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A/N: I know this chapter is short but they will be getting bigger as the story progresses. This is my first Harry Potter FanFic so please review to tell me what you think about it and how I can improve. I've tried to get as many of the mistakes out but I know there will still be some.

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oOoInseparable DesireoOo

It was a peaceful autumn day at Hogwarts. A faint breeze filled the air with the relaxing sound of rustling leaves. There weren't many students in the building, as well as many professors, as most decided to spend it with classes outside to enjoy the nice weather.,

With this strange turn of events, the outside had become too crowded to concentrate, and many students like Severus, who wanted quiet, stayed in.

He sat in the far corner, on a long oak desk in the Library. His head was deeply buried in a book about potions and their effects. He had read this before, but not for some time. He rather enjoyed diving into books and attempting to remember every word, gathering up all the glory that it brought the reader. He never wanted to miss any small detail.

From the way his back was hunched over, and how his ebony eyes rapidly moved from side to side, anyone would think he was in a trance, where no one or no thing would catch his attention. And that was true. Nothing silly would ever grab his attention when there was a better and more important activity at hand. An activity that would feed his brain with knowledge for the future-something that Severus always fed on. Plus he had to keep a straight head as he could easily remember a wrong formula.

But something suddenly filled the air. It was a soft sweet essence of lavender and jasmine. It completely took all his attention away from the task at hand... and every other guy that was probably there too. This was rare for Severus, as he found his mind slowly drifting away. It felt as if his head was becoming heavier, and he could feel the thumping of his heart. His body oddly became hot as beads of sweat covered his neck. Severus briefly looked up and around the room, curious to know where the intriguing scent came from, and who was doing this to him. There were a couple of girls seated down between one of the muggle book aisles- Hufflepuffs they were, but they had been there before. He knew for a fact it was not them. This was a scent he had smelt before-only lighter and less noticeable. This smell was almost overpowering.

Before he knew it, his dark eyes locked onto a girl he knew all too well.

Lily Evans.

Sixth year Prefect, top charms student, and most beautiful girl in the school. She was not popular as she chose her friends wisely, but had all the guys after her. They would practically crawl on there hands and feet begging for a chance- losing every strain of dignity in the process. Much like what Severus had done after 'the big incident' of fifth year- the talk of the century that was.

But for some odd reason, she had yet to take anyone up on there offers. Anyone Severus had heard of that is. He was not one for gossip, but he always tried to keep an ear out for anything to do with Lily.

He repeatedly cursed himself every time he saw her. Flashbacks would rapidly take over his mind and all he could see was Lily angry, no furious with him. Severus sighed, if he had not been such a dunderhead and called her that one forbidden word four months ago, he would be able to just get up and sit over there with her - with no worries of rejection. She would have greeted him with her soft warm smile and they would have chatted away. Why couldn't he have just cursed at her instead? Like a normal guy would. But Severus was far from normal. He was a sixteen year old with a tainted soul - made possible by his abusive family. A family that did not even want him. He would of still had a chance at being more with Lily. He knew it was a far stretched scenario and would have required a great amount of luck on both sides.

More

I always wanted more...

But that was gone, all gone and he knew it. He was left broken hearted and cold - more so than before. So why did he keep thinking about it?

Was it because he did not want to admit to what had happened? That the only person who ever loved him and he ever loved now loathed his soul? That his burning love for the dark arts was too strong for a girl like Lily to bear? That he actually did love the dark arts in the first place?

Severus had to admit he found taking refuge in the Dark Arts eased his pain. As each day went by he became deeper and deeper into the dark hallow. But he was able to let off steam as he had channeled all his anger and grief into inventing spells; dangerous ones that could seriously injure or even kill. Even Severus feared to test them on any living thing, including himself. They were his secret and no one was to ever know.

He looked back over to Lily who was scribbling away in a white and black leather book of parchment. There was a golden latch and lock around the edge that caught his eye. He inwardly smiled to himself as he knew it was from the muggle world.

Seriously Lily, anyone here could break that lock within a second!...She's not stupid though, she probably charmed it to bite off whoever's fingers.

Severus sighed, how I'd love to see what's inside...

Just then the bell suddenly rang. Severus looked down at his half read chapter and frowned, he would have to finish this later. He picked up the stack of books on the corner of the desk, and proceeded to his NEWT Potion's class.

He had just made it to the doorway before he lost his footing and fell to the ground.

Just what I needed. Severus looked up to see who saw and grumbled at the small group of Gryfindore's laughing loudly at him. He swore his face turned a shade of red. Severus hastily picked up everything and shuffled his way to class. The best thing was that Lily would be there...

oOoInseparable DesireoOo

A group of Slytherins were gathered in a deserted hallway on the fifth floor. Small bits of light tunneled through the shaded windows, and the smell of old fumes filled the air. This was after all a deserted and forbidden part of the castle.

"The Dark Lord gave me the mark!" A boy with thick brown hair named Avery stated proudly. Everyone's eyes began to twinkle with envy. Ooh's and ah's filled the musty air.

The mark indeed look painful as lines of brunt skin were yet not fully healed. But that did not seem to discourage anyone.

"As soon as you're seventeen you'll have one just like it!"

Grins filled the room and everyone gazed over to Severus, "You're next Snape!"

Severus smirked proudly. This was the best thing that he could ask for his birthday. Being 'marked' and to have a purpose in life. This brought a strange joy to him. His happiness was short lived and he suddenly frowned. His eyes followed Avery who was looking down at his hands that were filled with books. He walked over and knocked them from Severus' grasp.

"Well, well, well, what do we have here." he taunted as he pulled up a familiar black and white leather book. He twirled it around a few times and watched as Severus gasped and his eyes grew wide.

It's Lily's book!

Severus quickly reached for it but Avery pulled away at the last second.

"Something you don't want us all to read?" Laughter filled the air. Severus shot him a glair as Avery smirked- he was clearly enjoying this.

Without hesitation, Severus flipped out his wand and flung Avery black on his ass. Severus stormed over, snatched it away and left everyone standing there stunned and confused.

He had to get out of there. Severus walked quickly, almost running out and down the hall. He could feel his heat pounding away with pure excitement. He had Lily's book and disarmed Avery!

He was beyond excited at what he held in his hands. This was better that any Death Eater news. This was pure gold. He hated to think of what would happen if Avery read what was in it. He didn't think his eyes were any better but he knew he would not utter a word to anyone about what was inside.

Down the staircase and through the entrance, Severus ran up into his dorm and locked the door. He threw down his other school books, kicked off his boots and robes(leaving just his shirt and trousers) and settled onto his bed.

Here it was. The book he wanted so desperately was now sitting in front of him. He could almost feel the burn of excitement as everything Lily was so close to his eyes. Just one flick of his wand and he could know everything.

Severus's long fingers brushed over the golden lock. It was a simple muggle contraption that would easily open. Heck, Severus did not even think he would need magic to break it but would anyways. He brought out his wand and hovered it over the lock. A ping of guild suddenly washed over him.

It's not your book Snape. She'll hate you for entirety if you open that thing. The small voice in his head screamed.

What do I have to loose? She already hates me. He retorted back.

You will hurt her even more Snape. Do you really want to do that?

Severus Sighed.

A/N: This story will start to make more sense by the next chapter. Please give it a chance! Rating might change as story goes on...