A/N: Story inpired by a homestuck fic called 'Upgrade'.

Summary

Your name is Lovino Vargas and you are the biggest idiot in the world for having a crush on your best friend. You think it is love, but a person you've only met once in your entire life proved you it's not.

Your name is Lovino Vargas and you are terribly in love with a certain Spanish bastard.

You don't know when you started noticing boys, but once you started it's impossible to turn it off! You have been best friends with Antonio Carriedo Fernandez for years now, and you've noticed these odd feelings developing whenever he playfully broflirts with you. You've always try to find an excuse to talk to him on the phone, and you'll always try to find a way to hang out with him. He always sees it as a 'friendly' thing, but for you, it's more than that.

You had denied it for as long as you could remember; having a crush on your best friend is kind of like those Italian movies you keep watching with your brother. You had never admitted to anyone but you, and you plan on keeping it as a secret until the end of time.

Antonio has invited you to one of his parties, and to be honest, you don't know if you should come. It would be pretty mean if you rejected his invitation, but then again he sees you as that. Your brother was invited too, and by the looks of it, he's planning to go. And you're pretty sure he invited that French fuckface and that German albino, which will add more to the reasons why you shouldn't go. You've hated both of them with a burning passion, you don't really know why, but both of their human presence annoys you a lot.

And in the end, your feelings for him overcome the hatred for his friends. You had decided to go with your little brother, Feliciano. You dressed up quite neatly, and you brought a bag full of clothes, just in case he wanted you to, uh, sleep over.

"Did you bring a present for Antonio, hm, big brother?" Feliciano asked, swinging both of his arms together.

Wait, what?

"Did you forget it's his birthday today?"

You have forgotten its Antonio's birthday today! And this party is no regular party, it's a birthday party. A birthday party filled with people you don't know. A party where you need to socialize. A party where there's a lot of people in every corner of the house. You did realize before that Antonio's pretty popular especially with the ladies. Once a day, there are about 10 girls asking him out. Of course, you couldn't help but feel jealous, but you don't have the courage to admit it. He'll always reject every single girl with an apologetic smile. He'll always tell you the girl's name every after school, you'll always ask If he acknowledged a single one of their feelings, but he always say he's not interested in any of them. You've wanted to ask why and if he already likes someone else, but then again, your courageous meter isn't that high for you to be asking questions like that. You'll always playfully make a joke out of it, patting (slapping) him softly (violently than you have anticipated) at the back.

"I…uh…I did! I did bring a present for him!" You lied, snapping out from these peculiar thoughts about Antonio.

"I see!" You could see Feliciano staring at you at the corner of his eyes, examining your face from top to bottom.

"Brother, why did you bring your clothes with you?" he asked you with pure curiosity on his tone, his eyes refuse to look at yours.

"That's because…that's be-because Antonio invited me over! And he only invited me."

He looked at you with full of questions, but he suddenly shrugged it off.

"Hmm-mm." You can hear him chuckle, his mouth forming into a silly smirk. "Have fun! I guess I'll go home with Ludwig this time."

You couldn't help but notice his smirk when you told him about the so called 'sleep-over' you made up. You nibbled the bottom of your lip and thought of something crazy. What if he knows? Feliciano always sees right through you even if you hide it off with a false emotion. He always can tell if you're hiding something. Are you that of a readable person? Then again, no one has ever seen through you except for your brother. And now, you have become more scared of your feelings. You have to snap it out before it becomes more of an issue. What should you do, lie to him and tell him that you're always like this to the people you've been with ever since? Seems like a believable lie, but knowing your brother, he won't believe a single thing unless you say it in a sincere and calm manner. But you can't do that. You absolutely can't be calm and sincere when you talk about your feelings to people.

And before you know it, you're standing outside Antonio's front door with your brother beside you. Your mind fogs up with a lot of images of Antonio, filling up every corner of your brain with his sweet smile, his dark brown hair and his dense personality. You hesitate to knock on the door, your hands shaking involuntary on the wooden edges of his fancy yet dainty door.

You stand there, frozen. You have never become this nervous in your whole life. You don't know what you should do, Should you really sleep over with him? Why are you asking yourself this now, when you were blissfully packing your stuff feeling like Antonio invited you over for the night? You shook your head, removing all the thoughts fogging up in your mind. You ceased worrying, gently knocking on the door twice. You notice your brother was watching you all this time, studying your face from top to bottom. Was he reading your mind or something? He seems to be as cheerful as ever, but you can't help but notice the corner of his mouth twitch up in a secretive smile.

A/N: First, I apologize if i made any grammar mistakes!

Second, I don't really know where i'm going with this so yeah

lastly, This won't be an all Spamano fic! expect more pairings on the next future chapters!

reviews are loved!