Takes place after the party, in episode 5 of season 1. (WARNING: There is self harm in this chapter)

Cyrus pov

My two best friends and I, Andi and Buffy were walking together at school when Buffy speaks up,

"So what happened after the party? Did you get in trouble with your mom?" She asked.

"Grandma." I added.

"Cece is what she wants me to call her if she ever speaks to me again," Andi said worried.

"So what you got Bex, she's a cool mom. She lets you have parties."

" She makes me have parties. Don't get me wrong, it was a great party that I said we shouldn't have but now it's something we got in a lot of trouble for." Andi said.

While Andi was talking I noticed Jonah Beck behind us. Oh man, he's right there. I should say hi to him. That's right I can say hi to him and he will say hi back. It's so awesome I have to show my friends.

"Guy guys want to see something amazing... Hey Jonah." I said trying to act cool.

" Hey Cyrus," He said. And I swear to god I almost fainted. It's so awesome how he notices me, can this moment get any more cool.

"You see that? Jonah Beck is saying hi to me. Like whatever to bd were friends-"

"Dude come over here I have to talk to you." Jonah said and I almost had a heart attack.

"Why? What'd I do? I'm sorry!" I said as I flinched back and he laughed. I saw Buffy and Andi giving each other a confused look.

"Hey." He said to Andi.

"Hey." She said back.

"Hey." Buffy added in a mad tone.

"Fun party." Jonah said trying to brighten up the awkward moment.

"Thanks." Andi said smiling. Oh no, I know that smile, it's the smile of love. I know Andi likes Jonah but I also like him which makes me a horrible friend. That's why I haven't told my friends about it, because Andi would hate me.

"Your girlfriend seemed nice," Buffy said sarcastically. I wish Buffy wouldn't have to be so mean towards Jonah, I know she's just mad about his girlfriend Amber.

"Listen she feels really bad," He said looking down. Really guys, why do my friends have to put down Jonah Beck. Do they not know who they are talking to? I felt so embarrassed by them, I should apologize to him about my friends. I don't like seeing Jonah sad.

"It's ok" Andi said as Jonah walked away and I followed.

"I just want you to know that whatever it is that I did I won't do it again, " I said apologizing as Jonah laughed. Well it's better seeing him laugh then looking sad I guess, even though what I said wasn't supposed to be funny.

"You crack me up. Why are you so nervous all the time?" He asked. If only he knew about the way I feel about him. Just the thought of Jonah makes me nervous.

"Uh probably because both my parents are shrinks-"

"Oh man, that's rough."

"Who got divorced and married 2 other shrinks, so I'm being raised by 4 mental health professionals. Pass overs fun." I lied.

"Yeah. So dude, how would you like to go on a date?" Jonah said.

Hold on, is Jonah Beck asking me out? It's just like the story I wrote of us. I mean what story? It's not like I lay awake at 2 am writing stories of us married and taking care our two adapted children because that would be crazy. Note to self, hide stories. It's like all the dreams I had. I can't believe this is happening. No, it can't be I must be dreaming. I'm way too head over heels for this guy.

"Are you asking me out on a date, like a date date?" I asked.

"What? No. Not like us on a date, that would be weird. I meant a double date. Me and Amber and you and Iris. Iris is your girlfriend right?" he asked and my happiness soon disappeared. I was so excited to go on a date with just him. Stupid Amber and who the hell is Iris? I have never had a girlfriend before.

"Who's Iris?" I asked

"Ambers friend. You met her at the party." He said and then I sorta remembered her. She was a nice person, which is weird considering she's friends with that witch Amber but I don't feel the same way about her like I do with Jonah.

"Oh, I remember her but she not my girlfriend. We just met." I said

"Oh, Amber said you two were a thing. But you should totally go on a double date with us so you can get to know her. I have a feeling you two will make a great couple," He said.

Yeah, well I have a feeling we would make a great couple if you just open your eye. Have my subtle hints not been working?

But if going on this date means spending time with Jonah then, yes I'll go.

"Then, yes I'll go." I said.

"Awesome man, we're going to the carnival on Sunday." He said and reached his hand out for a hand shake. Oh no, I was unprepared for this, I thought he wanted a simple hand shake but no it was more. He shaked my hand and did something else I never knew of and then things got awkward.

"Oh I see what you were going for. You want to try again?" I said awkwardly. He refused and I panicked.

I need to practice for my date. I need to learn how to do his handshake. I need to buy new shoes, a new shirt, new pants, new everything. I have to look perfect for my date with Jonah, I mean Iris.

I turned back to where my friends were sitting and they were gone. I entered the school hallways to see Andi sitting near the principal's office. Oh no, I was just gone for a minute and now my friends are in trouble.

"Andi, what happened? " I asked sitting next to her.

"Some kid gave Buffy a note telling her to meet the principal." She said;

"Oh no, what do you think she did? Have you seen that guy that was flirting with her at the party? You don't think she would do something to him, do you?" I asked. Knowing Buffy, she probably did something bad to him.

"What guy?" She asked

"You know, the guy she was talking to at the party last night."

"Buffy has a boyfriend!" Andi squealed.

"I didn't say that, they were just talking. Anyways, you will not believe what Jonah asked me." I said.

"What? He wants you to join the team?" Andi joked.

"Even better, he asked me out on a double date with him and Amber and me and Iris."

"Iris, who is she? Your girlfriend?" Andi said smirking.

"No, well I'm not sure. I don't know her that well."

"So your going on a double date with someone you don't know?" She asked.

"It's not a date, it's a hang."

"What's the difference?"

"I don't know. I was hoping you'd tell me?" I asked.

