A/N: So This idea would not leave me alone. The paring is a mystery, i just put it as Kogan since taht is my fave couple. it is also a Kames fic too. You won't know the actual paring until the end. It is a surprise. Also I may have a few mistakes, but I read this several times, if you find a mistake let me know and I will do my best to fix it.
Chapter 1: Out in the Open
Kendall sighed as he sat down on the couch. He had to tell the guys he was gay, He had told his mom and Katie and they agreed the guys deserved to know the truth. He was scared they'd hate him. He knew it was only fair though. Katie and his mom had gone on an over night trip to San Diego for something. They would be back tomorrow afternoon and they wanted Kendall to tell the guys.
"Hey Kendall," Logan said as he walked into the room followed by James and Carlos. The three seemed happy and excited about having the apartment to themselves for the night. It was a rarity and they were not going to mess it up like the almost did the last time. They really did not want to get another strike against them. They actually liked living in the Palm Woods.
"Hey guys," Kendall said looking up from the coffee table in front of him. "It's movie night," he said picking up a couple DVD's from the table. Every Friday night they would have a movie night. They almost always watched the same movies, but they did slide a few new ones in there. They didn't really care what they watched just as long as they got to hang out like old times. It was a tradition that they kept from their old life back in Minnesota. It was one of the many things they did that kept them grounded.
"Sweet," Carlos cheered. He ran to the couch and jumped over it and landed next to Kendall. He looked at the movies Kendall had picked out.
"I'll start the snacks," Logan said as James joined Carlos and Kendall on the couch. James looked over the movies as well. He and Carlos decided to try and pick the movie. They almost always picked the first movie to watch.
"I'll help," Kendall offered as he stood up. He walked over to the kitchen and helped Logan get the snacks ready.
"Ken could get the chips in a bowl," Logan asked pointing to the bag of chips on the counter.
"Sure," Kendall said as Logan started the popcorn. He watched Logan as he walked about the kitchen looking for something. Logan walked over to a cupboard and pulled a bag of candy out and set it on the counter next to Kendall.
"What kind of soda do you guys want?" Logan asked as he opened the refrigerator.
"Root beer," the two on the couch said as they fought over which DVD to watch first.
Kendall grabbed the candy and tossed it at the two making them stop fighting. "Knock it off, you guys always decide it's mine and Logan's turn to decide," he said.
"Fine," James and Carlos said.
"Nice," Logan said laughing.
"It got them to shut up," Kendall said shrugging. Logan grabbed the root beer and set them on the counter as microwave beeped. Kendall almost forgot what he had to do. He needed to tell his friends the truth and hope they would accept him.
"Kendall," Logan said waving his hand in front of his best friend's face.
"Huh?" Kendall said shaking his head and looking at Logan confused.
"You ok dude?" Logan asked.
"I'm fine," Kendall lied. The truth was he was terrified about what he was about to tell the guys. He had no idea how they were going to react to his news.
"Grab the chips and sodas and come on then," Logan said as he grabbed the popcorn bowl and grabbed two of the sodas. Kendall nodded and grabbed the other two and walked over to the couch. He sat down between James and Logan and handed Carlos the other soda he was holding.
"Ok Kendall what do you want to start with?" Logan asked.
"I was thinking wither Zombie Attack 2, or Fright Night," Kendall said picking up two DVD from the coffee table. He held them up for Logan to inspect. He shook one a little more than the other trying to get across which on he really wanted.
"We've seen both of those already," James said, "I say Creep Show," he said holding up a DVD for the guys to see.
"No, I wanna watch Night of the Living Ghost," Carlos said holding up yet another DVD.
"It mine and Kendall's turn to pick," Logan said, "I think we should start with Fright Night," he added pointing to the one in Kendall's hand.
"Good choice," Kendall said smiling at Logan. "Sure you won't get scared though Logie?" he asked. The first few times they had watched it Logan had been terrified and had nightmares about vampires
"I've seen it enough times by this point to not get scared," Logan said staring pointedly at Kendall. Kendall smirked and stood up. He put the DVD in.
"Just don't come crying to me when you have a nightmare," Kendall said as he sat down next to Logan again. He looked at Logan who was speechless. "No witty come back Logie?" he said smirking.
"No it's your job to be the witty one," Logan replied sticking his tongue out at Kendall.
"Ooh nice comeback," Kendall teased as he pushed Logan down on to the couch. Logan sat up and pushed Kendall into James.
"Hey," James said jumping up and checking his hair in his mirror.
"Oh chillax James," Kendall said as he sat up.
