I don't know how to explain everything that has happened to us. I feel sad just thinking about the day you broke my heart. I no longer hold my head up high because I'm ashamed. I trusted you, I made a promise that I would be by your side no matter what. And in a split second everything changes when I open a door and I find you kissing somebody else.

We went through a lot in the past years. I watched you leave many times but you would always come back to me. So I believed that we were made for each other, you had my back and I had yours. But your stubbornness put you inside of a plane you were not supposed to be on and everything changed.

I was waiting for you to come back and surprise you. Sofia was already sleeping and we had the whole night to ourselves. Then Owen calls me and tells me the plane never arrived to Boise. You were lost and I didn't know how to find you. But I tried anyway because I loved you and I would die for you without a second thought.

We found you. You were in bad shape, almost dying. Mark was also dying. I didn't know what to do. I had to be there for both of you. And then he died and I couldn't cry over his death because you needed me and I wanted to be there for you. I gave Alex my permission to cut off your leg. You used that to blame me for everything that went wrong with you from that moment on. You blamed Alex, you told him he should've been in that plane instead of you. But he wasn't there because of you, because you wanted to prove a point and punish him.

I didn't have anyone to talk to. Nobody could understand what I was going through. I wasn't in that plane but that tragedy took its toll on me. Lexie died, Mark died and you were dead inside. I didn't know how to bring you back to life. But I stayed because I was your wife and I loved you.

I cried every night in Mark's bed. I couldn't believe he was gone. I needed to talk to him so I prayed. I asked God to help me get through that whole mess. You started talking to me again and that made hopeful. You wanted to see Sofia again and pick her up. You started walking again and I still remember the day I came home and you told you had fallen. "I got back up". I was so proud of you.

We were getting better and better. You trusted me again to touch you and hold you. I thought everything was going to be okay. And we were for a short time. Until the day I opened up that door and I saw you with Lauren. It took you five months to sleep with me again, your wife. But you didn't waste any time with her, did you?

I didn't deserve that. George cheated on me, Erica left me, my father tried to disown me and then you cheat on me too. I can't see your face anymore. I just realized that the biggest love we can have is for ourselves. I don't want you to show up at my door and apologize for this with one of your big speeches. That doesn't work anymore. You're not a good man in a storm and I deserve better. Sofia deserves more.

The real Arizona died in those woods. You're different but not because of your leg. I just wanted you to talk to me. But you chose Lauren and there's nothing I can do to change that.

First of all I would like to apologize in advance for any mistakes. English is not my native language (I'm from Portugal). If you would like to be my beta just send me a pm. It would help a lot.

After yestarday's episode I wanted to write something. This is my first story about Callie and Arizona. I want to write about what I think will happen in the show for now on. I hope you like this story.