BLOOD
Blood is a colour, Blood is beautiful. Don't know why I think that, I love watching it running down my wrist. I blame mum I blame dad, I blame my sister. Why? They hurt me mentally and physically. I blame them for making me so fucked up in the head. I also blame Evans for making me learn how to love. Love? Is that even a word? I don't care.
Blood is a friend to me, I see it every day. Even at school when I'm alone. I blame the school too. They made me act the way I am. Especially Mike aka Vampir, he raped me. I still feel dirty.
Blood is like addiction, it's like drinking coffee but it's red and painful, I don't care I'm already addicted to cutting myself. I blame that to everyone. I'm supposed to be a Goth not a Emo.
Blood is like darkness, I fade into it. I just it's like dying. You fall into a deep puddle of darkness.
Blood scares me, sometimes there's just too much of it I felt like fainting a couple of times. My cuts are deep it feels like I'm dying very slowly.
Blood is suicide, suicide. I never thought about suicide before. But I'm not going to do it, not yet. I'm just going to wait and see if everything well goes back to normal.
Blood haunts me, it makes fun of me. I'm I going crazy? I think so. I don't know anymore I don't care I just need rest. I'm tired. Not sleepy tired just tired of this life. I don't care what people think I'm going to attempt suicide. Goodbye everyone. I play Pink Floyd's song called 'Goodbye Cruel World' I slit my wrist one last time. Deeper than before. I listen to the song over and over again.
' Goodbye, cruel world
I'm leaving you today
Goodbye, goodbye, goodbye
Goodbye, all you people
There's nothing you can say
To make me change my mind
Goodbye'
Blood is beautiful, Blood is my friend, I love it.
A/N: Goodbye cruel world by Pink Floyd.