The four relaxed and watched the movie. Kendall knew he was just prolonging the inevitable. His mom and Katie would be back tomorrow and if he didn't tell the guys they would. He was scared though.
"Kendall are you ok?" Logan asked halfway through the movie.
"Yeah," Kendall lied.
"You sure you're ok?" Logan asked, "you kind of been staring off into space," he said looking at Kendall curiously.
"Yeah I'm sure," Kendall said.
"Kendall if there's something you need to tell us you can tell us anything you know that," James said.
"Katie told you guys didn't she?" Kendall asked.
"Yeah," Carlos said, "we caught her and your mom on the way out and she told us there was something you needed to tell us," he said.
"Oh," Kendall said. He looked down at the floor not sure what to say. He wanted to tell them, but he was afraid that they would hate him.
"Kendall what ever it is you can tell us," Logan said placing a hand on Kendall's shoulder.
"Yeah, Kendall your our friend," James said.
"I don't know how to say this," Kendall said, "I mean I only just came to terms with it," he said more to himself than to the guys. He took a deep breath and looked up at Logan and then to James and Carlos. "I don't want you guys to hate me," he said looking down at the floor again.
"We could never hate you Ken," Logan said squeezing Kendall's shoulder.
"I don't know how to say this," Kendall said, "but I-I uh," he said.
"Kendall we will support you no matter what," James said.
"Yeah but first you have to tell us what it is," Logan said moving so he could look at Kendall. Kendall nodded and looked up at his friends. Even if they supported him this was still hard.
"Dude are you trying to tell us your gay?" Carlos asked suddenly.
"Not exactly," Kendall said, "I mean I still like girls," he said. Looking down at the floor.
"So you like guys who cares," Logan said relieved it was only that. He was worried Kendall was sick or something.
"Yeah it's no big deal," Carlos said.
"As long as you don't fall in love with me we're fine," James said as he looked at himself in his mirror. Kendall and the other two laughed.
"Don't worry James you're not my type," Kendall said as he continued to laugh.
"How can I not be your type?" James asked, "I'm pretty, I'm everyone's type," he said annoyed. He did not see the humor in this situation. He pouted and crossed his arms over his chest.
"Yes James you are pretty," Kendall agreed, "But after knowing you all these years I would not want to date you," he said.
"What is that supposed to mean," James asked his hands on his hips.
"Well for one thing you tend to lead girls on," Kendall said.
"You care more about yourself than the person you're dating," Carlos said.
"And you break hearts," Logan said. The three all nodded as James looked at them shocked.
"Ok, so I may not have had a serious relationship before, but I am a great boyfriend," James said defending himself. He could not believe what the three had just told him. They had never seen him on a date before. He was a lot different than what they said.
"Can we just watch the movie?" Kendall asked pointing to the TV.
"Yeah," the other three said together. They all turned to the TV and continued watching Fright Night. After Fright Night, and Zombie attack 2, they watched Carlos' movie Night of the Living Ghost. By this point the boys were getting tired. James was the first to go to bed followed by Carlos.
"Kendall," Logan said, "it took a lot of guts to tell us that," Logan said placing a hand on Kendall's shoulder again. He didn't know what else to say. He had been crushing on Kendall for some time now, but he wasn't sure if he felt the same way. He did not want to ruin his relationship with Kendall. He wanted the blonde in his life and he was content just being friends with him.
"Wanna watch another movie," Kendall asked grabbing another DVD case. Logan nodded as Kendall put another movie in. They both settled down to watch the movie. Kendall looked over at Logan. He was being really supportive of him. He had not expected Logan to be so accepting of him.
Kendall closed his eyes a smile on his face. He really had not expected his friends to be so cool about this. He was just happy that they were ok with it.
"So you gonna tell Kelly and Gustavo?" Logan asked.
Kendall's smile disappeared and he opened his eyes to look at the brunette. "Do I have to?" Kendall asked.
"No, but you should," Logan said, "we work with them and their bound to find out sooner or later, I mean Carlos is bad with secrets," he said. Kendall thought about what Logan said. It made sense. Kelly and Gustavo would find out somehow. He might as well tell them himself. He knew it would be worse if they found out from Carlos or someone else. Gustavo had never told them, but he knew he considered them family by this point. They had only been working together for almost a two months now, but he could tell they were growing on Gustavo. Kelly he knew for sure liked them. She was more open that Gustavo from the start though.
"I guess you're right," Kendall said. He laid back on the couch and closed his eyes. He was completely relaxed right now. Nothing could ruin this moment.
