I don't own twilight or the characters, that would be Stephanie Meyers

chap 1

BPOV

I have been told my whole life that 'everything happens for a reason'. Do you ever wonder whether or not people say that just to feel better about the fucked up decisions they have made in their lives? I have asked myself that question everyday of my life.

So, today is the five year annaversery of the day that my mother asked me to chose between her and my father. Charlie hasnt always been around, not that he had much of a choice, but he is trying his best. He has spent most of my life in prison. He is what they like to call in the drug buisness a 'cook' and he was great at what he did. I guess he did have a choice, on whether or not to do illegal things or not. But to me he was just a man that i really didnt know but was willing to give him a shot, I meen he couldnt do any worse than Renee. Right?

Renee, was an avid meth user, and alcoholic. She used to get high infront of me like it was normal. What is normal anyways? Well, getting the shit beat out of me with anything she could get her hands on, going days in a row having to make all my meals make sure I bathe and get to school on time, all while I was in elementary school was normal for me.

So, you can see where i am coming from when i told her that i was staying with Charlie. She cried, and all i could think about was 'shut the fuck up bitch, you brought this on your self!' I didn't say that to her, because she was my mother and no matter how much i hated her she was the only one i had, so i told her i loved her and good bye.

Beep, beep, beep! car wnt start come get me E~

on my way b redy B~

I can't believe I only have 3 weeks left of high school! I am so ready to get out of thistown and see the world! We got prom this weekend and then our last week of school, then graduation.

"Hurry up Em! I don't want to park in the underclassmen parking lot because you wanted to drag your ass!" I yelled from the car window. "I'm commin Bells! Damn can't I get a break? My fuckin car broke down and now I have no way to get Lauren to prom, and she is gonna kill me." Emmet whined as he got in my pick up.

"Don't worry Em you figure something out, maybe you could get a ride with james. He was telling me that he got him and Tori a limo. I'm not sure if anyone else is already going with them but it wouldn't hurt to ask." I told him. "You know that Lauren hates that chic. She would much rather walk than go anywhere with her." he said solemly. "Aww, Em. Look everything will work out, besides we only have 3 more weeks left of school then we get to leave this place. We will be moving to the east coast!" I exclaimed. "Yeah, I guess you're right.I still can't believe that we got a house on Jersey shore for the summer before we head up to Boston for Berklee in the fall. How in the hell did you manage that?" he asked. "Charlie's got connections, the only bad part is that we gotta work." I stated. Em nodded his head in agreement as we walked our seprate ways to class.

The rest of the week went by in a flash. Tonight is prom and I am going solo. Don't get me wrong I had plenty of guys ask me but, I wanted my last senior party to be fun and not have to deal with some poor sap following me around all night, hoping to get laid. I am not that kind of girl. I mean if someone came along that I was actually interested in I probubly would be that type of girl. Unfortunatly there is no one here in this podunk town that has caused me to give them a second look.

I lit up a doobe and smoked about half of it on my way to the after party. No one ever really went to the actual prom just the afterparties. This year we were having it at the only hotel in town and it was going to be awsome!

"Yo Bella! The kegs in room 17! Enjoy!" Eric yelled at me as soon as I walked into the hotel. He can be so dense sometimes, I mean yeah everyone knew we were having this party and that we were all underage but, do you really have to go yellin it in public? "Thanks Eric! You know I'm not much of a drinker." I told him. "Yeah, yeah, I know you're a smoker." he said. "So you know what I'll be doin later if you wanna come find me." I said. "Yeah, I'll catch up with you later. I gotta go check on this chic, I think I got this one in the bag" he teased. "Good luck man!"I yelled as I walked away. He'll need it. He has not one once of good looking in him. Poor guy. He is about 5'6" 120 punds soaking wet, with greasy black hair and thick glasses.

I walked aroud the bottom floor of the hotel where we were having the party at, checking out what was going on in the different rooms. We had one with the keg and all the other liqure that people brought. One room had different video game systems in it. The rec room had a pool table and a dance floor, where people were gettin down. I couldn't help but laugh to my self when I noticed that my partner in crime and best friend Emmet was trying to do the worm on the dance floor. He cracks me up all the time, sometimes I think I just hang out with him to laugh. He is the only one in my life that makes me smile and could make me laugh at the drop of a hat. I have to find amusement with everyone else.

As I walked over to the pool table to see what Mike and Garret had goin on, I noticed Eric and some underclassman in the hot tub together. How about that, he just might have this one in the bag, I thought. I guess she sees something in him that I don't.

Anyways, Mike played football, really badly I might add. He is about 5'11" close to 180 pounds, he has blond hair, crystal blue eyes. He wouldn't be bad looking if it weren't for the fact that he is an ass and he chews. I love smokin weed but have you ever kissed someone that chews? It's like licking the bottom of an ash tray. Yuck!

Garret, well Garret and I used to date for a couple of months last year. He is 6'2" 220 pounds and rock solid, yummy! He has black hair and honey colored eyes. We had fun but, once I let him get to third base and it was horrible, it was so dry like he didn't know he was supposed to get his fingers wet before he started to pet my kitty. His hands were so ruff it felt like sand paper on my clit. We called it quits but we are still good friends and he is a great kisser, so that comes in handy when I'm high and wanna make out.

