Part One:
Darkness
I can feel it seep through me, twisting and turning and making its way through my being.
Blackness
The only color I see now.
Desire
To understand why I was chosen for this cruel, cold destiny
Jealousy
A monster inside of me, trying to break out as I watch the perfect, beloved life of my sister live on, in the ways I cannot
Chill
The temperature of the eternal night that I now live in, forced from the bright, warming sun
Dreamless
No pleasant thoughts or comforting smiles in my dreams, or even dark monsters or scary ghouls that come to take me. Nothing at all.
Just nothing.
Part Two:
It's understandable,
Having to watch these scenes of magic sift through my mind before me
Dreamlands
Places I'll never go to, just like those new films or fantasies.
There's a girl who looks like me
At least, I think she looks like me. But she laughs and smiles, and has wonderful clothes and a happy family.
And her lover
Oh, that beau she has-the most beautiful man I had ever layed my dark, haunting, monstrous eyes on. He whispers in her ear and tells her he loves her, and they hold hands and embrace and smile like they're sharing a secret.
She talks to a girl
A nice girl with long brown hair and warm, deep eyes.
And so I watch
I watch these fantastical snapshots play in my mind, pictures I can see myself in-do see myself in.
But I know I'm lying to myself
I know that they lie to me, tell me to believe what I know isn't true
It's not me
And I will not think so ever-for as long as I shall...exist.
In this nightmare.
So I can hope you understand that Part One is mostly about when she was first changed into a vampire, and all she could think about was how her life and all meaning was over. What I believe is that she didn't have any visions during that time-as it was too full of pain and emptiness, and she could barely think a thing. Part Two is when the visions come in, and she's witnessing all of these happy scenes of when she is with the Cullen family, and in her future love's arms. If you're wondering who the people are, the handsome man who whispers of love in her ear is Jasper, of course, and the nice girl with long brown hair and deep eyes is none other than Bella, the girl who she's destined to be best friends with.
I tried to make this mysterious and haunting, and tried to capture just how much pain Alice had truly went through. It's my take on those empty, dark ages of Mary Alice Brandon, in the asylum with no one to care for her. She had to live knowing that her perfect sister was loved more than herself, and that she was thought of as a freak by her own parents. I tried to convey that-that depression and lonliness, and realy hope that I succeeded.
I really hope you guys enjoyed it! Review, review, review!
Bella