The next thing Kendall knew he was being shaken awake by James. He sat up and looked around. He spotted Carlos waking Logan in the same manner James had used on him. Kendall looked to the window and noticed it was light out.
"Did you guys fall asleep watching movies?" James asked.
"I guess so," Kendall said through a yawn.
"I didn't even realize I was tired," Logan said as he stood up.
"Your mom called and she and Katie won't be home until noon," James said.
"What time is it now?" Kendall asked.
"Nine," Carlos said, "I was about to go down to the pool and chill for awhile," he said.
"Cool mind if I join you?" Kendall asked as he stood up.
"Not at all come on," Carlos said. Kendall ran to his room ad changed and he and Carlos left the apartment and headed down to the pool.
"Why didn't you two go to bed?" James asked.
"We decided to watch another movie and we fell asleep," Logan said shrugging as he made his way into the kitchen. "I am not scared of Kendall doing something to me in my sleep if that's what you're asking," Logan said as he grabbed a bowl and a box of cereal.
"I never said that," James said putting his hands up in surrender.
"Ok," Logan said eyeing James suspiciously. He had no idea what James was planning. He knew James well enough to know by now he was up to something. "So Kendall came out to us are you going to come out as well," Logan asked as he moved to the refrigerator for the milk.
"What?" James asked.
"I see the way you look at guys in the lobby," Logan said, "I am not dumb James," he said. He poured milk into his cereal and put it away before grabbing a spoon.
"Ok fine, but in my defense I was scared to tell you guys like Kendall was last night," James said putting his hands up in surrender. "What I don't get is how Kendall thinks I would be a bad boyfriend," he said.
"Look at your dating history James," Logan said, "and on top of that you are self centered," he said as he started eating his cereal. "I mean at least he didn't deny your pretty," he said pointing his spoon at James who sat down at the counter across from Logan.
"I guess," James sighed. "So your ok with Kendall though?" he asked.
"I told you I was ok with you so what makes Kendall any different," Logan said rolling his eyes.
"Cause last night I kind of noticed a small smile on your lips when Kendall told us," James said.
"I was just glad that was all he had to say," Logan said quickly his voice slightly higher than normal, "I mean he was chalking it up to be something really big, like a sickness or something," he said.
"Sure it wasn't because you were happy?" James asked.
"Why do you care?" Logan asked as he looked down at his cereal.
"I don't," James said. Logan looked up at James trying to figure out what he was up to. His questions were kind of random and made no sense unless…
"You're not going to ask Kendall out just to prove a point are you?" Logan asked an eyebrow arched at the pretty boy.
"Maybe, why?" James asked looking at Logan confused. Logan instead of answering took off out of the apartment. James followed after him. They raced down to the pool fighting one another to get ahead the other.
Kendall and Carlos were relaxing down by the pool just hanging out. Kendall was glad his little revelation hadn't changed anything between them.
"Kendall I think Logan has a crush on you," Carlos said nonchalantly.
"Logan?" Kendall asked looking at his Latino friend confused. Carlos had said some pretty crazy things but that was over the top. Logan did not have a crush on him.
"Yeah," Carlos said, "I mean last night he seemed almost happy when you told us you were bi. James ruined it by talking about himself though that just seemed to upset him," he said.
"I have no idea what you're talking about," Kendall said laying back in his chair and closing his eyes.
"Kendall," Carlos said hitting his shoulder and pointing to the lobby entrance to the pool. Logan and James were pushing one another and making their way toward him and Carlos.
"Hey guys," Carlos said as they approached.
"Hey guys what's up?" Kendall asked as he pushed his sunglasses up on his head to get a good look at his friends as they stumbled to a stop in front of him.
"Kendall would you go out on a date with me?" They both asked together.
Kendall's jaw dropped as he looked at his two friends. Several gasps were heard around the pool. Kendall didn't know what to think. He had only told them last night that he was bi. He had his suspicions of James being bi too, but Logan? He did not know what to do.
"Are you serious?" Kendall asked. It was the only thing that came to his mind. He had no idea if they were being serious or not. This could all be some sick joke of theirs.
"Yes," they said together.
"I wanna prove that I can be a great boyfriend," James said explaining himself.
"And you?" Kendall asked looking up at Logan.
"I just wanted to ask you out," Logan said his cheeks flushed a deep red. "I mean I - uh," he stammered.
"I am gonna go," Kendall said standing up, "don't follow me I need to think about this," he said.
Logan and James watched Kendall walk away. Logan fell down into Kendall's chair next to Carlos and hid his head in his hands. James just stood there.
