I was in love once.
Once…
But they all advised against it. Tsunade-shishou said it was not right, that it would interfere with our village and missions. Kakashi-sensei told me that he was lazy when he was not being overworked. Naruto asked me why I loved someone I barely knew as opposed to somebody that has asked me out so many times. Sai read in a book that it was not appropriate. Ino and Hinata knew no one but them would approve.
Maybe they were all right. Loving someone like him would be highly overrated. To love his goofy smile, his serious face, and the way he scared us when we were fooling around would be ridiculous.
But he made me fall in love. He always carried me to the hospital when I was fatigued and injured from missions. He saved me from falling, getting stabbed, and being hit by the Nine-Tailed Fox's chakra. From the first time I met him, I knew—well, we all knew—that he treated me differently, kinder than the rest. If he doesn't love me after all that, then I'm horribly mistaken.
I was once in love with him. Everybody somehow knew—except for him.
Nobody wanted me to be in love.
I forced myself out.
I only wish I knew how Yamato-taichou felt.
My love for her is taboo.
No one would approve. But I love her cherry blossom hair and beaming smile.
Even her cooking, which is not exactly close to gourmet.
I care so much about her. Even from our first meeting, I fell for her and wanted to do my best to protect her. Though it was my carelessness that endangered her, I still carried her to safety.
She praised her sensei—my senpai—too often. She acted like he was a god or something. I admit, I was jealous. But now, she praises me even more than him.
I can't love her. No, I can't. Ten years, and even more, is what separates us.
Even worse, I doubt she loves me back. To her, I'm just "taichou", or maybe even "sensei's replacement".
That girl is precious to me. Everything about her—her violent tendencies, bright pink hair, jade green eyes, lovely laugh, hard work and dedication, and the way she smiles when I call her name—is something to love. She is my most precious treasure. No one knows of this. They would surely advise against it. I wonder how senpai would react if he found out. Naruto-kun and Sai-kun would disapprove, for sure.
I love her so much, though.
I wonder if Sakura-chan feels the same.