Something wrong with the baby.
Moves inside. Doesn't feel right. Slithers like snake. Squirms.
Don't know what to do.
Was a beautiful day when I won his father. Wasn't a good witch. Glad when Pa and Morfin went to jail. Scared of them. Bad to me always. Bad to me. Bad things. Always the snakes. Always the same. Glad baby is Toms.
Love Tom, I do. Beautiful day. Hot day, he was out riding. Made a pretty dress best I could. Not much money. Made a pretty dress and put flowers in my hair. Washed. Careful. So careful. Stood by the well. Had the bucket already. So hard, making the potion. He stopped. Hot. Thirsty. Offered him water. Didn't want to drink it, him. Tom is smart. Too smart. Said it smelled. But smelled good. Smiled. Loved his smile.
Drank.
Loved me then. So much love. Had to run away. Left note. Note for Pa. Never seen him since. Never Morfin neither. Ran away. Married. Tom had money, him. Took us away. Pretty house where people talk strange. Didn't understand. Looked at me funny, always. Whispered. Don't need to know the words. Know I'm ugly. Too ugly for my Tom.
Love him so much. Happy to be married. Always happy to see me, him. But stupid in the eyes. Stupid from potion. Always his drink with dinner.
Made me sad. Wanted him to love me. Real love me. Then baby started. Thought my Tom has honor. Won't leave his wife with baby coming. No good man would. Tom is a good man, I thought. Didn't give him potion no more. Thought he'd stay.
Angry, him. So angry. Mad as Pa when I break things. Screamed. Swore. Cursed me.
Cursed me too good. Thought Muggles can't do no magic. Cursed the baby too. Know the baby is cursed. Something wrong with him. Snake inside me. Sick, me. Ever since he curse me. No more magic. Don't want magic now. Can't use when I want it.
Can't be a witch anymore. Hated me for giving him the potion. Cried, me. Cried and begged him to stay. Spat on me. Left.
No money. Can't stay in the pretty house. Can't go home. Pa finds out that I marry a Muggle, have mudblood baby, he'd kill me.
Sold my necklace. Not much money for it. Pa would kill me for selling it. Need to eat though. Have to live for baby. Back to London, me. Far from Tom. Have to find home. So big now, belly like a cauldron. Baby coming very soon.
Hurts.
Hope is a boy. Will name him for his father. And my Pa.
Love Pa, even if he is bad. Love Tom, even if he is bad too. Love baby, even if it is bad.
Love Tom. Only one ever love me.
House near here. House for orphans. House for bastards. House for poor mothers. Going there. Baby coming soon.
Hurts.
So afraid.