and fell on the ground in the blink of an eye. With a sickening 'SPLAT' his body smashed on the ground.
I covered my mouth and tried not to puke, no doubt was he dead when he fell I heard his skull break and his bones smash on the impact. Slowly a puddle of blood gathered under and around him.
I fell to the ground. "Axel…" I whispered to him.
I fell to the ground next to Axel's crushed body. Right than I wanted to die. My best friend... Had just taken his life right in front of me and it was all my fault.
I laid down on the ground, not caring that I was getting covered in blood, and I wrapped my arms around Axel's still body. He was so cold…
I'm sure I fell asleep because when I opened my eyes I was inside the castle laying on a bed… But it wasn't my bed. I flopped over and realized I was in Axel's bed. Than I remembered what had just happened and I cried out.
I closed my eyes again and tried to forget but than the scene with axel played in my head, causing me to open my eyes. Every time I closed my eyes I saw axel, taking his own life.
I sat up ad pulled my arms around my chest tightly, hoping it would help me and make me feel safe it was just a way for my trying to hold myself together.
"Shut up and stop pretending that you care, you have no heart, it shouldn't matter to you, and you're not throwing you life away."
My own words rang through my head. He did, he threw his life away. Maybe he did care. Maybe it mattered to him…
'If we're nobodies, if we have no feelings, no hearts, than why…why do I feel like this why do I feel broken?' I asked myself in my head.
Memories of times I spent with Axel flashed in my mind.
"Hey Roxas do you know why the sun sets red? It's cause color travels in waves and out of all those colors, red bends the farthest."
"Like I asked know it all!" Axel and I laughed on the clock tower staring at the sunset.
I laughed sadly to myself, trying to ease the pain. It didn't work…
I would kill right now to hear Axel's voice.. To hear him say 'got it memorized' or to hear him say anything, I missed him and he had only left my life earlier. Remorse filled me and I started to cry again.
"Goodbye axel..." I choked out through sobs. "I've got you memorized…"