The walls between you and I
Always pushing us apart
Nothing left but scars fight after fight
The space between our calm and rage
Started growing shorter,
Disappearing slowly day after day
I was sitting there waiting in my room for you
You were waiting for me too
And it makes me wonder
Edward. My life. My sun. My everything. When he left, I died. I tried to live, for Charlie. I went to school, came home, did my homework, made and at dinner, and went to bed. I would cry myself to sleep. Dreams of those happy memories haunting me, wherever I went. Everything reminded me of them. Esme's love, Carlisle's kindness, Alice's contagious excitement, and Edward...I couldn't let go of him no matter what. I won't forget him, but I can't think of him. The hole in my chest would just tear apart, slowly at first, to torment me.
The older I get
Will I get over it?
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I didn't know then it would hurt like this but I think
The older I get
Maybe I'll get over it
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I can't believe it still hurts like this
It does still hurt me, it hurts me deeply. As soon as I think I can forget, I am forced to remember; his crooked smile, his beautiful hair in a messy disarray, his angular face, and those topaz eyes that would be able to get me to do anything. I thought that if I didn't think about him, I would be able to get through it, but I didn't want to forget. Love...such a short but meaningful word; it can't be described, or forgotten, no matter how hard you tried. I knew that now, but I still hoped that one day I would get over it.
The time between those cutting words
Built up our defenses
Never made no sense it just made me hurt
Do you believe that time heals all wounds?
It started getting better
But it's easy not to fight when I'm not with you
My defenses never did make sense. I wouldn't be able to think of him, my subconscious took over; when I did think about him, it hurt. My heart was taken from me. I would never be the same Bella again, I would be boring and lifeless. It started to get better though, but the thoughts just kept coming, and they were unavoidable.
What was I waiting for
I should've taken less and given you more
I should've weathered the storm
I need to say so bad
What were you waiting for
This could have been the best we've ever had
I'm just getting older
I'm not getting over you I'm trying to
I wish it didn't hurt like this
It's been way too long for the times we missed
I can't believe it still hurts like this
I can't believe how much Love can overpower you. Once Love has entered your life, nothing you do can get you out. Love is there forever. There's no way to get over it. No matter how long you wait, or get older, or heal, deep down, you'll still be waiting, your soul for them will still be young, and your scars can reopen. I know now, that with Edward will be by my side, all of the problems of Love have gone, and has been replaced. Don't fight Love, because in the end, you're just fighting yourself, its not going to help anyone...