"How should I know? I'm not allowed to date until I graduate highschool," Andi said as Buffy came out of the principal's office.

"So, what is it?" Andi asked.

"What'd you do" I added.

"You will not believe this. I have to change my hair" Buffy said.

"What's wrong with your hair?"

"Apparently someone failed a quiz because my hair was in the way of the board."

"That's the stupidest thing I have ever heard." I say.

"That's what I said using more appropriate words" Buffy said.

"I just wish I could talk to my mom." Buffy added looking down.

"She's still overseas?" Andi questioned.

"For at least 6 more months, I know. I just don't want to change my hair."

"Well you can't, people know us as the good hair crew." I said.

"No one calls us that."

"I know, I made it up, spread it around."

"So what are you going to do?"

"I don't know, I have to figure it out by tomorrow."Buffy said as we walk out of school.

Andi was picked up by her mom, Bex. Buffy was picked up her older brother Jessie. While I waited outside for half an hour. Finally my "mom" came.

General Pov

"Hey. Sorry I'm late, had an extra patient today," Mrs. Goodman said as her son Cyrus entered the car.

"It's fine mom, you could have told me and I could have gotten a ride from a friend," Cyrus said.

"I know. I just wasn't able to use my phone, you know how it is at work."She replied. Cyrus could see his glaring at him through the side view mirror.

" Cyrus Goodman, how dare you. How dare you wear that ridiculous feminine shirt. Don't you remember what happened the last time your father saw you in those clothes," Mrs. Goodman gasp.

Cyrus didn't respond, he was too busy remembering what had happened the last time his step father saw him wear his usual attire.

Cyrus Goodman was known for wearing bright colored shirts and v necks, not typically seen in most guys. At first this was no problem to Cyrus, he loved dressing like this, it was just in his nature. This style just screamed out Cyrus goodman.

Then after his parents divorce and meeting his new stepfather, Cyrus learned that people had different opinions about the way he dressed. Yeah he would get some comments at school but never had he been punch before and by someone who was meant to be his new step father.

Cyrus's step father made it very clear to his step son to never dress that way again, with the help of an half an hour long beating. The first beating that had completely changed who Cyrus Goodman was.

You would think that Cyrus's new step brother would have help him but no, it was quite the opposite. Cyrus's step brother, Dean was the favorite child. Being the favorite child came with the perks of not getting in trouble and of course his favorite, helping spreading fear upon Cyrus. He loved blaming his step brother Cyrus for everything and had no problem watching his dad beat up Cyrus, in fact he would even join in and hurt his step brother.

" Just make sure, he doesn't see you in that," Mrs. Goodmen warned her son, snapping him out of his thoughts

As soon as his mom opened the door to his house Cyrus quickly ran to his room only to be pushed onto the floor by his step brother.

"What's with the girls shirt, fag." Cyrus's step brother Dean taunted as he stepped on Cyrus's hand.

Cyrus tried to escape but even he knew that there was no hope. He prepared himself for the punishment, or has his step father called it "shapening"

There was only one thing that matter to Cyrus's step father, and that was his reputation. By marring Cyrus's mother, that helped his reputation at work to become even more successful. The two married shrinks had become a great headline for their business and had caught the attention of many married couples who needed help.

Yet to his eyes, he saw his new step son as a downfall of the whole marriage situation. He saw Cyrus as an embarrassment by the way he dressed and acted.

Cyrus's step father explained to him that he wasn't a bad guy, he was simply shaping his step son into something better to avoid him from ruining his reputation. He believed that "gently hitting" Cyrus would help him to remember to not be himself, and to help him remember to be more muscular.

Even though Cyrus's stepfather is a therapist, he did go to medical school, so he knew where the right places were to hit on the human body without it being seen by others and which places on the body hurts the most when beaten. He was smart, he knew if this secret of his was caught, he would lose his job.

As Dean guarded Cyrus from leaving, Cyrus's stepfather Steve entered the room with a look of anger and disappointment.

" You never learn do you? You just love embarrassing me don't you? Now I have to be known as the father of a fucking queer!" shouted. Cyrus closed his eyes just as his step father raised his fist, he could already feel the pain of what's about to come.

After being thought another lesson, Cyrus stood in front of the bathroom mirror. He lifted up his shirt, yet he still had his eyes close. Seeing the damage done to his body would hurt more than from taking the beating. Cyrus had gathered the courage to open his eyes, only to see the purple bruises forming on his sides and stomach from the punches and kicks. This wasn't the first time Cyrus stood in front of the mirror examining the damages on his body.

Cyrus couldn't take it, he couldn't get his step fathers voice out of his head. The voice haunted him every day telling him over and over again of how he was a disappointment. To cope with these thoughts along with his inner thoughts, Cyrus would go through the cabinets in the bathroom until he found it. By it, he meant the shiny rectangular shape of sharp metal. This deadly habit Cyrus started doing, happened at the same time his new step father started beating him. It was both to help him cope with the abuse as well as cope with his internal thoughts.

Cyrus lifted up his sleeves and found a new place on his left arm to drag the blade across.

' I'm such a fag just like my step brother said I was'

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' I'm a monster for liking Jonah'

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'Being gay is a sin'

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' I'm going to burn for this'

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' Andi will hate me for liking Jonah'

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' I'm such a bad friend'

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' I don't deserved to be loved'

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With shaking and trembling hands, Cyrus put down the blade and stopped before it got out of control. He then covered up his mess because for him this was a routine. Just like how the beatings were part of his routine so was this. Cyrus then drifted asleep as tears streamed down his face. Today was just like any other day, same as always with the same abuse and pain inflicted on him.

Authors note-All of the chapters will soon be edited.