Sorry about my break from FanFic, I was busy trying to graduate. But now that's that's done I can return from whence I left off although I will be waiting a little bit longer before returning to the uber graphic violent fics I was writing before I need time to get back into the swing of writing because I do dislike writing poorly. This is a story I started because I couldn't sleep although I hope that that doesn't show. I promise to write more frequently now (Because I finally got my own laptop teehee) and to those of you who're reading Unrestrained I'll have Chapter 3 of that done and emailed to you ASAIFI (that is As Soon As I Finish It).

To the person who sent me a request. I'm so sorry I haven't done it yet (like I said I was trying to graduate). If I remember correctly it was a pairing from Duarara so I'll try to watch the anime sometime soon so I can fulfill that request.

This first chapter is angsty but the story may or may not stay that way depending mostly on feedback and slightly on my own mood. Which at the moment is dissappointed in myself for drinking coffee so late and asuming it wouldn't affect me. Bad bad me. No you're awake when you have to get p in a couple of hours.

Anyways sorry for rambling:

Read review and enjoy:

Naruto sighed as he fell back against the sheets, his cerulean eyes falling shut. There was sweat on his brow and dirt on his clothes but he was far too tired to care. He curled up on his bed pulling his pillow close to his chest so that he could hug it as though it were a plush toy or rather-a lover. He fought not to let his tears escape. He had to hold it in, he wouldn't cry. Not again. He had vowed he would shed no more tears over the loss of the raven. Had vowed to no longer cry himself to sleep over something that would never be.

Sighing again Naruto rose up, discontent. He stood before the mirror and plastered a smile to his face until it felt more sincere and you couldn't tell from the outside just how bitter a smile it was. He would not go to sleep tonight, just as he hadn't for most nights, he would go out, take photos and crash sometime after dawn. He didn't dare go to sleep because the nightmares would plague him as they always did.

The blonde had just returned from the dojo Jiraiya ran, it was where he spent most of his evenings now. During the day, well when remembered to wake up, the blonde was a freelance photographer, but in the evenings he helped teach small children how to block and hit.I

The city lights in his window soothed Naruto because their brightness made the boy feel less alone. Naruto had realized many things and one of those had been that he hated to be alone. He made sure to be surrounded by people as often as he could, strangers, children friends, it didn't matter to him, not really.

When Naruto wasn't at the dojo and wasn't working, he cleaned up and went out with friends where he partied hard until the sun breached the rim of the world and he would wake up in strange rooms with strange people beside him knowing that he had over done it yet again and not caring one bit. Was he depressed? Maybe.

But photos and people and sex made him less depressed.

The photos were everywhere in his home. The walls of his one room apartment were plastered with them. Nightscapes of the city, day shots of this pond or that gas station, pages torn from the magazines where his works were published. Hundreds of photos lined every available wall held there by tape, tacks, whatever the blonde had had on hand after printing or cutting his beloved photos out. A camera was the blonde's constant companion. He took pictures all over town and when he went out. Dojo-click. Club Nefarious-Click. The gas station where he bought coffee-click.

Living in a city this crowded meant people weren't hard to come by. He thought of the small town where he'd been in his group home and didn't miss it one bit. The quiet nights where only the stars and the sound of the other sleeping children had been around had driven him insane, even before the raven haired boy had entered into his life with his sullen silences.

A city this crowded also meant fuck buddies and one night stands weren't hard to come by. Naruto had never been in a steady relationship in his life and looking at the couples around him was more than content with that...

Naruto picked up his camera and slid it into his pocket. He couldn't sleep, so as usual he'd go out and see what the city had to offer him. He'd end up at another club. Dance with another stranger. Wake up in another strange house with probably a different stranger than he remembered dancing with. Go to the dojo. Come home. Realize he can't sleep. Grab his camera and then go out and repeat the vicious cycle that was probably destroying his kidneys even as it sated his libido.

It wasn't a different club every night, but with so many to choose from it probably could've been. This night it was however, and Naruto didn't bother trying to call his friends, it was a Wednesday and most of them had work. Heck, so did Naruto but he was a freelance photographer so things were a little different for him. Going out into the streets to take photos was his job, and if he happened to get plastered and fucked along the way so be it. He was also craving a bit of anonymity. He didn't care that the person he woke up with in the morning wouldn't know his name as long as the sex was good and they used condoms.

Neona's was decorated just as the club suggested, all bright colors under black-light glowing and pulsing to techno music with enough bass to shake Naruto's teeth. The blonde's attire of black jeans and a black rocker tee meant that in the lighting only his hair and his pearly white teeth glowed, his teeth looking almost menacing with the sharper than normal edges of his canines. Naruto took photos first, his high-tech camera automatically sending each shot home to his computer to await review and adjustment. He caught attention but paid it no mind until he felt his photo taking was complete. Then he got plastered and danced until he was dizzy, sitting down only to prevent vomiting. He placed his head in his hands until the wave passed and then sitting up smiled and flirted with the person next to him, his charms unmarred by his intoxication until all the dark thoughts in his head were gone, and Naruto was thinking only about the pretty redhead before him, a girl this time.

Naruto didn't care about gender, sex was just sex and the person he had it with made no difference to him because it wasn't like they meant anything to him anyways. He would get sex from this girl tonight, just as he had gotten it from the girl last night and the man the night before. He didn't buy them drinks, and made it clear that he was looking only for sex but still they fawned over him and slept with him a blur of faces and beds.

This night would've been the same as all the others had the girl not had to go to the bathroom, her absence leaving an opening for Naruto to stare around and people watch.

When he laid his eyes on the brunette for the first time in years, his heart must've stopped. This was a huge city, far from the town where'd they lived in the group home together. How could he be here of all places?

Naruto cursed loudly enough to earn an alarmed look from the seat to his right. He stood up to leave before the raven noticed him. Ducking his head and remaining surprisingly steady on his feet despite all the alcohol in his system. "I need a taxi, ASAP," he told the bartender, "Give the pretty redhead my apologies, but I can't stay here." The bartender nodded but didn't question, he'd seen stranger and he'd certainly seen more cruel so he'd leave this one alone.

Naruto didn't look the brunette's way as he forced his way through the crowd towards the exit. He kept his head ducked down until he reached the sidewalk outside, the line of people waiting to get in, indicating that the night was just beginning.

Falling back against the brick wall of the club Naruto breathed a sigh, shutting his eyes against the bass that shook the wall, and to the passion that thrummed his heartstrings. "Fuck," he whispered.

"What a foul mouth you have, Naruto," a smooth voice spoke, his voice carrying despite the soft tone.

Naruto slid to the ground wrapping his arms around his legs and pressing his face in between his knees, "Double fuck," he groaned.

Hope you enjoyed the next chapter will probably have lemony goodness. ;)

DarkAngelLeo