I am a GIRL

Disclaimer: I don't own 'em. This is just some silly thing that I thought of when I was thinking about why I now like the color pink lol.

(A/N) Sorry, edited to find a couple mistakes I made...like the main character of Message from Nam lol)

I am a GIRL. I'm not JUST a girl, but that doesn't mean that it isn't a major part of me. As a police detective, I'm seen as a woman doing what has formerly been considered a man's job. Heck, it still is most days by the completely uninformed. But this isn't a women's rights rant, more of the opposite. I spend day after day with my colleagues who are otherwise known as my best friends. The guys and I spend many wonderful hours together outside of work. We go out for drinks, we play pool, and sometimes even just hang out at each other's apartments.

But sometimes, that's the problem. I'm one of the guys, a pal, someone that can be called at midnight just to talk to, even if it's about their latest girlfriend. I seriously don't think that they even see me as the opposite sex. I think if I showed up at the bar in some sexy dress with a slit up the side, a pair of high heels and some earrings, they would all keel over dead in their tracks. It would be too much for their system to process that yes, I am a girl.

While we share so much with one another, especially Elliot and I, but there are a few key aspects of my life that even he has no clue. First and foremost, I love romance novels. I love to come home at night, grab a wine cooler, and sit down to read Danielle Steel's Message From Nam. The main character Paxton is so dynamic, now there's a woman who had it all. While her life has many disasters, otherwise who would read the novel, she falls in love; she has an exciting but dangerous job, and family.Although it's not her own, it is still family. I really empathize with her, except for the love part. I'm a hopeless romantic and I want to find love, real true love. I've heard people whisper behind my back that I'm married to the job, and maybe that's true. However, it doesn't change the fact that I really do want to find that one person to spend the rest of my life with.

Here's another thing no one would guess about Olivia Benson. My favorite color is pink. I know, not something anyone would ever guess about me. It's also a fact I don't generally tend to divulge to parties interested. My clothes are never this color, but my underclothes, that's another story all together. Just knowing it's there gives me that small ounce of femininity that I need to remind myself that above all else, I am a girl. Ballet pink is soft, beautiful, graceful and by far my favorite.

And last but not least, is there really anything better in life than drawing a warm bath complete with a ton of bubbles and my face covered in a soothing mask? I follow this with a hand and foot treatment and finish with a manicure and pedicure including polish. Again, no one can see my toes but I know it's there. After all, I am a girl.

The End