A love letter to you...

So dear,

Here we are now and you're crying. I'm seeing the world in a different way and you're seeing it through tears, so many tears. Can't you see I'm smiling? Stop crying, you know I can't stand it. No, no, I didn't mean that... I'm glad you're crying for me, it's just that I don't like it... Stop it now already. C'mon, smile. Smile like me. You're going to make me cry. Quit it.

Hold on you say? I'm holding you already, don't worry.

Go? Go where? You cry too much. I save your stupid life and you're crying. Yes yes, they're doing their best to get help. It only hurts a little though. It's fading.

Die? Don't die you say. Die? I'm dying? You really think so? I am a bit tired, but I won't sleep, not while you're here crying. I can't leave you crying. I know you think I can be harsh, but I couldn't leave you with that look on your face.

I did it. You're alive and alright. That makes me more tired. It's easier to feel tired when you know you've done a good job, so let me sleep and stop crying already.

I'm so tired. Let me sleep, stupid. Why won't you shut up and smile?

Thank you? You're welcome. I mean, it wasn't a big deal. You know I'd save you without a second thought.

Stop telling me I'm going to die. I don't feel a thing. You're scaring me. I'm too tired to die.

If I were dying, well I'm not ready yet. I'll die after you do. I won't until you do. There's too much to do before I die. Like sleep.

Like tell you how pretty you are, even now with tears running down your face, you're the most gorgeous thing in this world. In any world. See, I can't die. Not without telling you that I love you.

You already know that though don't you? I tried my best to ignore it, or hide it, but you could tell right?

You love me, you say? See, you knew. You know how I feel already. That makes me invincible then, so of course I'm not dying stupid. Not when you love me.

I just want to sleep is all. I think.

Die? Again with this "Don't die." If I am dying it's for you. I saved you and I wouldn't want to go any other way.

Of course I'm not ready, but hey I love you. It's a good way to go don't you think? Maybe that's why I'm so tired.

I'm dying with you in my arms. It's better than the other way around. Better me than you. I stopped it from being that way. This death, it's the best thing. I traded places with you, you know?

You do know. That's why you're crying? Idiot, you wanted to die?

I know, I know. We love each other. It can't be helped. I rather you stop it though.

Hey, you know I think I'm going to rest now... It's becoming really hard to stay awake.

Before I go, just... incase, incase I won't see you when I wake up, you know I love you right? It feels good to know you do. It's hard to sleep with you here, but it's a good feeling, you being with me. I'll hold on a little tighter.

Oh, you see. You do know. You understand. Smart girl.

Now maybe I can sleep. I know you got it. You're still here. I'm with you now.

I saved her...

I saved you. I'm happy then. I'm relieved that you're safe. They'll take care of you.

Just keep holding my hand and soon I'll fall asleep. I wish I didn't have to close my eyes, but at least I can feel you...

You're getting quieter... I know you're calling me, but dear, don't you know how tired I am?

"I love you so much," you say...

I love you so much, too...

A "love letter" before death. I don't really understand why I wrote it. It started out as a poem. I might turn it back into one, but here it is...