Wrote to Fragile Bird by City and Colour
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She was sobbing.
Usually she just cried, cried because she couldnt remember, cried because she did remember, or cried because of the lies she'd been told by her brother.
This time she was sobbing. Deep bodied sobs that echoed into his room beside hers.
He wanted to badly to walk into her room and hold her to his chest, to kiss her tears away.
But he couldn't anymore, now they were just friends. The flame was gone, not because it faded, but because she'd stomped it out. She'd grown tired of him stoking the fire. And he'd grown tired of doing it by himself.
But as she let out another painful sob, he couldn't help but wonder if she missed him just as much as he missed her.
The question left him stumped.
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It was for my own good.
That's what she had to tell herself, every time she though if them ripping away her memories, changing her mind.
Part of her wanted to believe it was for the better, that she was psychotic before. A rabid dog that needed to be put down.
Not the most comforting way of putting it.
She tried not to think of the fact that her father had altered the fact that he locked her up for most of her life I a mental institution.
She tried to be quiet, knowing John was through the next wall. He didn't like it when she cried.
You stay with someone long enough and you start to get the little things about them.
John for instance, when given the chance, was full of empathy. She needed only to let a single tear fall to have him giving her puppy dog eyes.
He always held her close though, through every nightmare, every memory that came back.
She used to feel so helpless before she'd gotten her powers.
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She doesn't want me.
It's what he told himself everyone he found himself listening to her tears.
He wanted to hold her.
But he'd have to be strong,
because she didn't want him.
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He doesn't want me anymore.
All she wanted was for him to hold her, and tell her that it would be okay.
But none of that mattered,
because he didn't want her.
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I felt like writing something sad.
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-dani