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Summery: Xander's not just a little unwell but full blown crazy.

Spoilers: Takes place after the seventh season series finale.

Buffy peered into the window in the door. She looked down at a man around 26 his black hair was shaggy. He was wearing pajama's, he had his legs up to his chest with his head pointing down so Buffy couldn't see his face..

Willow gestured the guard towards the door. Once the door opened they stepped forward. Buffy got to her knees so she could see his eyes hoping this was not who she though he was. She saw his eyes his hazel eyes usually so bright ready to tell a joke so dull and lifeless. If it weren't for the rising and falling of his chest Buffy would think he was dead.

"Xander?" Buffy trembled. She hadn't heard what had happened to him til now. He was alive if you could call it that. Buffy took Xander in her arms and her heart sank when she couldn't feel him hugging back. Instead she just focused on the beating of his heart. She broke off the hug after a few minutes and stood back up. She turned back to Willow. Willow was looking at him looking exactly how she felt.

"I hate seeing him like this." she whispered tears in her eyes. Buffy didn't like seeing her friend so sad and grabbed her into a hug. To her vast relief Willow hugged her back. When they let go Buffy asked what she had wanted to since she saw him but was unable to do til now.

"What happened to him?"

"You didn't hear?"

"No."

"He's the only survivor of the battle of Goriden.."

"Wait he was in the battle?" the battle of Goriden was a horrible battle. Hundreds of slayers and watcher fighting hordes of demons. Many of which had been her close friends. Until now Buffy thought that everyone on their side had died. The monsters that had survived were eliminated when back up came hours later. But the battle had happened in Cleveland and Xander was supposed to be in Africa.

"Yes he was in the battle. He's the only one who knows what happened but as you can see he's not saying anything. The only thing we know is how the back up team found everything. It took them 3 hours to find Xander and they found him barely alive. They found him covered in blood some of it his a lot of it not. As the only survivor. They were hoping he would be able to tell us how some of our friends died. When he finally woke he didn't respond. We barely got him out before the police came. If they had found him they would have put him in a criminally insane hospital. He's a hero he doesn't deserve to be there. " Willow said emotionless all the time looking at Xander.

"Have you tried to get him out you know with magic?" Willow looked at Buffy again.

"I can't find him." starting to tear up again.

"What?" Buffy asked not understanding.

"I've looked for him in his head but I can't find him. His whole mind is messed up." Willow said now crying.

"Buffy why him? Why did he have to be there? Why couldn't he have been in Africa like he supposed to be. Why couldn't he be safe and whole?" Buffy didn't know what to say she wished that Xander would have stayed in Africa. How he even knew to go Cleveland was a mystery.

She went to Xander again and kneeled down and tilted his head up trying to look for any signs of life in his eyes. Just like before there were completely blank.

"Xander?"then her voice broke "Xander?" she closed her eyes and silent tears fell down her checks. She curled her body into Xander's unmoving frame and hoped beyond hope that he would move. Twitch a muscle anything but his body was completely immobile. She uncurled her body and just starred at him.

"It would be much less unnerving if his weren't open and staring at nothing." Buffy said softly as she stroked his hair. She wished more then anything that Xander would snap out of it and they would live happily ever after. But nothing happened so she got to her feet. She starred at him and the way he just sat there .

"I would have never thought that Xander would go insane." Buffy blurted. Willow looked mad for a second then just went back to emotionless.

"Everyone has a breaking point the battle was bad enough to be anyone breaking point. " Buffy averted her gaze ashamed. They both looked at their friend heart broken that he wasn't looking back them and wondered what happened that had gotten him like this.