Chapter one

Penny sat at the bottom of the bathroom floor. Her thoughts were far away. She was waiting for her timer to ring. She took this morning a pregnancy test. Penny wasn't sure if she´s pregnant. In the last weeks she had a few signs she might be, and she haven't got her period. But Penny had no idea how she could get pregnant. Leonard used every single time a condom! At first, she thought her period was just late, but now it´s late for 2 weeks and she had to throw up in the last mornings, so she thought she should take a pregnancy test, just to be sure.

It was time, the timer ringed. Penny turned the sound off, closed her eyes and took a deep breathe.

"Okay, Penny. You are not pregnant. Everything is okay. You have always used protection. You can´t be pregnant." Told Penny herself.

She walked over to the test. But instead of looking at the test, she looked at the mirror. Her heart was beating. It felt like it´s going to jump out of her chest. Penny realized, if she would turn her head down, she would see the pregnancy test. And this pregnancy test would tell her if she was pregnant. If she got a baby. A little human-being. If she would become a Mummy. She got pale while thinking about the word "Mummy". Penny closed her eyes again and counted to three. Slowly turned she her head down. But she wasn't brave enough to open her eyes. Penny was scared. She didn't know where this thought came from, but she realized that she can compare this with Schrödinger's cat. There is no result if she´s pregnant. If Pennys eyes are closed, she´s at the same time pregnant and not pregnant. But she couldn't let her eyes closed for the rest of her life, so she opened her eyes. In her eyes were tears, what made her unable to see anything. She dried the tears and took with a shaking hand the pregnancy test. It was positive. Penny didn't know what to do. She didn´t even know what to think or to feel. Should she be happy? But she had never thought about having a baby, she didn't even know if she wants to have one. Should she be sad? But maybe it´s a wonderful thing to get a baby. Bernadette wanted also no baby and it was one of the best days of her life when she held Haley the first time ever in her arms. Should she give it a try? But if she gives it a try and doesn't like it, what should she do? Suddenly she felt not strong enough for standing, she sat down and started crying. She cried everything out. In her arms and legs was no feeling anymore. Leonard would come home soon. And Penny knows what a bad actress she was, Leonard would see somethings wrong with her. But Penny had still some time to finish the whole thing. She has the might to make a doctor appointment and abort the baby. No one would ever know. It would be like it has never existed. It felt right for Penny to do this. She wanted to call the doctor tomorrow. She will abort this baby and her life would go on.

Penny planned to spend the rest of the day with cleaning up the apartment and cooking dinner for Leonard. She decided to make some handmade burgers. Leonard likes burgers and Penny wants him to be happy. Penny prepared the ground beef and put it into the fridge because it had to chill for a half hour. Suddenly Penny felt very tired. She went over to the couch and closed her eyes. The next thing she remembers was Leonard trying to wake her up. Does she fell asleep?

"Leonard? What… I´m…"

Penny was confused. She was always confused after a nap.

"Did you sleep?" Leonard asked.

"It was an accident.", Penny answered. She had a head ache and didn't feel well. "Leonard, I think I go to bed. I don't feel good. I prepared some burgers for dinner. You can eat them if you want to."

Penny went to bed. She was so tired, she doesn't know why. This must be the pregnancy.

When Penny woke up in the next morning, she realized that she slept the whole night with her hand on her stomach. She has never done this before. Not like this.

Leonard entered the door with a tablet in his hands.

"Morning, honey." He said with a big smile on his face. "I thought I bring you some breakfast in you be…"

"GET OUT OF THE WAY!" Penny interrupted him and run into the bathroom. When she smelled the coffee Leonard brought, she felt sick and she thought she had to throw up. She was right because when she arrived into the bathroom, she had to puke. She couldn't even remember when she puked the last time like this. Penny was happy that she reached the toilet and didn't puke at the floor. Leonard came also into the bathroom, held her hair back and tried to calm her down.

He asked:" Are you okay?"

Penny got pissed by it. "Do I look like I`m okay?"

Leonard didn't know what to answer so he just said nothing.

When Penny thought she was done with it, she told Leonard that she will stay at home today. When Leonard wanted to leave the bathroom, Penny told him to put the coffee away and open the windows in the apartment.

Leonard went off to work and Penny went over to her mobile phone. She wanted to tap the number of her gynecologist into her phone, but something felt different. She realized that she can´t abort the baby. It´s something what´s living. It´s going to breathe and to speak and to move. It will be a part of her and… no. This is something she never saw like this. It´s the prove of her and Leonards' love. They created a new human what´s growing inside her. She had to raise and to protect it with her life and that's what she going to do.

But she still had to call her gynecologist and make an appointment to check if the baby is healthy. She got the appointment for this afternoon. She had still some time left until she had to leave the apartment, so she spent the time with watching tv. She wanted to watch the first Harry Potter movie and she got confused because she had never thought she would watch it. She cried at the end. It was so beautiful for her to see how happy Harry was with his new friends and he doesn't have to live at the Dursleys house anymore for the rest of his life.

It was time for Penny to get off to her doctor.

The first thing she did with the doctor was answering some questions. Penny told the doctor that she hasn't got her period I a while and about the morning sickness and she realized by herself that it must be completely clear that she was pregnant. The doctor asked her to go over to the ultrasound and to lift her shirt up. Penny did what the doctor told her.

"This can be a bit cold now." Said the doctor and she was right – it was very cold! Penny didn't look at the display of the ultrasound machine. She couldn't get over herself to look at hers and Leonards' child. There was a scary silence in the room and Penny wished the doctor would finally say something. But the next thing what the doctor says, let Pennys blood freeze.

"Congratulations!" said the Doctor and Penny smiled. Suddenly Penny felt happy to be pregnant. Penny turned her head to the display and stopped smiling.

"You´re pregnant with triplets!" said the doctor. Penny didn't know what to say. She had also no idea how to react. All she knew was that she wished that Leonard was here. The next few minutes were horrible for Penny. She was not able to listen to the doctor. She got a new appointment for next week. When Penny sat finally in her car, she realized that the doctor gave her a bunch of Papers. The first pictures were some Ultrasound pictures of the babies. "3 weeks" says the caption. The next three papers were a list with things about pregnancy. They say what Penny had to do, what to buy, what she wasn't allowed to do anymore and so on.

Penny had no idea how she should teach Leonard about it. It had to be a shock for him. A big one! He wasn't even prepared for a pregnancy, what would he say about triplets?