Dib's POV

I hated you.

Then I loved you.

Then once again I hated you.

Then you gave me something that will make me love you forever.

The way I look at you with your big red ruby eyes that made me see the sweetness that no one has ever seen in you. I thought myself why have I never seen it before in the past. In the past I thought you were a threat to destroy our planet. My world, take that back the world. Think about it I never really liked the world because no one liked me. In fact everyone hated me including you. I know no one seemed to love me. But that was in the past. I thought myself looking through our life that we have now. Wondering how it all happen, how it all started. How my life that I thought was going down to hell turned into wonderful heaven.

Sitting at a lunch table right now, and right next to my sister playing away her game. And as usual I'm staring at that green alien who has been ruining my life for the past six years….so I thought. I don't know what came over me. Maybe it's because I have been obsessed with the alien for so long. It may mean seemed like I had these weird feelings for the alien. I've been having weird dreams about him. Not only that but even wet dreams. I'm not gay I know that for sure, not that I have a problem with homosexuals. Is just I can't get him out of my mind. I just keep staring wondering what his next plan is going to be. That's all. I don't know what my mind is telling me. Or my body. It's just weird. We haven't changed much. I still have my trench coat, my blank face T-shirt black pants and boots. The site am I hair grew out a little, like it's a lightning bolt. I was also thinking about having a piercing, but I was too chicken to do it. As for the green kid which his name is Zim. Changed a little as well he grew up about 5,3 he wears black skinny pants, his old boots, a long sleeve red and black shirt. A kind of remind me of Freddy Kruger's sweater but it was a shirt. He still wears his violet contacts, as for his hairstyle still the same color but it's more shaggy like. 'I thought myself he looked really cute that way. Okay why did I even say that, stop thinking about going to realize that your body talking.' I just noticed he's also glaring at me as well. I think he's done playing with his food. I see him slowly and furiously getting up, without even taking his eyes off me. My eyes are even still locked on his. There are two thoughts going through my brain right now. One, why can't I look away and two, I think he's going to kick my ass!?

I started to shake a little, wondering what the extraterrestrial is going to do to me. He's right up to my table and yet my sister didn't even bother of looking. As she's concentrating on to her game. The older green man is now face-to-face to me. And yet I have a strange thought I probably didn't even blink when he came over and I think neither did he. I gulped a little when he slowly opened his mouth to start his ranting. But what he was going to say wasn't his usual rants, it was something far more than I have even thought of perspective.

"Listen here, Dib-human. I am done, and done playing these games and your stupid obsession of staring. Zim is done. You have won and the game is over. So I authorize you to leave Zim alone." He got off the table. Started marching out of the cafeteria.
My mind was swimming, all these thoughts in my mind. 'Why, why did he. No what did he? just said? This can't be true?... Can it?' he just said "I won?"

I instantly stood up like a soldier saluting his general, and instantly darted the direction of the extraterrestrial was headed. I finally caught up to him, my hand reaching over to the shoulder and finally grabbed him firmly. I spun him around and with a spectacle look. I finally said to him "what do you mean, I WON?"

His expression of anger never left his face, his hands were trembling balls of fist. The way he shaking it almost looked like he was going to knock me out into a coma. His lips parted, but his teeth stood down. Clenching his greeted teeth he spoke in a very stressful manner " Zim has given up, with all his evil plans. You have WON Dib-human. Now I authorize you to leave Zim alone." And just like that he just stomp away. I don't think he was going anywhere particular, he just…. Just marched away.

But I can't believe it. I can't believe he just said that to me. After six long years, finally surrender. Wait a minute…. Just like that. He surrender just like that. Something's going on. On the other hand I should feel enjoy, excitement, and finally happiness. That he finally wasn't going to take over and get rid of mankind. But I still think something's up. There's only one person I know, who knows him more than me. Well I think. I have to find her.

