Chapter 1

I pace back and forth across the waiting room of the hospital. "Ellie", says my boyfriend Sean in a gentle voice, "everything's going to be ok."

"Everything's not going to be ok Sean!" I cry as I continue to pace back and forth in anticipation. "My mom was driving under the influence, and hit a tree! She's in a coma! How can you say she's going to be alright?! I'm only 15!"

Sean and I have been dating for nine months now. When my dad went off on a peace keeping mission two years ago, but ended up having a heart attack, and dying. My mom started heavily drinking right after that. For a long time, I turned to cutting. Razor blades, knifes, anything. It was the only thing that helped. But now she had Sean. She hadn't cut since they first started going out. But why now does she feel that old need of a razor blade against her skin?

"Mrs. Nash?" asks a doctor stepping off the elevator. I nod yes, as Sean grabs my hand. I squeeze back in a panic of what the next few moments might hold. "I'm so sorry to inform you, but your mother is dead." I start to cry into Sean's shoulder. I can't believe it! For all the time that I hated her, all the time I wished she was dead. Why now? Why now when I was finally happy with my life? I continue crying like this for a good 10 minutes before I finally stop. "I'm really sorry Sean. I don't know why I'm going on like this."

"Ellie, your mom just died. You have every right to cry." How could I have ever deserved someone so amazing is beyond me. When she and Sean started dating, (he was emancipated), he asked her to move in. So she got emancipated also, and moved in. She was so glad now that she got emancipated at the time, because otherwise, who knew what would have happened to her? "Honey, lets go home. We can talk in the car if you'd like." I nodded in response.

So we got into his car, and started to drive home. "I'm so confused, Sean. For so long now, I've hated her alcoholism, and wanted her to sober up. Why couldn't she do it? Why did it have to come to this? Why did she have to die? What did I ever do to deserve this?! The only truly good thing in my life was meeting you." I lean against the window and start to cry again.

This was my first chapter; I hope you all liked it! Please review and let me know if you like it, and if I should continue writing it!