Title: Coda: Jews and Chinese Food
Author: Kathea
Rating: PG-13
Pairing: Rory/Logan
Disclaimer: I swear I don't own them. If I did, Logan would be wearing fewer articles of clothing during the show.
Summary: A continuation of the last episode.
It is closing in on morning. Out my window I can just see dawn beginning to break before the start of the new day. I can feel Logan's warm breath on the back of my neck and the heavy weight of his arm across my waist. It's comfortable here. Safely cocooned from the rest of the world, I can pretend that there are strings. Giant, unbreakable strings that bind him to me and make this a working relationship. Logan's a smart man, I'm sure he realizes that it won't take much before I start to chafe at the lack of strings. I made a promise to myself when I agreed to this. I swore I wouldn't wonder where he was or who he was with. I agreed to each doing our own thing until we decided to do something together. Hence, movie night with Marty but that didn't work out too well either.
I never would have pegged myself as a person who could do the meaningless sex. Not that sex with Logan is meaningless, he gives it all kinds of meaning but I threw myself at him. I never do that. I'm not sure how I knew to do what I was doing. Great, another personality change to ponder. Logan is asleep, curled closely behind me while I am wide awake, craving coffee and wondering what it is about this man that is making me want to change everything to be with him. I didn't have to change for Dean and wouldn't have had to change for Marty. But Logan, Logan requires change, demands change but I wonder if he believes I can change. I wonder if I believe it.
She probably thinks that I am asleep. I felt her body tense when she woke and remembered the evening/morning's events. She is probably laying here wishing she could get a cup of coffee and wondering what she has gotten herself into. I cuddle closer to test her reactions. When our bodies are in complete contact, hers gives this little shiver, quiver that a body does when pressed intimately against another. I press my lips close to the back of her neck. I know she can feel this. I want her to feel it.
Part of me is attracted to her because she is different. She exudes this naïveté and innocence that is distracting but something tells me that she isn't quite so innocent. I'd probably be bothered if she was. She changed for me. She agreed to "no strings", God only knows why. It certainly wouldn't be like her to jump in blindly to an "open" relationship. I run my hand from her hip up her arm. She knows I'm awake now. She exhales a heavy sigh and I know what she's thinking. A gentle tug of my arm has her turning over and facing me. She doesn't meet my eyes. I pull her closer, settling her head on my shoulder, wrapping both of my arms tightly around her. I don't know that I can completely change for her, so much of who I am is deeply ingrained but for now this will have to do.
I have to sigh again as I am settled against Logan's chest. I know he probably can't change but for now this will have to do.
AN: See homepage for thanks and I'll updated tomorrow with another Coda for tonight's episode.