"Hey guys, who's winning?" I asked. "Hey Bella, you know that he doesn't have nothin on me." said Mike. "Hey now! You know I'm giving you a run for your money, Mike!" Garret interjected. "Alright boys lets make this interesting. I put 20 bucks on Garret for the win." I stated. "What!" yelled Mike. "You really think that this jerkoff can beat me?" asked Mike. "Wait a minute there buddy who are you calling a jerkoff? You ain't nothin but a redneck inbread that brought your cousin to prom tonight!" exclaimed Garret. I laughed out loud, I knew this would happen. It does everytime, it's great to sit and watch them fight back and fourth like that. If I said anything else I bet I could get them to forget that they were even playing a game to begin with.

"Hey Bells. What are they fighting about now?" Emmet came up behind me asking. "Who is better at pool." I laughed. "Why do you do it? You know they always end up arguing, no matter what the topic is?" asked Emmet while laughing. I chuckled "I'm sorry Em you know I couldn't help my self. They are just hillarious and, you know it!" "Yeah I know but what are you gonna do when we aren't here anymore, and you have no one to get fired up?" chuckled Emmet. "Oh, I know! I can just find replacements!" I teased. "Whatever you say Bells, hey we are heading out to the beach you wanna tag a long?" he asked. "No man, I'm gonna hang around here a bit longer, see how this pans out. Maybe they'll just whip their dicks out and see who's is bigger." I said. "In that case I'm glad I'm leaving." he chuckled as him, Lauren and a group of people started to head out the door. No doubt going to get laid.

After a half hour of them fighting, I started to get bored and come down from my high. So I started my search for an empty room, I don't care about smoking infront of everyone, it's just that there are too many voltures around. The people that I have chosen to be in what I like to call my 'tribe' smakahoe tribe to be exact, are those that contribute to the circle and not just hang around and smoke off of everyone else. The ones that are the worst are the ones that buy a sack and then wanna hang out and smoke your shit like they didn't just buy a sack of their own. So I found a room with a sliding glass door too the indoor pool and hot tub. I turned out the light and sat on the bed, I like to be relaxed when I get high.

I'm about three hits in when this chic that I used to mess with comes up to the sliding glass and looks in before she opens the door and comes in. I assumed that she saw me until she started to close the blinds, lock the glass door and take off her swim suit. I guess I could have said something to alert her of my presence but I didn't. As she took off her top I couldn't help but ogle her, I had forgot how beautiful her tits were. She is a full C with big pink nipples, she is Mexican but very fluent in english. Her name is Reina, and she was an awsome lay, I know I have said that I have never had sex with a guy before but I have with a girl. Just one girl, just Reina. We dated for 8 months starting last summer til Febuary this year, she broke up with me because she said that I wouldn't let her in, something about walls. Who knows, I was lookin at her tits.

Reina started to take off her bottoms when she looked up and saw me. She didn't scream or say anything really. I thought that finding someone in your room when your getting undressed would scare you, but she had this look on her face like she knew I was there the whole time. That look in her gorgeous brown eyes made me instantly wet. I realized I still had the joint in my hand and took a hit as she started to crawl up the bed towards me. She cupped my face with her hands and put her mouth up to mine, I knew what she wanted, so I blew the smoke in her mouth. She took the hit like pro and straddled my lap, I couldnt help my self as I took one of her nipples in my mouth. God, she always taste so sweet, like honey. As I swriled my tongue around her pert nipple and stated to bite on it, she purred and arched her back, sticking her chest even further in my face. She liked it when I would bite her nipples and tug on them, as I finished with one I went to the other one and did the samething.

My other hand went to the side of her bikini bottoms, yesss she wore the ones that tie on the side, easy access. I did a little mental dance as my hands untied both sides of her bottoms at the same time. "Mi amor, beso mi" Reina whispered in my ear as she started to grind on top of me. I removed my mouth from her nipple and start licking and sucking my way up her chest, kissing her collar bone and up the side of her neck. I nibble on her ear before I snaked my hand into her hair and started attacking her mouth. As I nipped at her bottom lip I felt her tongue slide accross my top lip asking for entrance. I eagerly granted her access as I tightened my grip on her hair and deepened the kiss. She started to pull at the end of my tank top, I let go of her long enough for her to take the shirt off over my head and toss it accross the room. I wasn't wearing a bra, something I did often. I have a small C but perky as hell, what can I say my tits are pretty much awsome.

I sighed as she lifted her self away from me and, grabbed the skirt I was wearing pulling it down my legs roughly. She put so much force into it she pulled me down the bed so that I was laying flat on my back. She wasn't much bigger than me she probubly weighed 130 and is 5'6" and I am 120 at 5'4". She grabbed the side of my boy shorts and slowly pulled them off of me. Once she got them off of me I knew what was coming next and I couldn't help but get more wet at the thought. "Bella, beautiful Bella. Open you legs for me." she said seductively. I did as she said and she started to run her hands up my freshly waxed legs. I moaned as she got closer to my kitty. "Reina. . . Oh please. . .Reina" I moaned incoherently. She passed over my kitty and made her way to my tits. I could almost hear my kitty growl and had to calm her down 'clam down girl you'll get your turn'.

