It was too late she had done it, I had told her that it would all be okay.
She's gone her red hair now damp from the bathroom floor, her now lifeless emralde green eyes dull and gray, her once fair ivery skin now a light shade of gray you can now see the dark blue vanes slowly losing all their blood, she looks peaceful.
I had told her that everything would be okay, that it would only get better from now but it was a lie, to her everything was falling apart the strings inside of her had broken. The ones she relied on abandoned her in her time of need, becoming the ones that made this chose for her, telling her that she was worthless, that she dosn't desurve to live, it drove her closer to the edge, slowly cutting the stings one by one.
When I first saw the note that she had taped to my locker I thought it was maybe a thank you note but when I opened it up I saw it:
Jace I have always wanted to know what it was like, what it was like to be popular or important, i never got the chance to do so but im not doing this for attention because I know that is what they will be saying tomorrow, im doing it to get away, away from a life I was never saposed to live, away from the family and friends that hated me. You, what can I tell you that you don't already know, I could tell you that you were the most beautiful person I have ever known or that you were the most arrogent person I have ever known but even know that both are extremly true nether of them is why I fell in love with you. I fell in love with you because of your eyes the glorious golden orbs that hold so many stories that I had once wished to know, your smile not the smerk that you give to everyone but that true smile that you only show to truly special people, the way you made me fall in love with you, slowly then all at once, I am sorry to leave after telling you this even know you will probley just laugh at me, but I am certain that i will be going to a better place where I am happy and I don't have to pretend.
lots of love Clary Fray
It has been a year since Clary died inside I'm still in pain but on the outside I have learnt to hide my feelings to show nothing to nobody. she was my whole world she was my light in the dark, my scarf in the winter. every now and then I pull out the letter from her and go to her grave there I talk to her I tell her about my week every thing that has happend since she left, I tell her I miss her and I love her. I know some where up there she is watching me with a smile on her face