Saw a video on youtube, Dean centric and I just started typing, this is what I came up with. Written purely because this is the first time in months that I have had the urge to write something and post it without writers block kicking my butt. You like it that's great, if not that's okay too...just don't waste your time or mine with negative reviews.
Dean Winchester wishes for a lot of things.
He wishes that that Yellow Eyed Bastard never laid eyes on his family.
He wishes that his mom and dad were both alive, happy and in love.
He wishes that Sammy was a lawyer living in some big house with Jess and a few kids.
He wishes that Bobby could have his wife and the life he deserved.
Unfortunately Dean has learned that simply wishing things doesn't make them come true, no matter how hard you try. The reality is that the Yellow Eyed Demon set his sights on Mary long before Dean was even thought of. The reality is that his mom died a horrible and terrifying death and that his dad died fighting the same fight he had been fighting for years without knowing how it was going to end. Sam was destined for things greater than Dean ever imagined, just not good things and Bobby, hell if it weren't for Bobby and the way he was now, Dean isn't even sure if he and Sam would be alive. He thinks back on everything, the few scattered memories of a childhood that vanished along with his mom in that fire, memories of a man who was more a drill sergeant than a father. Seeing Sam die (multiple times but it was that first time, in that old ghost town, that haunts him most). He sees Bobby battered and broken but trying his best to hide it, putting himself on the back burner for the boys he sees as his own.
Dean Winchester wishes for change, knowing that change will never come. Between the hunts and the deaths and Sam's trip to the dark side Dean is beautifully and tragically broken.
But it is all these things and more that make Dean who he is.
A terrific hunter.
A fiercely protective and sacrificing brother.
A friend (or surrogate son in Bobby's case) so loyal that you never have to think twice.
So while Dean wishes for change, wishes for a world without the hunting and the Leviathan and the constant threat of death and police imprisonment, he also embraces all of it. Because without this world, without the cruelty and the pain that has plagued him to this day he wouldn't know who he was. Because Dean Winchester does not wish these things for himself, no, he wishes them for the people around him. Because Dean is a hunter, hunting is what he does best and he knows that hunting is what he is sure he will die doing.