"Bella, what do we have here, amor?" Reina asked. "Oh. . . I got my nipples peirced after we broke up" I staggered. They were fully healed now but the peircing made them so much more sensitive. "I. . . um. . . got som. . . something else p. . . peirced too" I stuttered. I was so turned on seeing her playing with my newly peirced nipples that I almost couldn't make a coherent thought. "Really" she purred over my nipple making thrust my hips. I nodded. "Do I get to see this other new peircing, or are you going to be a naughty girl and make me find it?" she asked with a smile. She wanted to play and I was so down to play. "You're gonna to have to find it baby" I said as I flipped us over pinning her beneath me. "I get to have my fun first though, so I want you to spread your legs and let me see that pretty pussy of yours." I comanded. she spread her legs and my jaw dropped as I saw that she was bare. She was never really hairy to begin with but to see her with no hair at all was like a dream and I couldn't wait to taste her again.

I kissed my way up the inside of her thigh lightly nipping as I went. "Amor, please" she begged. I love it when she begs, and she loves it when I do the same, so I knew I would get teased back. I could feel my arousal dripping down my legs thinking about it. "Tell me, tell me what you want Reina." I teased more. "I want you to lick my pussy!" she huffed in anoyance. I smiled as I lick up her wet folds, taking in the sweet sent of her arousal. she moaned as my tongue came in conact with her clit. I licked up her slit agian tasting her even more. "Mmm, always so wet and so sweet." I murmred into her pussy. She bucked her hips up wanting more contact. I began to focus my attention on her clit and took two of my fingers and circled them around her opening before thrusting them inside of her. "Oh. . . God!" she moaned at my actions. I circled my tongue around her clit, and started sucking on it, while thrusting my fingers and curling them to reach the spot that I knew would make her come. "Oh, Bella! Don't stop! Please don't stop!" she chanted as I picked up my pace. I could feel her getting close as her walls started tightening around my fingers. I added a third finger and bit down on her clit. It sent her over the egde like I knew it would. "I. . .I'm coming. . . Oh, oh, oh Bella!" she screamed as she climaxed. I continued my movements til she rode out her orgasm.

Breathing heavily she pulled me up to her and kissed me hard. "I love the way I taste on you, amor." she breathed. "Well, I know that you didn't get your tongue peirced now, but I still have to find this mystery peircing now don't I?" said teased. "It's my turn to be in charge Bella, so lay back, now." she demanded. I instantly got wetter at the sound of her being dominant. I laid back on the bed breathing hard and withering in anticipation. "Such a good girl." she purred as she crawled up my body latching herself onto one of my nipples. "Oh, Reina." I moaned as she tugged on one of my nipple rings and sucked on the other. When she switched and started her mensurations on the other one I bucked my hips. "Now, now Bella. You need to be a good girl, no more of that." she said sternly. Kitty was starting to get pissed and I had to reprimand her again 'I know kitty, I know, but we must be patient.'

She started licking and kissing her way down my stomach. She got to my aching pussy and I did a a happy dance inside. "I love how you are always waxed Bella. You know that is why I started getting waxed myself. I love the way you look all bare and glistening with your arousal. I want to taste you sweet Bella. Can I taste you?" she asked as she rubbed her fingers up and down my wet folds. I nodded because I couldn't form any thoughts. She licked up my slit and back down, then she stuck her tongue inside me and I moaned loudly. She took one of her hands and spread my pussy lips, and I knew she could see my addition. "Bella" she moaned as she looked at the peircing. "You got your hood peirced. I thought you had a pretty pussy before but this, this is a site to see." she said as she dipped her head to lick my clit. "Ohmygod Reina!" I nearly shouted at the contact. As she started to play with my peircing in her mouth she took her other hand and stuck two fingers inside me. I instantly bucked my hips and moaned incoherently as I grabbed my hair and look down to see her looking right into my eyes. She started to tug lightly on my peircing and curling her fingers inside me at the same time. She started to pick up the pace and started alternating licking, sucking, and tugging all while pounding into me with her fingers. I was so close, but I couldn't resist siting up on my elbows to look at her. "Look at me. . . Reina look at me." I moaned. As she looked up at me I lost it. I came so hard screaming "Oh God. . . Reina I'm coming. . . Oh, oh, oh Reina!" She continued til i road out my orgasm.

I blew out a big gust of air "Best party ever!" I said. Reina laughed making me giggle along with her. "This is the best goodbye I have ever had Bella." Her words stuck me. I don't know why but I didnt think about leaving her behinde too. I was leaving in two weeks to New Jersey and she was leaving for college in Texas. Huh, thinking about it made me a little sad but, I knew I wouldn't spend the rest of my life with her, I didn't love her. I don't think that I am capable of that kind of love. She deserves better. "You're right Reina, this is a great goodbye."

A/N: this is my first fan fic no beta yet but am looking for one tell me what you think, should i continue?