A/n: I don't know what is possessing me to write this but here we go…

God forgive me! I feel this to be a grievous sin! But I must write what my heart commands me to!

Disclaimer: I do not own Inuyasha (or Trigun for that matter).

My heart is breaking. Literally breaking in half. The bloody mess is sinking from my throat, sliding down to land heavily in my stomach. How could she do this to me? How? How could she fucking throw away 3 years of love and protection…? How! And why with him of all people? Couldn't she have picked anyone else?

I watch as she tousles his hair, burying her fingers into his long locks, her other hand resting firmly on his bicep. I watch as he tilts her head back, dominating her even more. I watch as she purrs out a sound half between a moan and a giggle. I watch as that bastard kisses her harder, demanding her compliance.

And she just gives it to him! She gives it willingly. She fucking bends and gives him submission! I had to fucking beg for even the littlest speck of dominance and here she fucking gives it to him for nothing!

Oh gods, how could she do this to me? She's a bitch. She's such an incredible bitch! Surely she knew I loved her. She must know I love her. And I do still love her… Even now, as I watch them, I still find myself loving her… wishing to be him.

Him. He knew I loved her. He knew it, but he did it anyway. He took her just like he took everything I ever wanted! Nothing I ever did was ever good enough for him. I'd walk, he'd want me to run. I'd jump, he'd want me to leap. Nothing I did was ever good enough! My blood was too tainted. I was just some stupid mistake to him.

But ha, if he thought I was tainted… my, my. What will the children look like? Will they resemble their uncle? I hope they fucking look just like me. I hope their mother cries every time she looks at them. And I hope he remembers how shitty he treated me.

Didn't he know I did all of it for him? Didn't he know if he would have just given me the slightest fucking hint that he cared even the littlest bit that I'd want nothing else from him! Yea… He knew. He just didn't give a fuck. He never gave a fuck.

Sometimes I wish he just would have killed me back then, just snapped my neck and let me die… Right now death is looking pretty damn good.

Hell, I wish I was still stuck to the fucking tree. To be eternally alone is better than this shit. Gods… This is such bull shit! Even with Kikyou, even with the way she is now, even she's better than this. Kikyou would never hurt me like this, even her giving the shards to Naraku was less of a betrayal than this. Even her arrow piercing my flesh was easier to bear…

Does she think I don't know? Does she think she's better than my nose? Does she think she can wash the stink of him off her skin with simple soap and water? Coming back into camp after seeing him, smiling her simple smile, acting like she loves me… She never loved me! She loved him…

Stupid fucking whore. She actually thought she was fooling me. But I know that scent better than any other. That bastard. That bastard that who I knew was a bastard before I even learned the word! She could never scrub the stink of him off her.

I know how he could do it, he hates me; but her… I thought she at least liked me. I knew she could never really love me, but at least I thought she was out to try and spare my feelings… Fucking bitch. Fucking lying bitch! I hate her, them, both of them. I hate them so fucking much. But I don't care, I refuse to give two shits about them!

…But then why does it hurt so much?

…Ahhh. What did I just write! A Kag/Sesshy! That's not like me! That goes against everything I've ever stood for! Oh my… I really should be working on my Trigun fic, sorry "Run" fans… The delay continues! (Why did I put an exclamation like I'm happy about that…?)

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