A/n: Ok, I don't usually do one-shots, but when it comes down to a great challenge, I'm game. This challenge was made by Pretty Vacant 79, and I am proud to say that I accept. The challenge is to pick my favorite Green Day song and use it as a theme to a quick story. The song I chose is 21 Guns. I hope you like it.

Ponyboy POV

I died that day.

I died the day Johnny and Dally died, but yet my body still seems to walk the face of the earth.

I'm in ruins.

You see, in reality, I was still living, but inside, I died the day Johnny and Dally did.

I guess you could say my heart died...

I'm not sure what keeps me hanging on to life. In my eyes, I see nothing worth hanging on to at all.

Darry and Soda aren't it. No...it's far beyond that.

I don't know what's worth fighting for anymore. To me, everything is just as blank as a freshly cleaned blade, sharp and harsh no matter which way you looked at it.

I had been sitting in the vacant lot for awhile now, letting all these thoughts run through my mind. I barely came here anymore, being as though it was always me and Johnny's hangout, and the place where we buried him and Dally...

My mind suddenly shifted to another set of thoughts; what if I joined them? What if I died too?

I sat up straight as I looked around for an old rope. I stood up and walked arounf until I found what I was looking for. I tied the knots like how I had seen when I caught Johnny trying to do this. But this time, no one would come and stop me. I was going to die right here, hanging above Johnny and Dally.

I tied the rope to the tree, and let it hang. I slipped the noose around my neck, ready to jump off. Right before I let myself fall, I heard Sodapop and Darry screaming my name.

"Ponyboy! Don't do it! It's not worth it!" Sodapop came right up to me, carefully stepping around the graves.

"What else is there to live for? I'm giving up! I'm at the end of the road here, Soda. Theres nothing here for me!" I began to lose what sense of control I had over my body, and I felt my foot going outward again, and my other one slipping.

"It's not worth dying for! Do you think Johnnycake and Dally would have wanted you to kill yourself to be with them? No! The would have wanted you to live a full life, one that they never would have gotten. They would have wanted you to keep living for them! Soda pleaded. I looked at him, and I saw his heart breaking inside. I stepped back from the open air, and got the noose off from arounf my neck.

"The thoughts that were going through my head just broke me. I guess I let them get the best of me..." I whispered as I climbed down, and Darry and Soda attacked me with huge bear hugs.

"Give up the fight inside, Pone. They're gone now, but they want you to live on, for them. It's time to live and let die, ok?" Darry soothed, but I only nodded my head to get him off my case.

Truth is, something inside this heart has died. That little something is the brotherly love I felt for Johnny and Dally. That day, I had to let it go. My mind would get the best of me again if I didn't and would break the spirit of my soul.

Only one thing though...

I'm still in ruins...