It only took me a few minutes to find Tak. Usually around lunchtime she was as always smoking in the halls. How I know? Well let's just say I joined her a few times. It's almost been a week since I quit smoking. If I find her in the hall smoking, I probably wouldn't help myself. Just that smell of intoxicating cigarette aroma just makes me beg for one. I know smoking is bad, but for me I just can't help. I finally found her, and sure enough there she is smoking way that cigarette. I can smell it from the edge of the hall there, oh my God is my favorite brand too. I walked towards her slowly and carefully. Not trying to lease panic or even think about having one of those death sticks. Oh God, even saying a word "death stick" makes me want one so bad. I just can't help. I slowly breathe heavily, filling my lungs with that secondhand. I looked at my hand and waved to her. "Am, hay Tak." She nodded and went back to her relaxation from her cigarette. I try not to at least ask for one, I have to focus. I have to figure out what was Zim up to. I chuckled a little, trying to lease may sound like a funny story to her. "You would not believe it, but Zim just said that he's giving up. Is that weird?" she looked at me then look back at her cigarette swirling it. Watching the smoke floating in the air. She smiled a little. Then chuckled to herself.

"So, the little green bastard finally excepted the truth. Did he now?" she said in a calming relaxing tone. It almost sound humorless.

I shrugged my shoulders. "Well, he was in a very angry mood when he told me. And then told me strictly to leave him alone. Then randomly left just like that… What do you think that means?" I really wanted an answer, and yet in my thought is I can really go for a cigarette right about now.

"Well, does that ever stopped you?" she said questioningly but also logically. Between there having another drag from her cigarette. Sucking the air through that lite stick. Making it turned to ash.

My heart began to thump really fast. Oh God I do need one right now. But she's right that never stopped me. As a paranormal investigator and also obsessed with that one alien that I cannot get out of my mind. I must find out what he's up to. "That's why I came to you. I mean, what's his problem? And what you mean, he's finally excepted the truth?" I said sternly to her. Not trying to look weak in front of her. But as she looked at me. She knew I wanted one.

Tak played in her pocket for a couple of seconds to fish out a pack of cigarettes that were not even open and handed it to me. "Here you go, I kind of figured you could not resist."

I took my shaky hands, and took the pack, I smiled at her just a little. It felt like I was relieved that she knew what I was thinking. I took the unopened pack started to pound the top onto my arm. Trying to get the access off, for even opening it. "I just don't know why I can't quit cold turkey. I don't even know why I even started the habit in the first place." I said with honesty and amusingly.

"Yeah, for a irken is a little more different feeling. Some may like it some may not. It's like the same thing that way with humans sometimes. Besides….." she slowly turned her head and face me. Looking at me with her being content. "…. Every irken knows about Zim. And for what he has done to our planet. Besides you should find out yourself by asking him." She finished.

I give her a weird look, as I opened the pack of cigarettes that she gave me. "Didn't you hear what I said? He told me, to leave him alone." I said while glaring at her. Pulled out a cigarette out of the pack and put it the pack into my coat pocket. I went through my pants pocket to get out by MCR lighter, I flick it with the click. While the lite the cigarette I gave myself a small drag to get it going. A small puff of smoke peers through my lips as the tip of the cigarette formed a little bit of ash.

"And I told you. Has that ever stopped you before. For fuck sake Dib, you're a paranormal investigator. You always spied on him. In that never let you down." Tak bellow, then she gave her a small side. "What I'm trying to say is that he is going to need you. For what I've heard, he's going to be like that for a while if he doesn't get any comfort."
I looked at her confusedly. And wonder, if I keep stalking him when he acts that way would it still be the same or would it be different? I just don't know and… wait a minute. "What do you mean comfort? When did I ever comfort him?" I asked questionably to her. Staring at her with so much confusion in my face.

She stood up and walked a couple of inches closer to me. And spoke softly. "He's going to need you. Trust me on this, for once. You know why? Because I know you really feel about him. I've seen you constantly stare at him. You know, the way you do. If you meant those feelings to him." She shrugged her shoulders. "Who knows you would've been the perfect couple. Now you are going to follow your man and tell him what is his deal."

This is chapter 1 of fatherhood of men. Dib 17 years old and a senior in high school. In this chapter Dib is confused about his sexuality towards Zim. He's unaware that he has a crush on him. Between that he also has quite a smoking habit. Now I know smoking is wrong. But we know he can't seem to help it.

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