"Smooth guys," Camille said as she walked up to the three.
"Yeah," Carlos agreed chuckling slightly.
"Shut up," James and Logan said together.
"What was that about?" Camille asked as she sat down next to Logan. She looked at him as he peeked up at her through his fingers.
"I genuinely wanted to ask Kendall out and James just wanted to prove a point," Logan said pointing an accusing finger at the pretty boy.
"He insulted my dating skills and I want to prove him wrong and in the process I could get to know him better," James said as he sat down at the foot of Carlos' chair.
"There were better ways of going about it though guys," Camille said as she placed a hand on Logan's shoulder.
"Yeah I think you guys freaked him out," Carlos said. He looked at his two friends. He had not expected them to come down here like that. He expected Logan to maybe make a move, but not James. "I knew you were bi James but do you really wanna date Kendall?" he asked.
"I told you he insulted me last night," James said angrily.
"Logan I never though you'd do that," Camille said, "no offence, but you are not a very out going person like that," she said rubbing the small brunette's back.
"I know, but I tried to get here before James," he said glaring at the pretty boy. He wanted to strangle James right now. He really only want to prove a point where as he actually cared about Kendall.
Kendall looked up at the ceiling of his and Logan's bed room. He had not expected James and Logan to both ask him out and at the same time. He kind of figured James would, because of what he said last night. Logan, now that was out of the blue. His explanation caught the blonde off guard as well.
He had never thought about either boy like that before. Sure he looked at them sometimes. They were both hot he could not deny that. He had never thought about dating one or the other. They were his friends, his best friends he had known for a long time. He had known them both his whole life. He did not want to date them and end up falling for them only to break up and ruin their friendship. He valued their friendship too much for that.
There were several reason to date them though. Logan was smart, funny and cute. He had the whole nerd thing going for him. He may not have James' swaggered but he was hot in his own way. Logan was also caring. He knew that when Camille and he were dating he was always so sweet to her. Logan was also his best friend and he could laugh with him and they wouldn't have to do the whole get to know each other thing. That applied for James too.
James was hot. There was no denying that. He may have jumped the gun calling him a crappy boyfriend. From what he heard about James' first dates he always went over the top to impress the person. Maybe there was more to James than he thought. He had never really seen the romantic side of his friend.
He had left them both down at the pool without an explanation. He did not know what to do. He jumped when he heard a knock on the door. He didn't know if it was Logan or James. He did not want to talk to either right now.
"Kendall it's me," Carlos said. Kendall stood up and walked over to the door and opened it.
"Are they here?" he asked. He did not want to deal with James or Logan at the moment.
"No Camille is watching the door so they can't sneak in," Carlos said, "She saw everything and only wants to help you while you sort things out," he said.
"Yeah Kendall I, while it was funny, saw what they did, I think you had every right to walk away from them like that," Camille said from the living room.
"Thanks Camille," Kendall said.
"Come on we want to talk," Carlos said motioning for Kendall to follow him out to the living room. Kendall followed the Latino boy out to the living room to join Camille.
"You ok?" Camille asked, "Carlos told me about last night," she added.
"If it wasn't obvious by Logan and James both asking me out," Kendall said. He sat down on the couch next to Camille and Carlos sat down on his other side. "If I had known telling them would make them go nuts I never would have told them," he said leaning back on the couch. He did not know what to do about his two best friends.
"They were both serious you know," Camille said.
"I know and that's what scares me," Kendall said.
"Did you know James was bi?" Carlos asked trying to lighten the mood.
"I had my suspicions," Kendall said.
"I'm so sorry buddy," Carlos said, "I really wish I knew how to help you in this situation," he said placing a hand on Kendall's shoulder.
"I should've known Logan was going to do something, he was so nice to me last night and so supportive," Kendall said as he sat up.
"How long did you guys stay awake after James and I went to bed?" Carlos asked.
"Long enough to start another movie but not long enough to see the end," Kendall said sheepishly.
The apartment door opened and Kendall jumped up expecting it to be either Logan or James. He relaxed once he saw it was only Katie and his mom. They were back from their little trip. He couldn't wait to tell them the great news.
"Hey sweetie," Mrs. Knight said smiling once she saw Kendall.
"Hey big bro," Katie said.
"Hey," Carlos and Camille said waving at the two.
"Hey Carlos, Camille," Mrs. Knight said looking around for the other two members of Big Time Rush. "Where are Logan and James?" she asked when she could not find them.
