Disclaimer: All belongs to J K Rowling
Not a song fic, though it is inspired by various t.a.t.u songs, mainly 'All the things she said'
For DeMoKa, you mentioned in one of your reviews you like Bellatrix/Hermione, so this is for you.
All The Things She Said
Hermione tossed and turned fully clothed in her bed, unable to get comfortable, unable to rest. So many thoughts flying around her head, even when she closed her eyes she couldn't block them out. The thoughts made sense, they were crazy, and Hermione couldn't work them out. The thoughts of all the things she said.
"Run away with me,"
She wanted to say yes, she should say no. They were in the middle of a war, they couldn't run away.
"We can find a place together, where it's just you and me,"
It was impossible, there was no place where they could be together, yet Hermione wanted to look. She wanted to try.
"Please Hermione, there's not much time!"
Hermione needed more time to think, she felt so rushed, so confused. Even if she said yes, she'd have to leave everything behind; she couldn't make a decision like that hastily.
Everything was running through Hermione's head, she couldn't think straight, she defiantly couldn't sleep.
"I love you Hermione!"
Hermione felt the same, but she couldn't say anything. To say she felt the same would be treason, to say she didn't would be a lie.
"Please say something Hermione, anything! Curse me, hex me, I don't care just don't ignore me!"
There was no way Hermione would hex the person before her, yet she couldn't speak either, she didn't know what to say. Know it all Granger was speechless.
"I know you have no reason to trust me, to believe me, but I swear to you I'm telling the truth!"
Hermione already knew that, she could tell everything she was being told was honest, yet how could she say that? To say she trusted Bellatrix would lead to her admitting her feelings.
Hermione felt like screaming, her mind was a whirl of confessions heard and unspoken responses. Unchangeable, unforgettable, unforgivable. It had been so simple before Bellatrix had come, her path had been so clear. Go, help Harry win the war, settle down with Ron and pop out little Weasley children. Now a hidden part that had struggled to be free had full control of Hermione's mind.
"I want to leave, to start again away from the war and the blood prejudice. I want to start again with you. Say you'll come with me Hermione, please!"
Hermione couldn't let the words form, she really wanted to but she had obligations. She had responsibilities.
"They won't find us, I promise! Come away with me,"
"I can't"
Those two words torn Hermione's heart, she had said them but they were a lie. She knew it and so did Bellatrix.
"Please don't say that Hermione, you can come, you know you can!"
"I'm sorry Bellatrix; I can't just leave everything behind. I don't know how you can."
"I don't have to; you are my everything Hermione,"
Hermione turned away, unable to face Bellatrix, unable to look into her eyes and know that she was telling the truth.
"We're on opposite sides of the war; you can't even be my friend."
"I'm not your foe either Hermione, just give me a chance."
"It's too late, I can't just abandon my friends and run away with you."
"You can, I see it in your eyes, in your lovely chocolate brown eyes…"
"Stop Bella, just leave now and maybe I won't tell anyone about this."
Hermione could almost hear Bella's heart breaking, it was the same as her own.
Hermione shoved her hands against her ears and closed her eyes, trying not to remember, trying to forget. Trying to regain control, to remember her path.
"You don't mean that Hermione, you can't!"
"You don't know me! You've spend years trying to kill me!"
"NO! Never you Hermione, I never wanted to kill you!"
Hermione remained facing away from Bellatrix, it would have been too painful to face her.
"I can't do this Bella…"
"Don't lie to me."
"I'm not!"
"Then prove it, tell me I mean nothing to you, that you don't love me!"
Hermione said nothing, not able to lie about her feelings while she was feeling so strong.
"Stop, I don't want to think of her!" Hermione screamed into the silence of the night, sitting bolt upright in bed, "I don't want to think!"
"I know you love me Hermione, the same way I know I love you," said Bella softly, taking one of Hermione's arms and gently spinning her around so they were face to face. Then Bella kissed her, caressing Hermione's lips with her own, so gentle and love felt that Hermione went weak at the knees. She pulled away and stumbled backward, afraid of what would happen if she didn't get away.
"Don't Bella, just leave me alone. I don't want this."
"But you know its right, how could anything that feels so good ever be wrong?"
"No more!" yelled Hermione, getting out of bed and staggering over to the chest of drawers, picking up her wand, "I'm getting married in the morning!"
"Bella, I can't," pleaded Hermione as Bellatrix walked forward and took hold of Hermione's arms.
"Hermione, please…" began Bella, but she was cut off as the door to Hermione's room burst open. Harry and Ron stormed in firing stunning spells, most of which hit Bella, who collapsed to the ground.
"Mione, are you okay? Did she hurt you?" asked Ron, concerned for Hermione, wrapping an arm around her shoulders
"She didn't hurt me," answered Hermione simply, stepping away from Ron's arm, backing away from him and Harry
"I can't," sobbed Hermione as she stumbled towards her bedroom door, "I love her! I love her, so I can't!"
"We got her Hermione, you're safe now," reassured Harry, mistaking Hermione's retreat for fear.
"I'm safe with her!" cried Hermione, pulling open the door and lurching into the corridor of the Burrow.
"Yeah, we're here now" agreed Ron.
"I want her here," whispered Hermione hoarsely moving downstairs.
"We can put her in the basement until after the wedding, it's only two days away," remarked Harry, and Ron smiled at Hermione.
"I can't marry him, I can't do it! I love her!" stated Hermione quietly, sneaking towards the basement.
"Are you okay Hermione?" questioned Ron when he didn't get a smile back.
"I'm fine, just tired," replied Hermione.
"Tired of pretending!" declared Hermione, tossing a wordless unlocking spell at the basement door and running through it.
"I love you Hermione," murmured Ron softly.
"I love you Bellatrix!" confessed Hermione, racing down the basement stairs to Bella, taking her in her arms and embracing her softly.
"I'm sorry Bella, I love you" Hermione repeated as Bella regained consciousness.
"I love you too Hermione," replied Bella with a small smile
Pulling Bella out of the basement, Hermione smiled for the first time in nearly two days. Hermione retrieved Bella's wand and returned it, grinning widely.
"What changed your mind?" asked Bellatrix curiously as Hermione took hold of her hand.
"All the things you said," answered Hermione honestly as they Apparated away from the Burrow and to their new life together.