Finding the Way Home
Chapter 1: "No goodbye"
Summary: The14th awakes from the inside of Allen. Still half conscious, Allen flees from the black order to protect the one person he loves – Lenalee. Aware of this fact the black order, including Kanda, is sent after Allen in order to kill him if necessary. But can love still exist in a confused Noah's heart? Or will the emotions turn him to the worse if the 14th takes over completely? – The rating may change later
A/N: Hello out there ^^ I have been very active in writing fan fiction for the Ulquihime pairing. But! Since I thought it was about time I 'donated' to other series as well, I have thrown myself towards Allen/Kanda x Lenalee. This fic is dedicated to my closest friend who really wanted to read a -man fic from me ^^
All others enjoy as well ^^
"Do you want… power… Allen Walker?"
Allen slowly opened his eyes when the way too familiar voice was ringing in his head – keeping him from the otherwise comfortable state of sleep.
"I said; do you want power… Allen Walker?"
His eyelids fluttered when he blinked a couple of times – making sure that he was indeed awake and was not simply sleeping.
The voice had become a lot stronger. At first it was just a simple whisper, like a small breeze of fleeting words, but now the voice had grown stronger, clearer, and more real, to the extent that the voice alone could wake him up from an otherwise deep dream.
It frightened him – not so much because he knew whom the voice belonged to, but because he knew that before long he would not have a choice to refuse the words anymore. The small temptations, the promising words and the soft voice that always lingered in his head would soon be too much… There was no way helping it and no way stopping it.
The predictions would become true… the 14th would take over completely… It was just a matter of time.
Barely pushing the luring voice back in the darkest corners of his mind Allen left his bed – kneeling down on the cold stone floor when trying to gather the little bag he knew was placed under his bed.
There was no way around it anymore.
When he had gathered the most important things he could think of, he left his room with small silent steps.
At first his eyes had to get used to the dark, but none the less he managed to get down the hallway by following the cold stone walls with his hands – the delicate voice still whispering poisonous words when his thoughts drifted too far away.
The last thing he wanted was to hurt the person he loved…
There was no redemption if he chose to do nothing.
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How could someone look so beautiful when sleeping?
Even though he did not like to stalk upon a vulnerable girl sleeping like her, he had chosen to throw such emotions away. After all he needed to see her. Just see her for a last time.
'Vulnerable'? Was that even the right word to describe her?
Allen smiled a bit when Lenalee shifted lightly in her bed – lying with her front against him and the soft curves of her hair cascading at her bare shoulders.
Even though he knew she wasn't weak like he made her seem like, he always felt like she could use his protection. Maybe he was just selfish. After all she was more than well capable of protecting herself from most of the dangers directed at her.
When he thought about it, the only danger that was genuinely threatening her was born out of his presence. Not from the normal Akuma's but because of the enemies that were directly targeting him and the ones he was involved with.
The persons he cared for and… loved…
We can protect her together?
Allen's right hand quickly flew to his head when the voice returned – stronger than he had experienced it for a long time.
They won't have a chance to hurt her if we stand together
"Stop speaking…"
He murmured lowly in an attempt not to wake Lenalee from her state of sleep.
He had long ago given up on discussing with the 14th and his words – after all he knew they were simply illusions as long as he chose to see them as illusions and the crucial moment was when he began to believe in the words. Reach out for the empty promises.
When that happened Allen knew it would be too late to turn back.
A small huff escaped his lips as he suppressed the voice once again – quickly letting his gaze linger at Lenalee once again – taking in everything.
Her eyelids as they fluttered slightly, the steady heaving of her body as she breathed, the small pleased noises that was probably brought from a dream, taking her in with his eyes for one last time.
He would never have the opportunity to touch her again, love her genuinely, or do more than observe her with the care he already did. But he accepted this fact by reminding himself that it was for her own good.
If he touched her too much she would simply break, if he loved her too much she would be smothered and get in danger, and if he cared for her too much it would simply hurt both of them more than it already did.
She was worth so much more than a life in misery, worth so much more than a life in danger…
With these words engraved in his mind he slowly began to leave Lenalee's room – the soft sound of his shoes hitting the floor resounding in the room.
He simply couldn't utter the word 'goodbye' to her.
Because he knew that would be a lie. They would see each other again sooner of later… he could feel it.
Maybe not immediately, but sooner or later he knew the 14th would bring him to her.
Reunite them once again when the time was right.
Descending into the dark depths of the night he left the black order – hoping to never meet Lenalee again.
Because he knew that if they ever met again, the innocence they both treasured would be gone.
--------Lenalee POW----------
"Allen-kun?"
She slowly lifted her body from the soft linen of her bed – feeling the heaviness most people experienced when they suddenly woke up from an otherwise deep state of sleep.
Sleepily rubbing her eyes, she looked around her room only to discover that she was alone.
"Allen… Kun?"
She murmured again in wonder of why the words had left her mouth in the first place. She had felt Allen's presence rather strongly and somehow expected to see his face upon opening her eyes… but fate wouldn't allow her that pleasure, so instead her dark blue eyes was met by the endless darkness of her room only barely lit by the moonlight from the nearby window.
Was she beginning to hear things?
She slowly lowered her body again, covering herself with the bed sheets when the cold atmosphere hit her bare skin… before very long drifting to sleep unaware of what had just happened, unaware of the absence from a certain white haired boy, and unaware of what events that soon would follow her.
Innocence and unawareness is sometimes better than knowing too much.
A/N: I'm updating whenever I get the time so please look out for it ^^ Reviews are appreciated as always