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Summary: 'Hear the words that i cannot say. See the pain that i can not show you, know that i need your help, even if i don't say it.' Rated M for mature content, mentions of self harm, drug/alcohol usage rape and suicide. You have been warned. pairings, SasuKaka. Takes place before and after time skip, with flashbacks.

Chapter 1: Abomination

Normal Pov.

"Stop it Fugaku! what's wrong with you?" Mikoto yells to her husband. He takes the fist that he slammed out of the hole in a wall and turns back to her.

"It's that damn abomination child of yours!" Fugaku says glaring holes into her as she does the same.

"OUR child is NOT an abomination! what about him is so wrong?" Mikoto argues, her fists clenched at her side.

"He will never be an elegable shinobi like his brother Itachi, who's ever heard of a deaf ninja? He's a damn handicap for Kami's sake!" Fugaku yells his face red with anger. Mikoto lets a few tear escape from her eyes.

"handicap or not he is your SON! You need to wake up and realise that. Parents are supposed to love their children no matter what, and you're not doing your job." She says turning her back to him.

"You WENCH! You dare to question the way that i treat my own flesh and blood, It seems to mean you need to learn just where YOUR place is in this family!" Fugaku rages, roughing turning her around and slapping her across the face. Mikoto keeps her face turned and brings a hand up to her stinging cheek and more tears leak out.

"F-Fugaku...w-what's happened to y-you...you are no longer the man i came to fall in love with." She whispers avoiding his eyes. Fugaku feeling guilty but hides it and glares harder at her.

"Next time...just don't speak out of place...if you learned to hold your tongue then i wouldnt have had to.." He says almost just as softly but still angry.

"...i am not some slave Fugaku...i...am...your wife." She says before escusing herself; with his nod of approval of course.

Little Sasuke had heard the whole 'conversation' Unknown to his parents. Itachi heard as well and is currently trying to comfort his little brother, sasuke burying his face into Itachi's shoulder.

"Don't cry Sasuke, it's alright." Itachi says calmly to Sasuke.

"but he hurt m-Mother...a-and he said that i-i'm an abnation" Sasuke stutters out. Itachi despite himself chuckles causing Sasuke to look up at him with his wet, shining orbs.

"you mean abomination. and that's impossible for you to be Sasuke. You are one of the brightest kids i've ever met. You're creative, fun, caring and a very determined person. If he can't see that then fuck him." Itachi says. Sasuke eyes slowly wide as he stares at Itachi in shock.

"I-itachi you said fu-" Itachi places a finger over his lips. Smiling softly.

"yes i know, and i don't want you repeating it...and don't tell Mother that i said that either got it?" He asks, Sasuke smiles back nodding his head. "are you alright now" Itachi asks. Once again sasuke nods his head and gets up.

"a bit late don't you boys think? and yes i heard what you said Itachi...i don't want you saying that either or saying it around little Sasu." Mikoto says behind them. The both turn to face her shock written on their faces. They look at her to see her eyes puffy and red, and a large red hand mark on her face. Itachi's face turns to stone and he walks forward.

"So he's hurt you..." Itachi says, stating what he already knew. Mikoto nods.

"Itachi, don't do anything reckless now, he is still your F-Father." She whispers, Neither Itachi or Sasuke speaking up about her hesitation.

"I won't just sit here and do nothing, he hit you, i don't care who he is. i'll kill him." Itachi says, clenching his hands till his knuckles are white. Mikoto steps forward and places a hand on his fists, uncurling them and she tilts his head up to look into her eyes.

"Itachi...You are my son...and i love you too much to see you get hurt. It would break my heart knowing that you could get hurt." Mikoto says her eyes searching his. Itachi lets out the breath he was uncontiously holding and reluctantly nodding his head. Sasuke looks in shock at what Itachi said. "Now, why dont you go on to your room i'd like to speak with sasuke for a moment." She says, Itachi returns the smile she gives him and walks out, but not before saying goodnight to Sasuke.

"M-mother...did...did Itachi mean what he said?" Sasuke asks nervously. Mikoto sighs as she closes the door and sits on his bed, beckoning him to sit next to her. Wich he does.

"I...". 'im not sure...' She saying in her mind. She clears her throught and looks down at him. "No. He just doesnt want to see me hurt, you know how protective he is, especially over you." She says, Sasuke giggles a bit at the last part.

"Why does F-Father hate me? What did i do wrong?" Sasuke asks, tears building up. Mikoto looks at his tearful face and almost breaks down herself. She wipes his tears away giving him a shakning smile.

"He doesnt hate you Sasuke...you Father is just having a hard time dealing...he doesnt know how to show how much it hurts him to know..that his son is going..." She trails off.

"deaf.." Sasuke finishes for her, his voice dull.

"yes...Look at me Sasuke, i want you to know that theres nothing wrong with can and will overcome this, i know you. You are very strong and bright young boy. But most importantly you are my son. I love you very much Sasuke, i know you won't let this overcome you." She says strongly; meaning every word she said. Sasuke looks up at her, the doubt he had before seeming to disappear. He smiles brightly at her and she smiles back just as brightly.

"I love you too Kaa-san." He says, yawning. She tucks him in once he gets situated and kisses his forehead.

"Good-night my Sasu." She whispers, she heads for the door, before Sasuke calls out to her.

"leave the light on?" he asks. She smiles to herself and turns on his lamp light.

"sure things kiddo, now sleep tight, you, me, and Hopefully Itachi are going out tomorrow." She says.

"Yay!...but don't i have to go to the academy tomorrow?" He asks his happiness going away. She turns and winks to him.

"well i can pull a few strings, i say we all deserve a break ne?" She says then leaves closing his door behind her. She looks up to see Fugaku staring at her. She hides her shock and stands firm.

"well i will be retiring to our chambers, will you join me?" She questions. He looks at her for a moment then shakes his head.

"no im going out, not sure when i'll be back, i just came to...tell you...Night." He says turning his back to her. She looks down sadly.

'at least he told me he was going out this time...' She thinks turning away slowly and walking to her room.

"and Mikoto..." He calls without turning around. She pauses her heart picking up.

"im...i-i..." He struggles to find the words. She holds her breath. "nevermind...sleep well Mikoto." He says finally and leaving her alone. She shakes her head and goes into their room, falling onto the bed and crying herself to sleep.

'where did we go wrong...where did i go wrong.' Are her last thoughts before drifting off.

Well that was the first chapter, good, bad? Too short? i want to know so... R&R!