"I don't know I'm not their keeper," Kendall snapped not wanting to think about them right now.
"What did I say?" Mrs. Knight asked confused as she set her bag down.
"Kendall told us last night about him liking guys," Carlos said.
"And Logan and James both asked him out at the same time," Camille said, "it was funny actually seeing them fight to get there first," she said looking at Katie who was smiling, "but very inappropriate," she added once she saw the glare Kendall was giving her.
"Both of them?" Mrs. Knight asked shocked.
"Yep down at the pool a few hours ago," Carlos said, "everyone around could hear," he added.
"That's why I'm here," Camille said, "I'm checking on Kendall. He left there in a hurry pretty freaked," she said to Mrs. Knight.
"See this is what I get for listening to you mom," Kendall said, "Now because you thought I should tell them two of them want to date me," Kendall said.
"Kendall sweet heart," Mrs. Knight said going into her mother mode, "I had no idea this would happen," she said as she walked over to Kendall.
"What are you gonna do?" Katie asked curiously.
"I don't know," Kendall said honestly. He really had no idea what to do about Logan and James. He couldn't give them an answer when he wasn't sure what he wanted himself. He definitely could not avoid them since they lived together and he shared a room with one of them. He shook his head and headed back to his room. He needed to sleep this off and come up with a plan.
"They're gonna want to know what you said when they get up here," Carlos called after him.
"Tell them I need to sort some things out and I do not want to talk about it," Kendall said waving his hand at the Latino boy.
"Ok, but I can't grantee they'll leave you alone," Carlos said.
"I am going to sleep this off and forget about it for now," Kendall said, "talk to me later," he said.
"I hope he figures this out," Camille said.
"Camille didn't you mom leave to go on a cruise?" Katie asked suddenly.
"Yeah for a month," Camille said, "I'm staying in our apartment alone so I could keep auditioning," she said.
"It must get pretty lonely up there all alone," Katie said.
"Yeah, but I got enough froze food to last me a month," Camille said shrugging.
"Frozen?" Mrs. Knight asked.
"Yea, I can cook, but my mom is over zealous about that kind of stuff," Camille said.
"You are eating here tonight we are having my famous spaghetti and meatballs," Mrs. Knight said.
"You don't have to do that," Camille said blushing slightly at how nice Mrs. Knight was being.
"Oh but I want to," Mrs. Knight said, "it'll make me feel better about you staying alone," she said.
"Oh alright," Camille said smiling. She knew how mothers got and she did not want to upset Mrs. Knight because she wanted to be here when Kendall confronted Logan and James.
Kendall woke up to the smell of spaghetti and meatballs. He knew what that meant. He got out of his bed and walked out to the living room and saw Camille and Katie sitting on the couch talking. Carlos was on the floor playing a videogame and Mrs. Knight was in the kitchen and Logan and James were no where to be seen.
"They haven't come back yet," Carlos said.
"I kind of figured," Kendall said.
"Supper will be ready in a few minutes," Mrs. Knight announced, "Carlos call Logan and James again I'm getting worried," she said.
"Camille, can you I'm kind of busy," Carlos said as he continued to play his game.
"Sure," Camille said. She pulled her cell phone out as Kendall sat down next to her taking his phone out as well.
"Watch this," Kendall said. He texted Logan and James. It's almost dinner time it's spaghetti and meatballs my mom is getting worried about you guys. He hit send and looked at Camille for a few seconds before the door burst open. Kendall grinned from ear to ear.
"Where's the food?" James asked as he and Logan looked to Mrs. Knight.
"It's almost done," Mrs. Knight said, "Thank you Carlos," she called.
"It was Kendall," Carlos said never taking his eyes off his game.
"Thank you Kendall," Mrs. Knight said.
Dinner that night was tense for three members of Big Time Rush. Camille, Mrs. Knight and Katie managed to make light conversation but it was tense. Carlos kept quiet as he watched Logan and James glare at one another when they were looking at Kendall trying to get an answer out of him.
Halfway through dinner Kendall had had enough with Logan and James. He stood up and looked at his mom, "I am full and I am going back to bed," he said clearly annoyed. He cleared his plate of food off and went back to his and Logan's bedroom. He wasn't tired but he could not stand James and Logan right now.
"This is all your fault," Logan said pointing a finger at James.
"Mine?" James asked shocked.
"Yes," Logan said as he too stood up, "Sorry Mrs. Knight," he said as he too cleaned his plate and started for his room only to remember Kendall was in there. "I can't even go to my own room," he said as he walked over to the couch and sitting down with a out on his face.