Please note none of the Twilight characters belong to me they are all Stephanie Meyers wonderful creations.

Introduction

Carlisle POV

We left Forks about a year after Bella's father died and moved twice since; none of us are really settled after her disappearance. We know the Volturi are involved with her kidnap which made it hard to keep Edward from going searching for her, Alice's visions every time he decided to go over to Italy in the first year after she went missing always ended up in the annihilation of my entire family.

At least her visions of Bella prove some comfort that she's still alive, we just don't know where she is, we have every contact and friend searching nearly every continent for signs of Volturi activity and Bella's presence but nothing for getting on for 20 years.

Alice has a strong emotional tie to Bella and two weeks after Bella vanished she could not move her neck for getting on for a month, the pain and discomfort was unbearable, she had a phantom pregnancy which upset Esme and Rosalie eight years ago, that was an interesting 9 months I am very surprised Jasper didn't take Emmett's head off with the tone of his comments and three years ago while out on a hunt with Jasper she went into sympathetic labour for 14 hours all linked with Bella.

The last vision she had of any noticeable force was a year and a half ago it sent Edward virtually catatonic, as he saw what was torturing Alice who was reliving what was happening to Bella, from what Alice would say about it she was assaulted by two men and she had to save the children from the same, she could taste lots of blood and was in a lot of pain for a while afterwards, she screamed several names out at the height of the attack one was Edwards. It has been difficult to come to terms with not knowing where Bella was to go to her aid.

My need to check on her physical condition was echoed by many of us. After the last vision Edward's been on a crusade of sorts searching hospital and police databases for case notes similar to those of he saw in Alice's vision but has come up with nothing. He's removed himself from the house now unable to cope with our thoughts and Alice's visions. We've helped him build a cabin in the mountains where he dwells surrounded by everything Bella ever owned, he's rebuild her bedroom as it was on the last day he was with her, it's very hard for any of us to visit as the reminder of how much she meant to all of us is so great there, but this is Edwards way of dealing with his loss.

He has not asked us to end his life, Alice is always looking for signs of him making that choice after the last time, we are grateful of Alice's patchy and painful visions for this one fact, the girl lives and as long as she continues to do so, so will my son.

The year rolled on and Esme and I have moved to the UK as I've secured a year's medical exchange with UK hospitals, I work nights in the summer months, which plays nicely with my counterpart's hands as he'd rather party at night, especially as we were moved around three London hospitals, before being sent to Cardiff, York and Glasgow all of which had great night life for a single male, how he kept up with his studies I will never know but he is not my concern.

The winter came and I'm worked days which was fine as was in work before sun up and its dark when I leave, hunting is interesting, the choice is not vast compared to the national parks back home but we took advantage of long weekends and flew to Europe anywhere but Italy but mainly Germany and Russia.

My colleague and I have just been moved to the West Midlands and I've got a placement at the Children's Hospital in Birmingham for a month before I go to the Heartlands in the New Year. This placement pleases Esme, she still loves children, I just wish I could provide her with one of our own but this cannot be and our adopted family is quite a handful at times but the year off is doing both of us some good. She has acquired a job as a play assistant a few afternoons a week and is loving it, its so nice to see her smile freely.

She came to me concerned about a 2 year old who arrived after having a seizure, she is by all accounts a regular visitor from what she gathers from the nursing staff, I think what makes this child so interesting to her is she looks very much like Bella, her brown eyes, skin tone and features are so strikingly this child is even name is Alice, Esme is missing all our family as its getting close to Christmas we normally share the day together taking advantage of the lack of human activity where we live. Esme has not seen the mother to make any comparisons but her scent is interesting she works in another City but the child always has some member of the family with her it is so obvious she is very much loved. I will keep my eyes and ears open I hear her mother comes in straight from work for the child's evening mean and bed time.

Let me know your views, it would be intersting to see what others think.