Live and Let Die
'I want to fade away. Fade away and go to a place where I can be all alone. Where no one else can find me. A place where I can be safe. Safe to do as I please. No one to worry about. Nothing to hold me down. A place all of my own.'
Those are the thoughts I know he thinks. The look in his eyes explain that to me. All the time. As I sit and watch him with every minute that passes, he stares with despise and hate. A longing for a place where no one can find him.
"Fade
away. Go to a place where you can be all alone. Where no one will
ever find you. A place where you can be safe. A place where worry is
not an option. A place all of your own. I know that thought all too
well little brother. I felt it before as well." "What
do you know? You feel nothing. Nothing at all!" "You're
wrong." The pain is finaly kicking in. Yes. I finaly feel the
multiple kunai wounds left on me. Sasuke watches me closely, holding
shuriken, ready to throw them if I made any wrong movements. I don't
see how I could have. I was pinned to a tree. I had no intentions of
fighting back either.
"Let's
fade away. Fade away and go to a place where we can be all alone,
together. Where no one else can find us. A place where we can be
safe, together. Safe to do as we please. No one to worry about.
Nothing to hold us down. A place all of our own." Our voices
combine to sound as one. We both close our eyes as we speak. I can
feel my life fading. Something wet slides down my face. Damn. I'm
crying. Sasuke see's this and stares at me a moment. He's only inches
away. A single hand reaches out. I feel myself wanting to just fade
now but I know Sasuke's not finished. "Big brother."
His hand rests on my face as he moves closer. Her rests his head on
my chest, hands on the tree behind me. His warm body against mine. I
feel something jerk at my heart. He reaches up, not looking, pulling
the kunai from my sleeves, freeing my arms. I feel my arms act on
their own and wrap around the young teen's weakened body. His body
jerks a bit. He's crying now. "Sasuke..." My voice
is weak, emotions feeling it. Sasuke shakes his head and shushes me.
Not moving. He's taking this comfort because he knows I'm the last of
his family. He's wanting to take in this moment. I was the one he
looked up to. I was the one he worshipped. I was the one he wanted in
his life most. He mourned over their death but his real hate was
formed from me leaving him. He told me at the begginging of this
heated battle. Silence rings through the area. Sasuke's no longer
moving, leaning on me. his breathing is still heavy. Mine is growing
weak. His voice sounds.
"Don't leave me. Don't leave. I don't want to be alone. I don't want you to leave me. Please. You left me for way to long and I don't want you to leave me again." He's weak. But I can't help but smile at his plea's. I pull the boy closer to me. He leans in. i catch my breath before I speak. Sasuke can feel it. I'm having trouble breathing so he pulls back. His face is soaked from tears. I close my eyes and smile weakly. I reach out for him and pul him back. He let's me and leans on me lighly.
"Sasuke...I love you, little brother. I'm sorry. I know...I know I hurt you and I regret it. But I don't regret killing them." He pulls back, anger flared in his eyes.
"I DIDN'T CARE ABOUT THEM! IT WAS YOU! YOU WERE THE ONE I WANTED! THE ONLY ONE I EVER WANTED AROUND! I prayed something would happen to them so they couldn't take you away from me anymore. the stole you from me. Then...Then you left me." He's on his knee's. His fist slams into the ground. I watch him. I want to go and comfort him, then realize I can pull the other kunai out. I do. And drop to my knee's. I crawl over to Sasuke and pull him closer to me. He let's me. I fall back from the pain and the fac, I'm weak... Sasuke rolls off me and lays next to me, burrying his face into my chest.
"Let
me fade away with you." His voice is nothing more than a
whisper. I shake my head and whisper. "No. You're still
young." He looks up at me. "I'm old enough to..."
I cut him off by placing my hand over his mouth lightly. More tears
slip from his face and fall onto mine. I can feel my life fading more
and more. Sasuke can see it in my eyes. We both long for a place to
be together in. Sasuke's pleading eyes draw more tears to mine and he
lays on me gently. And we lay there together. And we cry there
together. And I know Sasuke will come here to die. Because he wants
us to die at the same place, even if it's not together. I feel tender
lips press against mine and I can taste the salt from his tears. I
return the gentle kiss and he pulls back. "I'll finish
this, so the pain will stop." Sasuke says, placing a hand over
my eyes. I trust his judgment, but I'm afraid. I close my eyes and he
removes his hand. I feel him pick mine up with his own. He's
hesitating. i know now that he had quickly changed his mind. Then I
feel it. A kunai stabs into the palm of my hand and I feel blood
drip onto my hand as I feel my blood drip off of my skin. Sasuke
peirced his flawless skin with a kunai. He was mixing our blood
together. He turns our hands and I feel his tongue slide over the
wound gently. He loves the taste because he des it again. It's that
or he's forcing it down. Why would he do such a childish
thing? "Sasuke. End it. Now." "No." "Please." "Not
yet." "Do it." "No."
"Sasuke."
"Not
yet." He licks his own hand, then kisses me one last time. I can
taste his blood. It's so much different than mine. The taste, it's
sweeter. "I love you, big brother." I want to
scream. I know it's coming. I see him draw the kunai up. My voice
works on it's own.
"WAIT!" It echoes. He stops. He throws it away. He drops, crying harder. I rest a hand on him. I hang on. I'm clinging onto life. I'm praying that I live. Sasuke grows silent. He's asleep. He fell asleep. I smile. I'm still holding on.
My eyes snap open and I try to sit up, but there he is, weighing me down. His small hands clinging onto my shit. Sasuke, little brother. I love you.
If I get some good reviews, I might make this a chapter Story.
