I Loved You Most
By: Michelle Bowen
Chapter 1:
Memories
"Home, it was once been a tower, and the valley that held my tower had once been my whole world. I had known nothing else, no one else but mother, Pascal, and my tower, I dreamt of more. My life has changed in what seems the blink of an eye, I have learned that I was not who mother told me I was, and she was not my mother. It hurt to find out, to learn I was stolen from my real mother and father, the King and Queen of Corona. I was stolen because the woman I considered mother saw me as nothing but a pawn for own youth!"
Pausing in my journal I took a deep breath and then continued to write. "I hate her! I hate her so much" my eyes filled with tears as I wrote. "She stole it all from me, and still I loved her...I still do" I wrote feeling anger coursing through me. "She told me every day that I wasn't good enough, I thought that if I could just be good enough I could make her happy. The more I tried the worse she made me feel, I just thought that was how a mother was. I thought that this is what love was. She had me fooled! She had me where she wanted me. And then everything changed when Flynn showed up."
There I paused and closed my eyes remembering the fear in that moment when Eugene had come into my tower. I had knocked him out. "That was when everything changed when I Eugene found me, at first I thought he was stupid, eventually we left the tower after I made my point clear, and then we left. I don't know how she found out I left but somehow she tracked us down, and tried to manipulate me, to make me come home. It was the first time I ever questioned her, or ever said no. I had never felt more uncertain of myself, or more certain that I had a right to see the lanterns, I was so confused."
My breath caught, "She manipulated me again…..and again….and when I found out who I was and the truth about her, and how she'd taken me. When I tried to leave and Eugene came to save me, she stabbed him, she tried to kill him, and when I promised to not fight her if she let me heal his wounds; Eugene cut my hair and the flower died, freeing me from her."
My hands trembled, as I wiped my eyes, and released a shaky breath. "In that moment she turned old and scary and screamed and was like a demon, like those frightening people she always told me about. All the monsters I had been warned of had been in her in that instant! She fell from the tower, and all I could think was mother was dead, I reached for her…and she was gone." I trembled as I wrote the last in my diary, "Mother why? Why me? Why did you do this? Why are you the monster? I loved you… I loved you most."