This is the very first chapter of my very first story. Hope you enjoy! :)

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Prologue

I think a lot about my life, about all the good things, and the bad things. To most eyes, my life may have seemed perfect; I had just about everything I could possibly want. But for those few who knew the real me, they understood how much effort I sometimes had to put forth to maintain my mask.

The strangest thing is how nearly perfect my life actually was. How everything seemed to have fallen into place; all the pieces of my heart, kept by those I love, fitting together with the beautiful harmony of an expertly composed piano piece. My adopted family, the Cullens, lived their lives happily. My adopted sister and best friend, Bella Swan, had found her place within the arms of Edward Cullen and his family, so many years ago. They married and had a beautiful child, Renesmee, who is grown and married to Jacob Black, the shape shifter. Emmett and Rosalie, Alice and Jasper, Carlisle and Esme, Jacob and Nessie, were all utterly delighted with things just the way they were. I, on the other hand, was not.

I remember all those years of loneliness while I watched Bella and Edward together. They were like nothing I had seen before; like two magnets that had come together and could never be pried apart. I remember longing for that in my life. Yearning for someone who could know everything, all my darkest secrets, and accept me without a second thought. Someone who I could love unconditionally; who could love me unconditionally. No such person could exist for me. No one could love me without knowing what I was, and no one—no human—could know the truth.

By my third time through high school, I had given up on love. I couldn't even manage to experience the petty, hormone-induced crushes that my classmates did. Anything would have been a relief from my never ending loneliness. Bella always insisted that there was someone for me out there, someone who would accept who I was, but as desperately as I wanted to believe her, I had given up on that dream long ago.

Of course, my life seemed perfect, to outsiders. No one other than Bella and the Cullens knew of what I was and what I could do. During my second time through high school, in Forks, Washington, I met Bella, and when she and the Cullens left several years later, I joined them.

I knew what the Cullens were, what Bella became alongside them. That is one of the many powers Seekers possess: the ability to recognize different species by sight and by scent. I knew Bella belonged with them as surely as I knew it was right for me to join them when they moved on.

Carlisle was fascinated by me; he had only ever heard rumors of my kind before. We blend in with humans much easier than vampires, easier even, than werewolves. We have the same scent, and the same appearance, as long as we aren't Seeking. He was perfectly content to accept me into his family, so long as I helped him with his research.

So I was nearly happy. I had accepted that I would probably never find the right person. That my life would have to stay the way it was. I decided that the love of my family would have to be enough. That Carlisle, Esme, Bella, Edward, Rosalie, Emmett, Alice, Jasper, Jacob, and Nessie would have to suffice. That I could try to be happier for Bella and Edward, and shove my jealousy to the side. I lived as if nothing was wrong, and I buried my small hopes deep enough that I wouldn't have to ponder them ever again.

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Thanks for trying my story. I'll try to post new chapters as often as I can. If you value my sanity, please, please, please review!