1. Motion He's always moving, his leg, his arms, his eyes even, it's hell sitting next to him, but worse when she's not.
2. Cool Her skin is too cool against his on hot summer nights, and his breath is too hot on her neck.
3. Young Parker is so young, she thinks, watching them play, was she ever that young?
4. Last "You're gonna be the last," he whispers in her ear as he moves above her, she still cannot believe she is someone's wife.
5. Wrong This feeling is all so wrong, she doesn't feel like Dr. Temperance Brennan, she feels like a lonely little girl, and he gets that, so he just sits next to her and holds her hand until it passes.
6. Gentle He is so gentle with the baby, so adoring, she watches him hand the girl back to her mother, and Temperance wants to give that to him, but she doesn't want it for herself, not just yet.
7. One "I miss you," she whispers into the cell phone, careful that no one will hear her, "it's only one more night," he says, laughing.
8. Thousand "There are a thousand ways to drain a man's blood," she tells him once, and he laughs like it's a joke, but she wasn't joking.
9. King He treats his son like a little king, and she wants to give Seeley that same treatment.
10. Learn She has learned how to make him so happy he screams her name, she has learned how much he hates to lose control, but she has yet to learn how to take away that fear, she wants to.
11. Blur His reflection is blurred in the misted mirror, and for that moment, she is afraid of him – this must be how the rest of the world feels.
12. Wait It is the longest two minutes of her life, and then, two lines… two, blue lines.
13. Change They change the study into a nursery, and she will miss her books.
14. Command "Make it stop, please, Seeley, it hurts," and he can't do a damned thing.
15. Hold She had never imagined she could love anything so much as this brown-eyed babe in her arms.
16. Need "I need sleep," she moans, "wait five years ," he replies.
17. Vision He needs glasses now, and it's more harm to his ego than anything else.
18. Attention Their daughter demands all his attention, and she's just as jealous as Parker sometimes.
19. Soul She hadn't believed in a soul until she met him, but this was more than pheromones at work – she knew that much.
20. Picture Her house is covered in pictures of Christine, and some mornings when she wakes up before her family, she hardly recognizes her daughter, she doesn't feel that she belongs.
21. Fool She was a fool to think it would last.
22. Mad He is so goddamned angry with her when he leaves, but he regrets it by the next morning and he is too proud to say so.
23. Goodbye Neither of them could say goodbye, not really.
24. Now Things are different now, even Christine notices, Mommy doesn't kiss Daddy on the way out the door anymore.
25. Hide They hide from everything they think should be said.
26. Sudden The last fight is sudden when it comes, like thunder, and sudden when it ends, like rainbows.
27. Shadow "There are too many shadows in this house," she tells him, "then we'll get another," he says.
28. Fortune Angela has a fortune-teller at her birthday, and Temperance does not believe in those things but she is talked into it; the woman tells her she is loved, but Temperance already knew that.
29. Safe She doesn't like guns in the house, but she knows Seeley needs them to feel safe, so Temperance doesn't take them away.
30. Ghost She hears her mother's voice when she is asleep, and she wakes up crying in his arms, he doesn't say anything, but merely holds her tighter.
31. Book She closes the book just as Christy closes her eyes, and thinks that she only has a few more years of this left; once, she is shocked to recollect, that would not have made her unhappy.
32. Wall He pushes her up against the wall of the lab, and it's quick and fast and hungry and oh she'd forgotten how this had been at first.
33. Never She's never wanted anything so much as she wants this baby to live, and Seeley's the only one who understands.
34. Sing She watches him sing to their son, all encased in the plastic prison that keeps him alive, and she has never loved him more than at that moment.
35. Child He has three children, a daughter and two sons, and he thought he'd known how deeply he felt about them, but seeing Hogan in danger has broken him.
36. 37. Time
On their ten-year anniversary, they bring Hogan home for the first
time, and they've both forgotten to buy each other presents, but it
is still enough. 38. Wash
Seeley learned long ago that if you plan on bathing someone else, you
might as well do it naked, and Temperance learned long ago that he
looked damn sexy naked and wet. 39. Torn
Christy rips up her report card and doesn't show it to her mother,
she knows she'll never be smart enough for her; Booth watched, and
couldn't tell her that she'd always been perfect in their eyes. 40. History
She has not seen her father in thirty years, and when he walks into
the room, she is so overwhelmed by the history of it that she runs,
leaving Seeley behind to explain. 41. Naked
It is his hands on her naked breasts that find the lump, and his that
she holds when they tell her she might die. 42. God
He does not believe in a god who would do this to her, to their
children, to him. 43. Precious
She is so precious to him, he thinks, as she stoically lets him shave
her long hair, the hair he loved before he even loved her, he won't
lose her. 44. Hunger
"Daddy, I'm hungry," Christy whines, and he knows that Parker
is outside smoking, and Hogan has cut his knee and his wife is in the
hospital in a bed by herself and Seeley can't do this alone
anymore. 45. Power
He watches over her, and prays to a God that he doesn't believe in
anymore for just one more day with her. 46. Drive
The day she comes home for the hospital, he lets Parker drive them
home, he lets Parker think it's so he can get more experience, but
it's really because he can't let go of her hand. 47. Harm
Christy gets broken up with for the first time, and Temperance sits
with her for hours and comforts her, but all Seeley wants to do is
hurt the man who has broken his little girl's heart. 48. Bother
Hogan drives Christy insane, and Parker's about to punch them both,
and Temperance has finally snapped and is yelling at all of them
(including Parker, who's far too old to be yelled at, he's
seventeen, which Seeley still can't believe) , and Seeley can't
help but smile because she's still there to ball them out even if
he'll have to run around apologizing to all of them later. 49. Eye
Hogan gets hit on the eye with a baseball, and it gets swollen,
Temperance takes him to emerge, and Seeley stocks up on icepacks, but
Hogan sees it as a battle wound – they did not want their children
to have those. 50. Believe
She had never believed in anything before Booth, and now she's
quite prepared to believe in everything – fate, destiny, true love
and what have you – because this life, this life that he gave her,
can't have been an accident.